But also I think he should combine it with Shane’s need to know things. Because Ilya just gets A Vibe and isn’t always sure why.

“Our rookie seems to be very interested in picking mushrooms out of food.” Dropped in the muddle of a day off when Shane has a shoot scheduled.

“His sister’s allergic.” First thing Shane says when he returns from his shoot. “Probably runs in the family, or just super cautious” said to Shane as he climbs into Ilya’s lap and slots himself into Ilya’s arms.

Caught up in my feelings about Shane actively learning to accept and work through sensory regulation and his overstimulated nervous system.

In my mind, Yuna happened upon Jellycats when Shane was pretty young (I had one as a kid because my mum got excited about toy trends and most of my classmates had one so she saved for my birthday and I LOVED it). Anyway, I think Yuna would purchase one when Shane suddenly doesn't hate Kindergarten because his teacher has acquired a Jellycat for the quiet corner of the classroom. In my mind Shane spends all his time completing puzzles and reading books in this corner when he can, and Yuna is just like, "okay, he's not making friends or playing with kids, but AT LEAST he doesn't hate school now," and so she buys him one. She gets him the Bashful Bunny version. At first she's unsure, its light pink, its got flower designs in the ears, but when she shows Shane the website, its the one he wants. Says its just like the one at school. And, well, Shane is so particular, Yuna knows her son, and in my mind, Yuna is a supportive mom, but she's also got some ideas about perception and maybe deep down she thinks ideas about boy vs girl toys are reductive, but she is way more preoccupied with fitting in. Molding and changing herself has been a part of her identity since her family immigrated when she was young. She was always making herself smaller for people, always considered too different too driven too confident, and she doesn't want Shane to be ostracized the way that she was. So in my headcanon of Shane's childhood, Yuna is always just lightly steering Shane onto the path of least resistance. I think David initially resists this a bit, preferring to let Shane be whatever way he is, and I think their marriage was probably pretty rocky during those early years of raising Shane because of disagreements about how to raise and respond to their son, but ultimately, I think David just decides to steps back a bit on that front (maybe in result of a larger fight in which Yuna expresses that he will never understand the way she was treated and thus will never fully understand the struggles Shane will face being biracial.)

Anyway, all this to say, I think after Shane, ever stubborn, ever himself while he's young (not yet knowing that he was supposed to shrink himself to fit in) tries to steal the Jellycat from school and thus twists Yuna's hand. She buys him the Bashful Bunny and god he loves it, (hilariously names him Bun-edict with the help of David), and carries it everywhere, cuddles with it on the couch, pets its floppy ears when he's upset, rubs his cheek on the fluffy top of its head absentmindedly, he hugs it to his chest tightly while he's reading. When it arrives he's doing a happy wiggle just waiting for Yuna to open the box and she's TAKING TOO LONG MOM, and Yuna is at first uncomfortable with how much he likes it, worries about it getting dirty. She closes the blinds when he's in the kitchen with the plushie just in case the neighbor will peak through the blinds of the stuffy house next door in the suburban hell which is the their home and hate her five-old-son who doesn't care to know that pink soft things are for little girls. This neighbor who already looks at them funny when she lets Shane play and jump in the front yard sprinkler, who smiled noncommitally when she offered to invite her son over for a playdate with Shane, saying, "For sure! I just don't know if that their will be anything he can eat" and "Well are boys are just raised so differently," and "my son is just so rowdy they probably don't have much in common. But really, you got so lucky with such a....sensitive kid, must be a dream." But then Shane nuzzles the bashful bunny and hums happily with his nose stuck in a Second Grade Reader booklet about Silly Hotdogs, her son, so smart and so small and already so different, and she just can't bring herself to take that comfort away from him. So she washes the toy and carefully air dries it so stay fluffy and soft and she lovingly rubs its tufts with Tatami scented oil which Shane adores and snuffles and when she gathers her son in her arms, he smells like home and Yuna can't breathe in enough of it even as she struggles to pull in the next rush of air.

• holding ilya’s hand while they cross a busy street full of hazards (potholes, roadworks, etc)

• rescuing ilya from kidnappers (he kicks down the door)

• rescuing ilya from a burning building (bridal carry)

• fighting in a gladiatorial ice hockey arena for ilya’s hand in marriage

• massaging ilya’s bad knee and ilya says with wonderment “wowww wow. shane you’re so good at this… you are better than every physical therapist on earth probably”

• saying “he asked for no pickles” to the mcdonalds cashier

• carrying ilya’s bags

• washing ilya’s hair

• applying o’keefes working hands cream to ilya’s calluses

It makes him feel possessive, like a god. Like an animal with their kill. god he did come hard- his brain is maybe a little wonky at the moment. “I love your tits” Ilya exhales, leans down and kisses over one of Shane’s nipples, smirks at the way the boy full body jolts under Ilya, hand cupping his cheek, fingers tugging at his ear.

“Ilya” he companies, in that bitchy cute little voice he does, where he goes up on the vowel at the end. “Best tits in the world and all mine” Ilya whispers between kisses, the taste of his own cum and Shane’s sweat on his tongue.

“Ok” Shane just sighs in reply and Ilya tilts his head, takes a bite of Shane’s peck between his teeth, pushing down down until Shane squeaks, pulls his earlobe hard.

“Animal” Shane says with a huff, like an admonishment, but Ilya feels the goosebumps break on his skin against him, feels the way Shane arches up to stay close as Ilya draws back.

“For these tits? Yes” Ilya agrees solemnly, nods so that his chin digs into Shane’s chest.

“Hungry animal” Ilya clarifies, and bites again, a bigger mouthful and Shane’s fingers start to pinch at his back, his sides and Ilya holds on long enough to feel Shane start to get a little hard against his hip again.

“Stop tryna eat me” Shane grumbles and Ilya tilts his head up leans in to knock his nose on Shane’s.

“Never. You like it way too much” Ilya mutters, pouts at Ilya and then bites at Shane’s mouth.

He pulls back to look down at Shane’s chest again, hand smoothes over the skin to rub the slick of his cum all over the skin and make it shine. Ilya wants to cum on him again, and again maybe. His fingers idly pinch at Shane’s nipple and shane lets out this pretty little whine and well Ilya is just a man so he does it against and then again and when Shane says his name again it’s a needy soft sweet thing.