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and as the beatles said, "all you need is love." and a vera wang dress.

sometimes, well, you just want to witness the beginning of a disaster, so later, when the house is engulfed in flames, you can say, "yup, i was there when they installed the faulty wiring."

you only invited me here so you could passive-aggressively rub my nose in your happiness. at least i would have had the decency to rub your nose in it directly.

it must be so hard being the only one who sees people for what they actually are.

you are ugly and unpleasant and honestly, [name], you're not the original you think you are.

i really want to know, what does the brilliant [name] think about me?

you talk to her again, and me and my boys will mess you up.

enjoy your sham of a marriage.

getting married doesn't remove you from the burden of having to act like a human being.

those two are doomed.

has any couple ever had a more dishonest start to a marriage?

you're pretty.

i'm friends with the sister.

so, uh, what you heard about me?

i don't know what i'm doing here. i'm not even attracted to you.

i'm glad this is a one-night thing, so we can reveal all this awful shit about ourselves.

don't call me "all girls."

you know, right before [name] broke up with me, i started reading her e-mail.

break-ups hurt. i've heard. i don't really do relationships.

i have nervous hands, and they have to stay busy.

i'll sneak out in the morning.

there are no sleepovers.

i'm so glad i'm not gonna remember any of this in the morning.

good morning. so, i've been thinking about ghosts.

i was thinking, he sounds like he had it all worked out, and maybe if i could learn his secrets, then i could fix my problems.

why did you let me sleep so late? i'm famished.

we met in college. well, he was in college, and i sold weed to college kids. then he started giving me books to read, 'cause he saw untapped potential in me.

so, which one of you is giving me a ride to work?

why are you crawling up my ass about this?

did he say anything about me?

you're not gonna see him again, are you?

oh, god, i hope he doesn't think it was, like, an actual thing.

can you be careful where you're putting your makeup, and can you take your feet off the dashboard?

this is a lease.

why'd you have to get married?

i just moved in... over there.

i'm not gay. i'm english.

if there was any doubt that the book industry was dead, it is here in my hand.

you want to hang out sometime?

i'm an adult. do you know what that means? it means that i am beset upon at all times by a tsunami of complex thoughts and struggles, unceasingly aware of my own mortality and able to contemplate the futility of everything and yet still rage against the dying of the light.

don't even know what i'm paying you for.

you need to apologize so he doesn't sue you.

i'll fire your ass, and it won't mean shit to me.

who keeps food in their purse?

why would you stay over, huh? that's amateur hour.

here i was worried you were gonna get the wrong idea about last night.

i don't know what planet that you're from, but on my planet, someone like you does not just get... this! congratulations, you bagged a weakened gazelle.

last time you said you were coming over, you never showed.

i thought you'd grown sick of me.

i've watched you for two years now get girls to come home with you, and they're always gone in the morning.

now, i don't mind you being jerky with me because i know you care.

you're just an animal living in my house.

we both know there's not a person on this planet that's ever had a good outcome trying to force you to do anything.

that means something, whether you want to admit it or not.

why would i even listen to you?

you weren't defending anything except for the business interests of evil men.

that may be the most intelligent thing you've ever said.

someone's stolen my car.

you got to admit, that's kind of a baller move.

what's the worst thing you've ever done?

i set my high school on fire to get out of a math test.

why are you telling me that? that's horrible.

it was a great speech. it was funny and true and mean. my favorite kind.

i'm scared of this shit, you know? i don't like it.

you're amazing. you're 19 types of trouble but... amazing.

that's the story we'll tell.

who made you the preacher?

baby, it's a dream.

you're something superior.

everything is better when i don't know what it means.

i feel invincible.

we can pause for now, i think i said enough.

hey, give me a sip of it.

it's one in the morning.

i said i love you, but i didn't really mean it.

i thought it, wrote about it.

good things come to those who wait.

okay, okay, okay, it's just not my day.

you're just uncomfortable being with somebody who's good for you.

she says it's just my nature, and she says it like i'll never change.

i've been thinking, do you miss me?

do you wanna kiss me?

this one's gonna leave a scar.

when i'm dead and gone, bury me in stardust.

now i only feel alive when you're looking at me.

please, just tell me it's alright.

tell me i'm your type.

everything i need's right here.

god, you make me feel alive.

i'm dying for a little bit of your affection.

i can't fall asleep, it's like i'm in a dream.

i know that new york makes you sick.

every bed is could without your body in it.

everywhere i go, my skin is crawling.

what if i can't close my eyes without you in my head?

i'm scared i'll never sleep again.

i was thinking this would never end.

i remember things only you would know.

i still feel the same.

your heart's beating different.

show me nothing's changed.

kiss me like you mean it.

you sound like me when you're drunk.

i picked you up off the street.

