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Rt going his whole life post getting his first heat (at like 12 or so, probably about when people start getting periods) just trying to constantly stay alone. He has like 3 friends (which would be dahi, kevin, jack) who he couldn't shake no matter how much he tried to distance himself or put walls between them, so he ended up becoming slightly dependent on their friendship. Every other friendship hes ever had hes just slowly distenced himself from and it just fizzled away. He does it to himself. He just doesn't seem to trust anyone.

He goes through most of his school life living like this, because at least if hes alone hes less likely to get hurt.

The supressants he has dont do anything except stop his pheromones, but considering he has heat that flares up every few days to every week, its really physically straining, and nothing helps. All he really can do is wear padding and have pain killers, at least hes not a mess all the time with padding.

He gets paid to be studyed like a lab rat once a month, because omegas are so rare already, that conditions like this have basically no research behind them. After all, how can they? Its hard enough to meet an omega in day to day life, they're less than 2% of the population, which is *staggering* considering alphas are at least 15%, and betas make the rest. And thats without considering the fact alphas have a variant, and the trans statistics (like alphamegas or betamegas/betaalphas)

And for pretty much most of his life hes lived like this, not because he wants to, but because he doesn't really know what else to do.

His friends are alphas, yet they've never touched him, at least not sexually. Maybe theyre scared to, maybe they think hed be too much of a burden as a mate. Its not like they don't know, considering hes taking suppressants almost everyday just to get by. He wouldn't even mind if one of them *did* come onto him, he knows they wouldn't hurt him, they've always kept him safe.

But that almost makes everything feel worse. Would having a mate fix his unstable heat issues? Would it fix the constant flair ups and weekly heats he deals with? He doesn't even know, because hes never tried, and hes too scared too. What if it goes wrong? What if he loses the one support system he has?

So he never tries.

The first time he even does anything is in collage.

His roommate, an eccentric British alpha with black and white hair, obviously from a wealthy family. She introduces himself as rin, and Rt has no idea how to feel. Because *why* would his collage room him with an alpha? Shes clearly bigger than him, are they *trying* to get him hurt?

But he doesn't really have the energy to complain. Hes sure rin will complain himself if rooming with rt becomes too much of a pain.

But it never does. Suppressants or not, rt's never even seen her *flinch* at his constant heats or pheromones, let alone react to them, its like rin doesn't even know the omegas *in heat*, or that hes an omega at all.

"Oh that?" Its not really surprise when rt brings it up, more that it took him this long to ask.

"Yeah, i dont really react to pheromones. My body barely reacts to anything either. They had to give me the evil and fucked up super Viagra to get this to react to anything."

It makes sense why they where roomed together now. Even betas have some sensitivity to pheromones. But someone who just doesn't at all? Its ideal, considering Rt can never seem to get his to stop unless hes taking suppressants.

Hes never met anyone else who's body doesn't function like the "standard", who cant control how it reacts or what it does. And yet here he is, roommates with the only other person hes ever met who seems to understand on some level what hes going through.

Rin doesn't seem to care all that much about her condition, doesn't feel all that much attraction to anyone. Romance just doesn't seem to click for him. Rt's almost bitter about how lucky she is.

But its comforting, knowing she'd never be swayed by his pheromones, she'd always be honest.

They grow fairly close fairly quick. Shes one of the only other support systems rt's ever had.

Their relationship changes when things get worse, when what goes from a single day of harsh sporadic heat somewhere in the week turns to *days* of relentless heat.

Rest wont make it go away, Rt cant even remember if he ate, hed probably throw it up anyway. Sevral days sick away from classes, and he doesn't even have the strength to get out of bed and at least read summary emails.

Its hell, and he can't figure out why its gotten worse, just that it has. Nothing is making it better, suppressants, pain killers, heat relief medicine. Even touching himself does practically nothing.

Hes convinced hes dying.

And yet hes terrified to ask for help. Hes sure one of his friends would help if he asked.

