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daddys having an identity crisis to be honest with you kitten

nothing hits quite like tragic doomed estranged sibling characters

You should read/watch Hello and Goodbye by Athol Fugard

thinking about a boy who's really trying hard not to make any noise. rather than whine and moan, he swallows hard, focusing on his breathing. watching his chest rise and fall, his loud heartbeat, his fists all balled up. the way his breath catches in his throat when I touch him. or... yeah ok

Do you feel it? The heat? The fire? Do you feel it? Does it burn? You can try to drive away. But under your hood is filled with explosive hate. You will always feel the burn of the engine driving you.

i need to killl myself but like nonchalantly

A character trait/dynamic that I'm endlessly compelled by is someone dealing with (or, like, failing to) being the child of people who were too busy being good people to have the time and attention to be good parents. This can be anywhere from 'was a public defender who gave a shit working 60 hour weeks with basically no vacations' to 'left their family behind to join the revolution/war effort and is now a universally beloved martyr-hero who saved/remade the world with their final breath' on the groundedness spectrum. The important thing is a viscerally felt but confused and ugly mess of longing, resentment, and guilt about feeling the resentment.

Not to an extreme extent, but the first thing that comes to mind is Colonel Shigri. He was a respected militant, a sorta silenced hero(?) but his son never really knew him and he was gone when Ali was so young.

oh my god their beautiful

not now kitten. daddy's realizing that the scene he invested 1000 words into could be significantly improved but only if he started over from scratch

stepping away from my work computer to fujo out on my phone like i'm taking a cigarette break

oftentimes two guys who want to fuck each other not fucking each other is hotter than if they fucked each other

underrated ship dynamic is 'they deserve each other /derogatory'