hey there! my name is tox and i'm in my 30s, which makes me fucking ancient apparently. i'm a demi/gay trans man who loves writing, drawing, and imagining fictional men kissing sloppystyle.
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my main interests right now are a few OC worlds, persona 5, and the legend of zelda (mostly tp and oot). some other fandoms that i've made content for and sometimes return to are dungeon meshi, gravity falls, phineas and ferb, star trek: lower decks, cult of the lamb, persona 4, and metal gear solid. i almost exclusively ship m/m but i engage with shipping a lot in general. i can be opinionated about how others do things in fandom (characterization stuff, not kinks or anything, i never judge those), but it's not up to me what other people can or should do, i just occasionally make bitchy posts.
my blog is not safe for minors, please don't follow it if you're under 18. i have no qualms talking to minors in communities or post replies, nor do i especially care who reblogs my posts, but my personal space is 18+ only. i will block minors i see in my following. i also block anyone who follows me with "proship dni" on their profile because, i mean, come on.
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Break The Skin
Rated E
Original Work
Original Male Character/Original Male Character
Felix Carter is just a normal human man, and Matt Jones is just his normal human boss—or at least that's the picture they paint for everyone else. In the privacy of a lavish office on the top floor of a corporate building, Felix is a man on a mission to kill a god, and Matt is the god daring him to try.
This game can only have one winner, and Matt learns to regret not pulling the plug before it started to mean something.
(Please Don't) Remember Me
Rated M
The Legend of Zelda (TP & OoT)
Twilight/Dark/Time
The Goddesses wrenched Link's life from him in choosing him as their Hero of Time. He has resented them every day since, growing into a body that doesn't match his mind, furious with the world that has forgotten him. When it all finally comes crashing down, he wishes more than anything that he could be somewhere else.
Ages later, a new Link is recovering from his own adventure, and the loss of someone he loved. At his side is a mysterious entity who has been with him his entire life—a shadow given form, an assumed hallucination turned best friend when the cloak of twilight proved he was real. The both of them are doing their best to adjust to a new life together when a relic from the past appears just outside Ordon, an unfamiliar face with an all-too-familiar presence.
To try and maintain the proper timeline, the Hero of Twilight is determined to assist the past version of his spectral mentor get back home. The real question is whether or not the Hero of Time is ready to return to the life he hates... and why only he lacks a shadow under his feet when Twilight is the one with a shadow personified.
Wish You Were Here
Rated M
The Legend of Zelda (TP & BotW)
Twilight/Wild, Past!Midlink, Past!Revalink
Nothing could’ve prepared Link for how devastating regaining his lost memories would be. When grief threatens to break him, potentially dooming Hyrule to Calamity Ganon's wrath, he's sent to request aid from the long-forgotten Goddess of Courage.
His plea is heard, and he is granted assistance in the form of a partner: a hero from the age of myth, brought back to life and eager to help. Maybe a little too eager. It's strange how willing he is to throw himself into this, to be renamed and repurposed for the sake of a world so unfamiliar to him.
At least having a traveling companion helps distract Link from all that he’s lost. What he doesn't realize is that the sentiment goes both ways—Twilight is running from the past just as much as he is.
reflections should only have two chapters so i'm not putting it here since it'll be done the next time i update it anyway. long road to hell, revived, and promises to keep are on hiatus and not abandoned. anything outside of those may or may not still be updated eventually
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I have thoughts I want to share on discoveries I've made about my sexuality/romantic orientation recently, namely the demirose stuff and how it manifests and how I've realized just how much on the aroace spectrum I really am, but I'm tired and overwhelmed with gay thoughts and it will have to wait for later
always incredibly annoying when a news article (or a blog post or whatever) is talking about some document someone put out, a scientific paper or a legal filing or a bill or a different article, and there's no link to it. what the fuck is the internet for, if not for making it easy to go from 'talking about a document' to 'here, look at it yourself'. unless it's literally illegal for you to share the document, if you've looked at it and are reporting on it you should make it available to your audience to see as well, or else how do i know you're not lying to me about it?
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pretty shocking claim, isnt it? the kind of claim that should be backed up with evidence, right?
well, I agree. in fact, I spent an hour writing up a long reblog proving that the random user @/tomboyfriends is not and has never been the coiner OR the person who popularized the term "transandrophobia", only for the very same person who asked for proof to instantly block me, making my post disappear for everyone else.
I am not going to just drop that. this is now deliberate misinformation being spread by @daughter-of-sapph0, who I now know for sure knows better.
so this is my own original post, documenting her claims and demands for proof, and the post I wrote giving her just that:
below is the reblog chain that led to this.