But what about after? What if they accidentally marked him? What if they suddenly wanted a relationship? Would he even be ready for that? What if they accidentally got him pregnant? Its not that he hates the idea of kids one day, but he doesn't want them *now*, he wants to finsh collage, do something with himself. He just needs help, no strings attached, someone who wont *get* attached.

Its paralyzing. Yet he doesn't know if thats worse than what hes currently going through. Years of being studied and tested, trying experimental medicine, what the fuck was any of it for? He feels the worst he ever has.

Its desperate, when he asks. Hes crying, he knows he is, does that make him a worse person? Is that emotional manipulation? Hes not doing it on purpose. The way he asks doesn't even come out right, it's all just *desperate.*

"Please- please let me use you." Its the grip on her shoulders and the crack in his voice, hes in tears and hes shaking so bad you could mistake him for a chihuahua.

Yet all rin can respond with is surprise, and a blurted out "Most people say hello??" Theres nothing behind it, no anger or offense. Hes just, confused. Gently pushes Rt back, lets the omega's hands unclench from her shoulders, watches him hug himself.

Clearing her throat, she speaks. "You sure about that?" She knows Rt well enough. Theres some level of emotional distance he keeps between himself and everyone. This smug cocky annoying attitude that keeps people away. Hes not doing that right now. Hes just.. Vulnerable. And begging for help.

"I mean, i don't mind. Im not going to actively participate or anything but-" she gestures a finger between the two. "Are you sure this is what you want?"

Really, hes not all that surprised when rt nods, desperate. Rt's not exactly thinking clearly, but rin knows he wont be *until* he gets help.

"Right, okay. Stay here then, ill be back in like.. Five minutes." Its torture, but rt agrees anyway, he really doesn't have a choice.

He watches Rin dig through the medication on the table, before the alpha swallows a tablet. Right, he did mention he needed something along those lines. It wasn't Viagra, rin just called it that to be funny, it was something else.. Some alpha variant of vardenafil..?

Its at least comforting to know she was serious about helping, its easier to relax, just a bit.

Its ten minutes, ten minutes of waiting for him to get back, box in hand.

"Well i can never talk to anyone on our floor ever again." At least its obvious what she was asking the neighbors for.

"Can you move?" Rt just nods, sitting up, still shaking.

"Great, cause this is all you. I have a book to read." Hes really not sure what he expected, but thats fine, its probably better this way.

Rt watches, hands shaking, body sore as his roommate fumbles with the condom, reading the usage instructions. He couldn't judge her, he'd never used one either, but it still felt awkward watching an alpha fumble with one. It felt almost expected that theyd just know how one worked.

"Move over, ill just lay on my back. you can handle yourself, right?" If it was any other time, he knows she'd be making a jab at him, but it seemed like a genuine question this time.

"Ill be fine.. Can you just.. fockin- lay down already?" He doesn't miss the slight smug smile she gives him, glad to see he had a bit of bite back.

She shrugs him off, grabbing her book from the table before finally, *finally* laying down on his bed, opening her book to read.

That was fine, she was hard thanks to her medication, and she had a condom on, thats all he needed from her, he could do the rest.

Rt's drenched, padding soaked in slick and underwear worse for wear, he didn't even want to bother looking at his pants.

Neither of them are fully undressed, they didnt need to be, as long as their pants were down that was good enough.

Rins cock goes in easier than expected, rin was bigger than rt thought, and the omega hadn't preped, yet he slid down with ease. Thats what the slicks for, he supposes

Its instant, the feeling of relief as he starts to move, grinding down before pulling his hips up and dropping back down.

It doesn't take long to get into a messy rhythm, hands leaned back on the bed, putting most of his weight on his arms so he could move his hips easier.

Its so much different from fingers. Its so filling, so good, his body responding *better* to the sensations he was feeling.

He can feel drool pool in his mouth, hard to swallow as it runs down his chin, barely noticing it as his hips move on their own, desperate to chase relief.

Hes not sure when he started moaning so loud.. Hell maybe he had been the whole time, it just felt too good to stop, head dropped back as he sings with pleasure.

Its so hard to focus, head foggy with ecstasy, finding it difficult to focus on anything else but the white hot pleasure.

