just ignore me

how much is too much when you’re stressed, feel like throwing up, anxious, and took way too many out of date prescription pills

i’ve kept things about my life a secret because i was too afraid it might’ve ended up upsetting you

if someone makes you feel like your medical conditions are a burden in whatever situation that it may be, you’re not a burden. please remember that. it’s not your fault that you’re dealing with sh!t that you didn’t ask for nor wanted in the first place.

i need friends...by that i mean that i need people i can occasionally talk to, but ghost on a daily basis

sometimes i feel...and i don’t like feeling. that shit is stressful. anyone knows how to undo feelings without having to do anything at all cause im already tired of not doing anything so doing things cannot be on the list

mourning the loss of a forgotten dream; an empty space left for it to unwind by itself, but sadly forgetting about the wishful cravings that i once had when i was little. growing up really does change more than half of your life’s expectations

are we only afraid because we don’t know what’s there to come, or are we petrified of trying something that can potentially help, but the thought of something positive happening seems so out of reach; an unknown territory with no guarantee that we’re make it out alive. we rather stay hidden, in what we know, even if it tear us down, but at last is a known feeling that we can pull down and pretend like everything is alright regardless of how destroyed our souls are

too scared of the unknown to fully function

i don’t know if quarantine is affecting my last two neurons that i’ve been saving for the next year if i survive this one or what, but i’ve been having the most chaotic dreams/nightmares and for some reason when i wake up i can’t distinguish fantasy from reality

life has made it extremely impossible to have the desire to live

taylor swift really wrote a song all by herself about death and i could not be more jealous of the person inside the casket that she’s referring to. they’re having everything that i have to live without

i know it’s not my job to fix people when i can barely hold my own life together, but i’d rather be a comfort zone for someone than to deal with my own problems. it’s easier and it helps me keep my mind distracted while trying to help others fix their broken pieces

2020 is doing what 2012 could never achieve. now, please just end it all. i am beyond tired of this life but too scared to flip the off button myself