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PLEASE let me know your opinion

Just saw her repost today that said: ”forget about breakups, have you ever let someone copy off of you and they get a higher mark..“ which I KNOW was directed to me. We had a history exam a while ago and when I did not know if I understood the task correctly I peeked at the text Lari started writing. Her text started with the same content I had in mind, so I felt more confident that I’d understood the assignment correctly. After that, I started writing my own text and didn't look at her damn sheet again. I had my own content and my own structure. When we got the papers back, I had a better grade than her, and she said to me: "No offense, but you copied off me and got a better grade." BRO, I only took a quick look to see if she’d understood the task the same way I did; besides, I scored more points than Lari on that task and the others, too. If I’d copied, I would’ve ended up with the same number of points as her or fewer. Plus, I would’ve had a better grade anyway, even if the last task hadn't been counted.

Guess who’s mad at me again

So I forgot my guitar at home which I need for my guitar lesson so I decided to go and get it in my lunch break then I told Lari. She is now mad at me because she would be alone while lunch break because how dare I decide for myself what I want to do in my lunch break. I understand that it’s not that cool being alone while break but I really need my guitar cuz my teacher gets sooo mad when someone forgets it and I am in for drama.

I decided to invite her to come with me her saying yes and following with the question if we could still make it to a supermarket to get food. I told her when we would be back and that we could make it. We have a supermarket right next to our school but she want to go and get food at one that takes longer to get to cuz we’d have to get out of the train, walk to the supermarket, get food and then get back to the train station and wait for our train. If we don’t get that one last train we will be late. And I am lowkey scared to tell her because I do not want to fight. Guess I’ll do it anyway. I don’t want to be late.

I’ll update you as soon as talk to her.

(Literally writing this right next to her while our class is happening in front of us. I think my teacher knows that I am on my phone but she can’t say anything cuz someone is giving a presentation).

So I have a friend let’s call her Lari. Lari gets mad very easily like today was another one of those situations. She asked if I wanted to go share a pizza with her in our lunch break and I said no. On one side because I didn’t really wanna eat pizza on the other hand I didn’t wanna spend money on pizza when my school day isn’t that long and I can just eat at home for free without spending money. After I said no she got annoyed and I suggested that we go to the pizza place anyway so she can buy herself one because she has a longer day then me. She answered really pissed off that she didn't want to eat alone and stopped talking to me.

I do understand that she has a long day and needs to eat something but if I don’t want to eat pizza I don’t have to just because she wants to or am I wrong?

These and very similar situations happen very often. She gets annoyed by very small things.

Another scenario happened when we were in math class. We had to solve a few calculations. When she asked me how I solved them I told her. Then she somehow answered really angrily, saying that I was doing it wrong and that you calculate it differently; and since I didn't feel like arguing, I just didn't say anything and waited until we compared our answers with the class and teacher. Guess who solved them correctly? Me.

And this happens in EVERY math class.

Is it that hard to believe that I am able to solve calculations correctly? Yes she gets better grades in the written exams but I am still solving a lot of problems better when I am not under stress like in an exam.

These were just two examples. One time Lari, some other friends and I wanted to go into the city. We talked about what stores to visit and what we could eat. (Mind you we discussed many options). When we met in the shopping centre she said let’s eat some bowls. Our other friend said that she wasn’t hungry and I agreed with her and said that I wasn't hungry either. The got really offended and angry at us saying that we already agreed on eating bowls. (We never agreed on anything). Again we suggested that we can go and grab her a bowl so she doesn’t go hungry while my friend and I would just grab something to drink. AGAIN she got mad saying how she did not want to eat alone even if that means that she will be hungry for the rest of the day and how it’s okay and we could just go shopping (she didn’t exchange one word with us for the next 20 minutes being insulted because we literally just had no hunger)

I know that everyone has their own emotional border but this is just outrageous (sorry not sorry to say that). And I could tell you a hundred more stories about her (although I’d have to relisten to the memos I send my best friend after every ’bad‘ situation I had with her)

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know your opinion I really don’t know what to do

1. Hanna Marin

2. Aria Montgomery

3. Spencer Hastings

4. Emily Fields

I believe the problem lies in the assumption—which I hold—that there is always a specific "right" way to proceed; yet, in reality, I don't know everything—and indeed, one simply cannot know everything. At the same time being aware that reality has not one but many opinions and right ways to acts does not help and somehow still not triggers my brain into acting even in awareness of a fact.

It is precisely these kinds of new situations that then trigger agitation and anxiety. Because of this anxiety surrounding new things, suppression of true desire for adventure and curiosity takes place. One must step outside one's comfort zone in order to truly live life to the fullest.

”Shoot all the bluejays you want, if you can hit‘em, but remember it’s a sin to kill a mockingbird“

— To Kill a Mockingbird- Harper Lee

on the book-cover text I didn’t understand the connection behind the line and the story (while reading) which is ironic because you can’t always understand everything during your first read especially while being at the beginning of a book. Coming to the end of this book im starting to understand the meaning behind the sentence that is actually very simple and understandable even when you’ve not read the book (my stupid brain couldn’t get it), while still having a deeper meaning behind it.

If you haven’t read the book or just don’t get it let me explain: it basically underlines how important it is not to hurt innocent, harmless people. A mockingbird symbolises someone that only brings good to the world/people.

While I don’t think we can compare humans to mockingbirds because everyone makes mistakes or bad decisions this phrase shares another very important massage especially during these difficult times (and in general- because I don‘t think that perfect times can exist !!for longer time periods!!). Innocent people: women, men, children, being killed by a war they had nothing to do with. Bullying in school or even ‘simple‘ mocking of strangers passing you on the street.

And even though we don‘t kill their body’s (like the phrase states by saying that it’s sin to kill a mockingbird) we still kill their spark and spirit by hateful acts.

- by ve