/end of screenshots
my response:
right. so you admit you vaguely know who saint is, AND that He's the real coiner, but youre claiming that its on ME for thinking that a post that says "the word transandrophobia was coined by a detrans nazi twerf" is about Saint, when there's zero context as to who youre claiming is the "real" coiner. this post is written that way to confuse. even in the screenshots you're using as proof, @/neongreentoxicity immediately knows that person thinks the post is referring to Saint. it is not on me for just reading the post the way its written.
but sure, I will prove how silly this entire conversation is.
this random person who i have NEVER heard of even puts IN that literal post that the word has been used before online, and IN the screenshots you give, @/neongreentoxicity notes that they do know that the word was actually coined on Twitter in 2017. so yall DO know that it is an abject lie to call this person the coiner. she objectively isnt.
also, her bio clearly says "no longer crypto", so she ADMITS she was a crypto all along. crypto terfs exist to spread misinformation and stir up problems in the trans community. this random person ADMITS thats what they were doing!!!!!
but ig now the bar has been moved to proving that she didnt popularize it. fine. thats incredibly easy to prove.
unfortunately, Saint has lost all His posts, as multiple times He was reported repeatedly until He was terminated. so ofc that makes it difficult to prove His popularity, and i know you dont gaf about the actual repeated testimony of people who have been in the community since before this random person's post existed, so I wont even try to use my own experiences as evidence.
but thankfully, we can just use our brains here.
here is that nazi's "coining" post, where op clearly says they didnt coin it, as it already exists. they clearly found the term themselves, and made this post just trying to spread awareness of the term.
lets look down at the bottom. how many notes does this post that apparently "popularized" the term have????? forty-four notes. hmm.
if you go through every other post about transandrophobia on this person's blog, you will see that only ONE other one was made by them. it has fifty-eight notes. interesting.
now lets compare that, shall we?
unfortunately, Saint's old posts are all wiped from this website. I even signed into my old blog where multiple times I helped Hymn find His old posts and sent them to Hymn after he was termed. here's a taste of what that looks like:
genuinely, it goes on and on and on. all of His old posts are gone. its kinda heartbreaking, as its some of the history of our community and a lot of the posts that helped me come to terms with being trans.
all is not lost though. @nothorses (who i will refer to as Grey) is thankfully still around. Grey has been the archiver for our community for quite awhile, and was a mutual and friend of Saint's from the getgo (or at least before I showed up). if you ask around, I promise you that most people will credit either Saint or Grey (or Jaz, or a couple others who routinely reblog from both of them) as where they first came across the term. Grey is always the first to point out that Saint coined it, though ofc now Grey has a lot of original posts and is a trusted figure in the community.
without spending too much time on it (I am sure you can find old Saint posts on Grey's blog somewhere, but I already spent too much time on this post), here is a popular older post of Grey's. no, it is not from before that random person's "coining" post, but it IS just five months later, and you can clearly see that Grey is a popular Tumblr user. this is his original post, and it has six-figure notes.
here is an original post from Sept 2020, wherein Grey uses the term "transandrophobia" and explains its systemic and real-world effects. no, it is not as popular, but as anyone in the community can attest—any post that describes transmasculine oppression using the word "transandrophobia" will never make a lot of notes. however, tons of his original posts from 2020 about transmasculine oppression that do not use the term have a fuckton of notes.
this should be sufficient to prove that he is a popular Tumblr user who blogs about the transmasculine experience. and he has also been using the term transandrophobia since 2020.
now, even if we pretend that this nazi terf liar actually coined the term (which your screenshots definitively prove to be false), how on earth can you claim that she popularized it? she doesnt have a single post on it that breaks three figures. not even 100 people have interacted with her posts.
I just think that Rocky is the most feral possessive bitch to ever exist when it comes to Grace. Sorry, if you don’t fix my space horse I’m NOT giving you any of the bacteria we almost died to get- oh hello mate Adrian, yes yes, Rocky DOES think this is perfectly rational, why do you ask? No, Rocky ran out of his Eridian Lexapro like four years ago this is now a hostage negotiation-
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so! about a year ago was when my life turned upside down. i haven't spoken on it much for a variety of reasons, a big one being that the people involved are vindictive as fuck with a history of monitoring my activity, so i've not felt inclined to poke that bear further. but suffice to say the past year has been pretty fucking bad.