some lady screamed, 'jesus can save him'.

i don't want to go to sleep because i'm afraid of what i'll see.

i can't look you in the eyes because i'm afraid it looks like me.

wish i was somebody else.

nothing else helps.

i'm so goddamn sick of myself.

i can't look myself in the eyes.

where are you sleeping tonight?

i need you, i need you tonight.

please, stay.

you keep on saying that i gotta get my soul right.

i wanna get high, i wanna get drunk.

when you gonna grow up?

i wanna get fucked.

don't get me wrong, i know it's hard to love me.

chill, baby, chill.

i'm just late to the party.

i face regrets and plan revenge.

i'm on one hell of a dive.

don't you get sick of it, living in isolation?

i can tell you're lost.

this is everything i didn't know i wanted.

i know every light on your street. i could find my way over with my eyes closed.

i know every sound when you sleep.

watching you is the only thing that i know.

don't leave, i don't wanna start over.

are we telling the truth?

you don't ever have to worry.

hey, i'll find you.

i want you to stay for a while.

i'm laying here in denial.

intimacy scares me a lot.

why can't you see what i see?

if you saw what i see, you wouldn't come when i call.

instead you waste late nights on a screen laying next to me.

can i stay for a little while?

this isn't meaningless sex.

i want to fall in love again.

people pass me on the pavement and they don't seem to make a sound.

when you're away, all my thoughts are fuckin' loud.

is loving just how you fuck? is it just how you get off?

i've seen the way you look at me, and you look at me like you're seeing me.

say i'm not just your pornography, a quick fix and some company.

i need this to stay alive.

can you kiss me?

can you love me how you fuck me?

i'm happy for closeness.

i want you to kiss me.

i don't want this, i want you.

i'm not obsessed with sex, just fucking myself over.

it's been a while since i last checked my bank.

reckless overspending feels better now i've drank.

i know i'm gonna cry when i make it home.

it's fine, i know it's fine, i'm safe.

the buzz keeps me alive.

i'll count to ten, and once it's over, we'll go again.

i wanna pretend.

i only feel alive when i'm not in my head.

i only used to smoke when i got too drunk.

didn't think i'd live this long, didn't think i had the fight.

i don't wanna wake up and feel the same thing.

drugs aren't fun when you do them alone.

i'm so glad that i live out my head now.

i know why i'm like this.

a part of me died when i left you.

we have history, so you're owed all of me.

now i've been smoking a lot with your friends.

i think it's better if i just pretend.

your garden never grows.

i think it's better if i just pretend that we're cool.

friends don't kiss and tell.

does he know about the cheating?

but i didn't tell, is that worse?

would you come to my funeral and mourn the me you never knew?

i can't relate to motherhood. maybe i'm scared they'll turn out like me.

you believed i would never settle down.

there's a seat laid out for you.

i couldn't pass without telling you.

is it why i look forward to sleeping?

i wonder if you're still smoking, just to get a kick out of me.

why'd they always go for someone younger once i begin to step away?

but if i knew i was dying, you'd be the first person i'd call.

i say i never think of you, but i don't know who i'm lying to.

this time last year, i was someone. now i'm jealous of the pictures of my friends.

it hurts to look back.

it's always when i'm scared of being alone.

i sleep with the light on, you used to do that.

my therapist said i look stoned.

i said i'd rather do it alone.

you can't fake it; that's telling.

tell your dad that it's weed he's smelling.

you're too young to know her.

i think i'll go to sleep.

i won't think about you.

come over again.

i see how you used to be before you knew me.

i'm just so sick, i can't even look at myself.

take her name out of your mouth.

you don't deserve to mourn.

you just love the attention.

you like the power you have.

do you think that you're happy?

i woke up alone and i looked at my phone.

you called me four times, but i still felt alone.

i can't tell you i'm not thinking of you anymore

i travelled six hours for the sake of distraction.

i know it would be easier just to settle.

i don't think of you like i used to do.

your body knows before your mind.

i got too used to you.

missing you isn't enough. wanting you isn't enough.

we were too young to call it what it was.

hate being alone, so stay the night.

you don't love me. you just need me to stay alive.

it kills me to be kind.

but i fear the suburban life.

now i'm in new york because i couldn't wait any longer.

i don't think of you like you want me to.

i heard you fucked somebody else.

need somebody in your bed to drown that noise in your head.

you could give it all up for us and it won't be enough.

you'd give it all up for us, but that doesn't mean it was love.

i wanna kiss you while standing in the cold without a jacket.

there's a part of me that needs to think for myself.

you're the best night i ever had.

but i love you, and i love you 'cause you're my home.

i'm in love, i'm in love, until i think too much.

if it's love, why does it hurt so much?

we're at the same party with a different dealer.

how much would you do to feel wanted?

i'm the other apartment.

