hey there! my name is tox and i'm in my 30s, which makes me fucking ancient apparently. i'm a demi/gay trans man who loves writing, drawing, and imagining fictional men kissing sloppystyle.
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my main interests right now are a few OC worlds, persona 5, and the legend of zelda (mostly tp and oot). some other fandoms that i've made content for and sometimes return to are dungeon meshi, gravity falls, phineas and ferb, star trek: lower decks, cult of the lamb, persona 4, and metal gear solid. i almost exclusively ship m/m but i engage with shipping a lot in general. i can be opinionated about how others do things in fandom (characterization stuff, not kinks or anything, i never judge those), but it's not up to me what other people can or should do, i just occasionally make bitchy posts.
my blog is not safe for minors, please don't follow it if you're under 18. i have no qualms talking to minors in communities or post replies, nor do i especially care who reblogs my posts, but my personal space is 18+ only. i will block minors i see in my following. i also block anyone who follows me with "proship dni" on their profile because, i mean, come on.
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Break The Skin
Rated E
Original Work
Original Male Character/Original Male Character
Felix Carter is just a normal human man, and Matt Jones is just his normal human boss—or at least that's the picture they paint for everyone else. In the privacy of a lavish office on the top floor of a corporate building, Felix is a man on a mission to kill a god, and Matt is the god daring him to try.
This game can only have one winner, and Matt learns to regret not pulling the plug before it started to mean something.
(Please Don't) Remember Me
Rated M
The Legend of Zelda (TP & OoT)
Twilight/Dark/Time
The Goddesses wrenched Link's life from him in choosing him as their Hero of Time. He has resented them every day since, growing into a body that doesn't match his mind, furious with the world that has forgotten him. When it all finally comes crashing down, he wishes more than anything that he could be somewhere else.
Ages later, a new Link is recovering from his own adventure, and the loss of someone he loved. At his side is a mysterious entity who has been with him his entire life—a shadow given form, an assumed hallucination turned best friend when the cloak of twilight proved he was real. The both of them are doing their best to adjust to a new life together when a relic from the past appears just outside Ordon, an unfamiliar face with an all-too-familiar presence.
To try and maintain the proper timeline, the Hero of Twilight is determined to assist the past version of his spectral mentor get back home. The real question is whether or not the Hero of Time is ready to return to the life he hates... and why only he lacks a shadow under his feet when Twilight is the one with a shadow personified.
Wish You Were Here
Rated M
The Legend of Zelda (TP & BotW)
Twilight/Wild, Past!Midlink, Past!Revalink
Nothing could’ve prepared Link for how devastating regaining his lost memories would be. When grief threatens to break him, potentially dooming Hyrule to Calamity Ganon's wrath, he's sent to request aid from the long-forgotten Goddess of Courage.
His plea is heard, and he is granted assistance in the form of a partner: a hero from the age of myth, brought back to life and eager to help. Maybe a little too eager. It's strange how willing he is to throw himself into this, to be renamed and repurposed for the sake of a world so unfamiliar to him.
At least having a traveling companion helps distract Link from all that he’s lost. What he doesn't realize is that the sentiment goes both ways—Twilight is running from the past just as much as he is.
reflections should only have two chapters so i'm not putting it here since it'll be done the next time i update it anyway. long road to hell, revived, and promises to keep are on hiatus and not abandoned. anything outside of those may or may not still be updated eventually
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this is my neocities site for archiving everything souyo! in here you will find:
links to p4 resources
places to find merch
a history of souyo fan art, fic, and more!
it's still a work in progress but all the pages have been basically set up (fair warning: it's gone beyond mobile unfriendly into mobile hostile territory. keeping it authentic to 2011)
Before you watch the video, I do want to include a note. If you have really bad periods, try doing a deep squat for a minute to five minutes. It'll help. I don't know how I discovered this. But I was probably on my period while also checking to see how deep I could squat. Or maybe I was in so much pain and I couldn't stand so I was just Asian squatting in the kitchen. (which feels like the the most Asian thing to do, tbh.) After coming out of it, my cramps were so much better. So I hope this helps someone out there.