the gofundme i put up in december has been taken down, and i did it myself, because it was the easiest way to prove to the government that i wasn't receiving thousands of dollars in gift income. it raised 7k+ in total, all of which went to life expenses for both me and my mother. it was a huge help and i'm so, so grateful to everyone who had donated. donations had slowed down significantly when i took it down so i'm not too worried about it; my mom is on SSI now so she's got more breathing room in regards to money. i'm not, nor can i get on it soon, so things are still... a bit dire.
to that end, i'm still taking donations myself. i hate advertising this kind of thing but it's been the kindness of others that's gotten me this far, so. best i can do. i'm actively searching for disability-friendly work to make my own money, but the job market is already a nightmare for able-bodied people with college degrees. looking for work i don't need to stand or travel for while not even having a GED is kind of, uh. next to impossible. but i'm trying anyway!
my donation accounts are on cashapp ($prismatoxic), venmo (@prismatoxic), and ko-fi (/prismatoxic), the latter of which i also take commission orders on. turnaround time is slow as fuck due to stress so i don't generally promote those but it is an option. ko-fi also takes 10% of all donations, just as a heads-up.
i'll be honest... shit's fucked. i'm scared. after i pay rent for july i'm gonna be flat broke, and idk how to get 1k+ in funds in a single month when i don't have a job. but we persevere! bad as all that's been, good things have happened for me lately. here's a few:
met a local queer who i helped with what money i have bc they're actively on the street and it was the kindness of another local queer who got me where i am. we talk sometimes, i wish i could do more but they've seemed a lot more lively as help has come through and i hope someday we can hang out like normal friends
my voice is finally dropping! i kind of like my face again! bottom growth! wispy puberty mustache! i forgot what having a self esteem felt like. thank you testosterone
gonna be vague about this one but i finally got something i've been wanting for a long, long time. it fills me with so much happiness i could burst. definitely helps with the whole "will to live" bit
i have reconnected with a few old friends and got to pick up right where i left off with one of them. i love my friends i love human connection i love roleplaying freak shit
I've mentioned this before but I am genuinely so emotional about how well my pets get along. I was SO worried that mesa would be too much for benny to handle when we got reunited, since he's always been so skittish and reclusive and he only seemed to open up once we were alone. but he loves the dog! he's not afraid of her! when she's in his business he will meow in an annoyed way but his ears don't flatten and if he gets up he's not scrambling away in fear. he leans towards her when they're sitting near each other and will head bonk her snout when she licks his forehead. I've never seen him hiss at her and he's only ever swiped with claws retracted.
like he really did just need a house with less cats and also less people. he was as scared of the roommates as I was and all that stress was certainly not doing him any favors
In all my years in this website, and I've been here a long time, I can't recall a single instance of a callout post leading to actual restitution for the victims of the alleged harm the person was accused of. Even in cases where the accusations were true. Even in cases where there was legitimate harm done to another person.
Remember the sixpencee child slave thing? What happened there, exactly? Was the kid freed? No? They were just run off the website? OK so what good exactly did that do?
Remember the bone stealing witch? What exactly did that witchhunt accomplish? The person got arrested, oh that's great, the american justice system surely rectified the situation
And again, those are instances where the accusations were true and involved real substantive harm to another person. We used to joke on here how callout posts were shit like "receipts below: [several paragraphs of petty fandom drama] [three paragraphs of petty interpersonal drama involving cheating on partners or stealing food out of the fridge or something] [fabricated evidence that the person is responsible for the murder of JonBenét Ramsey]"
And that was back in the 2010s. The meta has changed. Callouts used to be a tool people used to point out actual harm a person had done, rarely, and more commonly were used as a means of bullying somebody over petty drama. Nowadays they're used to manufacture outrage and harassment against marginalized populations. They are a weapon bigots use to turn us against each other. A few manufactured accusations here, some out of context or clipped screenshots there, and people who should be standing in solidarity with each other against white supremacy, patriarchy, cisheteronormativity, are instead devouring each other.
It's sinister as shit, dude, and people will still share these accusations without a second thought. So, why? What is the point? What's the best case scenario here? Raising "awareness?" what the fuck is that supposed to accomplish? Will we get the oh-so-trustworthy authorities involved? Are we hoping for an arrest? A conviction? Throwing a queer or poc person in prison so they can be abused and assaulted and humiliated behind bars? Is that who we are?
Callouts and the like don't serve any real good in the world. At a macro scale they divide us when we should be standing together, and at a micro scale they result in deeply traumatic never-ending harassment and threats and doxxing and worse to a person who almost definitely does not deserve it. And again, for what? A sense of "justice?" this is not justice. This is retribution. It is punishment.
It's fucking cop behavior, and I'm not gonna participate in it.
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