The Clean Slate

She holds herself together, barely

But he’s there, she’ll never be alone

He cares so much for her, loves her tenderly

She holds herself together barely

Can’t remember last time she thought clearly

But since her flee, she feels she’s grown

She holds herself together, barely

It began slowly

The feelings were surely there

But letting them out

Yes, that was a bit harder

Fingertips graze one another

Eyelashes kiss and breath intertwines

Laying in the early morning with her lover

Her walls are down, between them, there are no lines

His rough hands graze the softness of her skin

Pressed up against, it’s almost as if they were one

She’s so stubborn, she never lets him win

But just being with her, he knows he’s the lucky one

Trying her hardest, she engraves this in her memory

Recording every smell, feeling and sensation as it is

She was so afraid to love, and is still afraid to claim victory

But with a warm and gushing heart, she feels bliss

They lay like this and enjoy being on cloud nine

It comes in all shapes and sizes Depending on the day, it can be heavy or nearly weightless

He hides it, but he knows he loves her oh so very, very much Some would say it’s a bit of a fix, an addiction Not just because she’s beautiful and smart and such But it’s because of the person she is that he has this fixation

Some would say it’s a bit of a fix, an addiction That he shouldn’t fall for someone so broken, so hurt But it’s because of the person she is that he has this fixation He can see who she truly is, deep in her heart

That he shouldn’t fall for someone so broken, so hurt She’s been wounded for years on end He can see who she truly is, deep in her heart Underneath her wounds and scars that may never mend

His riffle was ready His aim was trained to be sharp But his heart was innocent Never had he taken a life Today he would “You have my six?” his fellow soldier called “Always”  Then the time came, and they jumped out Moving quickly, his core tightened and his focus cleared His eyes searched his surroundings The enemy was hiding here His finger twitched over the trigger as he croutched Like a panther, he began to slink Constantly watching over his shoulder  Checking to make sure their backs were clear as well His comrade moved ahead toward the building He lingered behind, watching their backs and their sides at a wider angle Suddenly, he was bit A bullet broke through his sleeve There was no pain He whipped and shot at the source Two shots The enemy was hidden again Moving faster now, they continued their mission His eye remained on the hideout Movement As a head peaked on a corner, his bullet hit the target One down They slinked faster, his partner further ahead than he should be His feet didn’t seem to move fast enough Adrenaline pumped faster Sweat mixed with blood on his arm

He is

The best of me

My rock during a storm

Light at the end of bad long days

She lay there across his chest

Sighing and relaxing, feeling her best

But there was a question on her tongue

A wonderment from her heart that is young

“How can it be?” she began

“I just, I don’t seem to understand”

He rustled slowly, and turned to her

“You have a question to ask?” he infered

“I suppose you could call it that”

And so, they began to chat

She wanted to know why he was alone

Was it love he has wanted to postpone?

Was it a scar he could not heal?

Or maybe there was something he was afraid to feel?

“Listen” he slowly began, his heart heavy

“My life and mind are not very steady

And to all the women I’ve ever loved

That made me someone who must be unloved 

Though I’ve tried time and time again

I always end up alone and drunk in my den”

“But,” she began, but couldn’t say it yet

“It’s not something that makes sad, or brings me regret”

He told her, and held her tighter to his side

“And it’s something from you, that I won’t hide”

Her heart grew heavy and bled for him

Poor soul who lay next to her, who’s fate was so grim

Yet she could not understand how

Maybe she was blinded by the love she felt now

But she couldn’t see someone turning his heart away

Turning away who he was and what he had to say

Over a simple problem that he could not solve

Something that would never be absolved

But once she recognized she had no say

She settled herself and pushed her stress away

Her mind was clear, except for one thought

She

Did not

Know what was

Right in her hands

When she chose to treat you the way she did

And he did now know what he had right there

At an arm’s reach

When he chose

To break