ℱ.ℬ.

an exploration of: going against the grain when your life has been planned for you, softness as your strength, allowing yourself second chances, rewriting your own story, community as love, family as more than just a name.

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BOLD WHAT OFTEN APPLIES. ITALICISE WHAT SOMETIMES APPLIES.

ANGER. jaw clenching, hands balling into fists, teeth grinding, yelling, going nonverbal, stuttering speech, rushed speech, slow concise speech, rambling, quiet, arms crossing, shaking head, tearing up, animated, expressionless, projects, internalizes, vents, withdraws, passive aggressive, direct, physical outbursts, verbal outbursts.

JOY. easy smiles, fighting back grins, suppressed laughter, loud laughter, giggles, chuckling, smirks, whole body laughs, covers mouth when laughing, throws head back when laughing, slaps leg, touches people around them when laughing, looks down when laughing, looks for eye contact when laughing, sparkling eyes, bubbly happiness, quiet subtle happiness, obnoxious happiness, wants to spread joy, quietly savors joy.

SADNESS / CRYING. bottling it up, seeks distractions, wallows, meditates & processes, avoidance, seeks out comfort, withdraws, talks it out, internalizes it, sad smiles, depression naps, uses alcohol, uses drugs, seeks out sources of joy, fidgets with sentimental item, sits in silence, broods, gets moody, wants someone to share the misery, tries to hide negative emotions, nurtures others to make themselves feel better.

EMBARRASSMENT. shame, blushing, looking away, rubbing at back of head, covering face, laughing nervously, laughs it off, overthinks, lets it go, self-deprecating humor, deflects, gets irritated, smiles, withdraws, crossing arms over stomach, crossing arms over chest, hands in pockets, shoulders sinking, shrugs, falling into silence until comfortable again, talking a lot to compensate.

GUILT. avoiding eye contact, shoulders sinking low, head hanging down, crying, chest aches, lashes out, internalizes, apologizes, deflects, communicates, withdraws, grand gestures for forgiveness, accepts fault easily, punishes themselves, martyrdom, victim complex, over-active guilt complex, healthy conscience, internalizes even after forgiveness, seeking redemption, moves on easily, denial, lack of guilt/conscience, sorry they got caught more than caused harm, can’t handle knowing they hurt others.

it took merely an instant for her to perk up— an immediate adjustment to her posture. one that, previously slouched, sinking into the fine satins of their couch cushions, quickly altered into its now-rigid state. " are worries not inherently thoughtful, brother? " she happened to counter, somehow spilling through in an air of condescension rather than... well, the technicalities of literal speak; the beauty in plain verbiage, that of which she much preferred, had her own opinions been put into question. much more desirable, versus some roundabout form of inquisition, filled to the brim with prose that is surely heard, but hardly attended to.

had every rumor stirring amongst the ton been true, francesca would find herself wise to not associate with any of her brother's schoolmates past the pleasantries of simple greeting. only, his presence increased, somehow, perhaps the product of colin's pre-nuptial activities, and considering he'd just returned from his own travels abroad. but, even then, what part did she have in this? had @aratsaka wanted outside entertainment, there could easily be an eloise to float ideas of philosophy or politics with, or even a young hyacinth to traipse around the sprawling estate. alas, francesca... subjected to a mild form of torture, she's sure.