Look into my eyes and realise

Sorry boss I can't focus at work today. Yeah I found a new tv show. Yeah it could last anywhere from a week to several years.

mingus kingus saturday

everyone tells me that ADHD isn't an excuse for being lazy and that there are people with ADHD who have overcome their symptoms and are successful but every day I drag around an invisible dopplegänger of myself who is horrible and listless and always complains. and he is so heavy. I'm ambitious and I'm passionate but he isn't and the problem is that to get anywhere in life I have to grab him by the leg and pull him along the whole way, kicking and screaming, and sometimes it gets exhausting. sometimes he pulls me down with him. and it gets a bit difficult to explain to people why I'm lying down on the floor in pain when they can't see him.

sometimes water tastes so good and you drink it in such a ferociously passionate way that you frighten yourself

was about to fall asleep and then hit me that when ilya first meets shane his mother's death was only FIVE years earlier which is. basically nothing but also SO much time to be fending for yourself and growing up too fast and everyone expecting too much of you and you're only 17 but. then there's this canadian boy with freckles who tells you not to smoke and shakes your hand twice and looks at you like you're more than a hockey player and for the first time in five years you think maybe that's true. i'm gonna be sick.

honestly it is really funny and lucky that shane is just the horniest most desperate sub alive because ilya is like 20 years old and such an improv dom who is struggling for the next english line. but he has the perfect scene partner because he can be like okay now get on your knees and… lick… the wall…. and shane is like oh my god this is the hottest thing that’s ever happened to me