His arm buckles as he slams his hips down, hips twitching and body shuddering at the feeling of his roommate so deep inside him as his cock throbs, its almost pathetic what little he spurts out, most of his orgasm coming from the embarrassing amount of slick he felt gush out. It takes a second for him to register the knee against his back, stopping him from falling. Its still not enough.. He needs *more.*

Rin doesn't say anything, or even acknowledge the movement, but Rt feels comfort, knowing shes still paying *some* attention.

After a minute of Rt's dumbfounded pause, Rin lowers the book, raising an eyebrow. "Are you alright?" It takes a moment for the words to even register, Rt managing to stumble out an incoherent string of words.

The look he gets is more than enough to let him know shes telling him to be careful, omega nodding with a soft "im good.." As he leans forward, setting his hands on her stomach. She hums, lowering her knee again as she goes back to reading.

Rt's hips are slow to move, still shaking from his orgasm. Its not enough yet, his heat still flaring, body still hot and needy.

As he finds a rhythm, his hips speed up, messy and uncoordinated, desperate to chase the pleasure slowly building again. Grinding down every time there hips connected. He needed her deeper, as far as her cock would reach, it wasn't enough, he needed more.

He felt his body jolt every time he managed to scrape his prostate, grinding harder against her every time he pressed into it.

Fingers dig into the white cotton shirt as Rt presses more of his weight onto his arms, rutting his hips harder as he feels the growing pressure in his stomach.

His head is hazy, dropped as drool drips from his nouth like a leaky faucet, barely registering all the noise hes making. It was a good thing most people would be in class around this time, otherwise he might be too embarrassed to ever show his face again.

Violent shudders wrack up and down his body, feeling the familiar relief wash over him. It still wasn't enough, why wasn't it enough yet.

What more could he need, he was desperate to relieve some of this heat, yet it felt so far out of reach no matter how many times he got close to that relief. It wasn't enough.

He needed to be bred.. To feel full. Anything to get this to stop for just a minute so he could breathe.

Maybe it was the kicked whimper that left his lips, or the way his face was scrunched so pathetically with frustration, whatever it was, it was enough to have his roommates attention.

Theres nothing said, it barely even registers in the mans head that rin had set his book down, until the alphas hands are around his hips. Its just a single, hard and fast motion. Theres no real feeling behind it, just a sense of obligation in some way.

But fuck if it wasn't what he needed, too lust drunk to think things through. As Rt hips hit the alphas below him hard, taking Rin all the way to the base. He cries out, feeling the others knot pop into him with ease, sending his body into a frenzy.

Rt's elbows buckle as his body shudders violently, barely keeping himself upright, relying heavily on rins hand to keep him upright as the alpha presses her hand to his chest.

Its impossible to see, vision whiting out for a few seconds as he feels his body clench, cum spilling from his aching cock as he pants heavily. Finally, *relief.*

It felt almost too good to be true, the way his body temperature dropped, the way the desperate shaking seemed to calm, replaced by a gentler tremble from thr overstimulation. The nausea seeming to subside, ringing in his head seeming to disappear. It was the most relaxed hed felt in *years*.

As rin moves his hand, rt slumps foward, barely catching himself as he holds his wight up.

As the haze clears and the omega begins to refocus, all the exhaustion washes over him, hitting him all at once as he struggles to keep his eyes open.

Moving his arms, rt lays himself fowards, body exhausted and refusing to move.

"Sorry.. I'll.. get up.. in.. a minute.." The words slur as the mans eyes slip shut, barely managing to stay awake long enough to say them.

"Mhm." The hum that leaves rins lips is unconvinced.

"What..re.. you.. reading..?" The exhaustion is impossible to miss, obvious Rt was trying and failing to keep himself awake, but Rin humored him anyway.

"Its a fantasy novel i grabbed randomly, want me to read it to you?" Rin doesn't wait for a response, beginning to read before the man can even process the words.

His bodyweight slumps, soft snoring leaving his lips, getting a small laugh from the alpha he was passed out on.