sacrificial wamb

“The idea that you’re going to arrive at a perfect routine that will serve you forever is a fantasy. I’m a person who is drawn to routines, is drawn to ritual as a way of conjuring the emotions that I need to do my best work. But I also recognize that we have phases of life, that there’s seasonality, particularly as I deal with long-term chronic illness. I can’t necessarily depend on routine to be exactly the same for the long-term. I think I’m in a constant act of reassessment where I’m considering, okay, this is what I’ve been doing. What about this serves me? What about this is holding me back? It’s a dance between ritual and experimentation, and also a healthy element of play–because I think we have to be careful that ritual doesn’t get in the way of our capacity to play.”