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I don’t believe in gatekeeping at all but if you flat out admit to me that you’ve consumed little to ZERO of the canon media and have gotten all of your information based off of reading fluffy fic with woobified characters, I will not be taking ANY of your fandom opinions or meta seriously
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gonna be super duper vague but i gotta say: it is the funniest possible time for what's happening to me rn to be happening. INCREDIBLE timing. couldn't have chosen better
fyi. being intensely self critical is not the same as being self aware. if you’re really self aware you’ll be aware of the good stuff too. just in case anyone needs to hear it. don’t mistake constantly dissecting what you see as your flaws for some kind of personal enlightenment.
I enjoy reading the work of swifties because its fruitful 2 explore mindsets and experiences different from my own. For example: i think both of those lines are dogshit
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I saw a video today from a chronically ill woman about the fact you can feel so guilty when doing fun things.
She talks about how, as a kid, you learn to finish work before you can play and that you take this with you into adulthood. So you keep the mindset of having to finish 'have to' tasks/chores before being allowed to 'play'.
But when you're chronically ill, this is literally impossible! If you'd do that it would be all work and never play. That wouldn't be healthy at all. We need to remind ourselves of this. We don't need to feel guilty for doing something fun!
you can kinda tell when a writer has spent a lot of time around kids bc they avoid most of the pitfalls that come with writing children. namely, not giving them a too cutesy or twee voice but making them sound more like extremely weird little adults. kids playing pretend will almost never cutely slot into some romantic scenario for the adults' benefit bc the adults are usually too busy cleaning up or wondering what the fuck is wrong with their child. kids also have surprisingly stringent hangups ranging from very petty grievances to downright chauvinist gender roles, more often than not the result of a tragic education but sometimes far surpassing what they were taught in intensity. what im saying is there's nothing inherently wrong with treating fictional kids as stock characters but it's always quite nice to see when they aren't
It's extremely common for very young children to suddenly say something extremely cogent and articulate, that's jarringly inconsistent with their normal speech. This is usually something that they heard an adult say recently. A kid will spend ten minutes telling you a story about how they fought a wolf yesterday using simple sentences of fifty cent words, then nibble a snack, wrinkle their nose and say something like "I feel like Mum was overenthusiastic with the salt today, and not for the first time either" before going back to their clumsy story. (They do understand what they're saying when they do this. Kids' communication is usually held back by their vocabulary and pronunciation, not their understanding.)
Young kids are also a lot more socially aware than people give them credit for. Young children are perfectly aware that adults don't take them seriously. They know when their parents don't actually like them. They listen and remember when adults talk about them while they're in the room. Kids will develop basic abilities to charm etc. from babyhood and will begin experimenting with social norms and concepts of deception, appropriate information, and acceptable language and attitudes in toddlerhood. By the time a kid is five or six, they have solid social strategies for relating to adults and separate ones fr relating to their peers, that they'll continue to refine for the rest of their lives. They will also say completely off the wall shit because they don't have the context to know what is and isn't considered super fucked up yet.
By the time a kid is eight or nine, their main difference from adults is in experience, interests, and ability for long-term focus. An eight year old can think as intelligently and coherently as a thirty year old, they just have less experience and information to draw from, and are likely interested in very different things. They're also likely still slightly hamstrung by vocabulary and literacy, though much less so than a younger kid.
Teens will behave like adults who have little power (a teen is often at the mercy of their parents and the state and rarely taken seriously, which is extremely frustrating) and who are high stress and mid-crisis, because they're going through a transitory period where their bodies and moods are changing and are having to constantly learn and adjust; a fourteen year old in a stable situation will act pretty much like a thirty year old with an oppressive boss who's just left a tumultuous relationship.
#oh is *that* why i feel 14 again after my fiance broke things off with me and i had to move halfway across the continent back in with my ma?
Yeah that's just what humans feel and act like when they're unmoored and powerless and unpredictably changing. Teenagers are pretty much constantly unmoored and powerless and unpredictably changing, and react reasonably to those circumstances.
