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So as for how Ilya could denote to Shane that he’s Working: a good pet will know to be good even without a collar. Your real life cat or dog is still your pet even if they aren’t wearing a collar. So Ilya could denote “Service Dog Time” as just Shane wearing a collar at all. However, I’ve had partners in the past who liked having multiple collars for multiple occasions. A cheap nylon collar for swimming/showering, a nice leather one for when we’re having a more structured and formal scene, something thick and restrictive for punishments or when I feel like being mean, etc. So Shane could have a second collar that is maybe fancier for when he’s Working. His normal collar could even just be a simple chain necklace, and then he could have a proper leather something for his Work collar. But allow me to offer what I think is even juicier: Shane wearing Ilya’s necklace (the one with the cross). There is no greater form of ownership and trust than offering his mother’s necklace to Shane to wear when Shane is Ilya’s Service Dog. Even better for Shane, Anya never gets to wear that necklace because she simply isn’t as good as Shane 😌 She has to wear normal, boring dog collars, and Shane gets The Good Stuff because he is the goodest boy!

Just food for thought!

WWAAHHH THIS IS SO CUTE Come Off Anon And Fall In Love With Me r u one of my mutuals im too nosy for anons

i LOOOVE ilya putting shane in his necklace as a collar, he feels so special, hes careful with it... UGH the romance of it KILLS me

for me Shane's Service would def be like, a 24/7 thing i think he'd be sad if ilya said it was done and to stop serving him.... thats his owner...

I love the idea that Shane is fighting so hard to batten down every fucking hatch -- it doesn't matter that some of his sponsors dropped him. It doesn't matter that he's second line, without a letter. It doesn't matter that people are still writing think pieces about Tripgate and his relationship and the Metros and every other part of him. It doesn't fucking matter, Ilya, he's fine.

Except, of course, the hatch that he can't control because he's literally fucking sleeping. He's cooking eggs because he's stressed about protein intake, not that he'd say it aloud. Someone wrote a tweet about how everyone should've known he was gay with his long hair, and it shouldn't have bothered him as much as it did, but it did and now there are chunks of hair in the sink. In his dreams, he's perpetually stepping off a cliff, and he doesn't regret it, but it's constant and scary, and the only thing his body can do about it is walk off his dock.

His body is trying to wrest control back from him the only way it knows how, and it's terrifying for Ilya and deeply shameful for Shane, who is trying so hard to have some fucking control and keeps losing that fight with himself.

and of course the harder shane tries to control it the worse it gets!! and absolutely nothing is helped by ilya slowly losing his shit because no no no it can’t be happening again not again no no no no

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