i'd do anything for this though.

a rented house isn't a home.

i know that you dream of a townhouse.

i know my head is self-aware of its problems, but the child in me can't stop them. maybe it's something i got from my mother.

i bet you're thinking of me while you're pulling off her jeans.

i'll do anything for you to see me, for you to wake up and want me.

i've built this house i'm now alone in.

maybe i'm better off alone.

this is love isn't it?

call it love, call it anything you like.

i think it's best if i stay.

my money's telling me no, but that's all just in my head.

now i'd rather not have loved at all.

i know that you'll leave me.

everyone can see the way you look at me.

can you please love me gently?

they're wearing your clothes.

they're starting to get loud.

there's comfort in the sadness and the mess i seem to make.

no one's gonna know you like i do.

you're always on my mind.

sold my morals for a smoke.

you know my body more than most.

i think i'm all the things i hate.

no one tell you drugs can kill you?

it isn't where i thought my life would be.

don't tell me how to get better.

you know that they love it when i'm getting sadder.

the people won't like me if i'm any louder.

i'm the one who's insecure.

not healthy but at least i got a way to cope.

i want you to hold me.

i'll be your poltergeist.

i thought you were pretty until my sight was fixed.

if no one was watching, would you still call me a friend?

are you smoking weed again?

i've seen how you touch her, and it's the way you used to touch me.

you said you loved me, you said you'd want me.

it was the last time i was loved innocently, but i know it's because we were young.

but if it was now, i would've held on to you longer.

i want you to notice how much that i've moved on.

i think i'm a liar.

i've been lonely since you left me.

did you treat her well tonight?

it's like when my parents fight.

or did i spell it wrong?

am i enough to make you stay?

meet you at the bus stop.

tell me to wait, but i won't.

and ain’t that so much better than a ring on my finger?

you'll break into my house.

i’ll break into your house.

if you twist the knife right, i will twist the knife left.

i know you’ll come just when i call.

there wasn’t anybody there.

now my house is your house.

i count the ways that i love you everyday.

take me back, take me back.

let us walk by the shore.

i’m wasting my time.

you know i hate to lose.

and maybe that’s why i’ve left you behind.

i feel like i’ve left you behind.

ain’t it nice, second best?

what do i do to be better for you?

god knows i left him by mistake.

good morning, good looking!

this is the killer speaking.

good morning, handsome!

if only you’d been honest, could have spared this bloodshed.

now i’m wanted ‘cross several county lines.

when you leave, don’t look me in the eye.

good morning, angel!

hope my television appearance drives you fucking mad!

turn your head, boy.

close your eyes, boy.

are you happy now?

people sing your prayers, but you talk too loud.

can you stay a while?

oh god, how you’ve grown.

does it feel good spilling blood?

i can’t feel a thing anymore.

every night i hear falling birds.

i can’t bear to look.

i don’t know if i’d be a good mother.

i should have told you to be careful.

i don’t want to be the one to tell you that it won’t grow back.

i don’t want to see you cry.

nobody asked me to, but that is what i’m meant to do.

i’m not sure whose knife i carry.

what’s in a when? what’s in a why?

what’s it to live once you’ve survived?

i’ve never known where others begin and i end.

nobody asked me to; it’s not what i was made to do.

we used to ride in limousines.

you want the world, i’d give it to you.

just don’t smoke in your room.

i’ll take you with me anywhere.

keep the water on, keep it running.

i’m in the other room.

nothing happened.

make it quick, make it quick.

each life runs its course.

i’ll see you in the next one.

next time, i know you’ll call.

next time you call, i’ll be your girl.

you’ll be in silk, and i’ll wear my furs.

i’m terrified there’ll be no second chance.

cowardice is prettiest in a nice dress.

i feel the need to confess.

i keep trying, lord, i’m trying.

i’ve never known myself, but then, i’ve never claimed to know.

i do this for my health.

i’m dying, just waiting for your call.

i’m watching the real housewives and crawling up the walls.

this heart of mine’s a glorified abscess.

i’m drinking to your health.

as of right now, i don't have access to most of my data that was saved on my old computer so for now, i'm just going to scrap to to-do list i had for gif packs. i'll likely return to them later, but putting my focus towards other things for now!

gif pack: patrick gibson in good girl jane.

contains: #110 gifs of PATRICK GIBSON in good girl jane. these gifs were made from scratch by me, along with sharpening and colouring, for the purpose of roleplaying.

content warnings: smoking, drinking, kissing.

terms of use: please do not repost/resell/redistribute or claim as your own, use in smut threads, t.aboo plots, k.rp, or for the purpose of roleplaying real people, including celebrities and historical figures.

how to access: available for 2.00 CAD. you can find the link to download in the source of this post.

GRAPHIC TEMPLATE: ON THE MOON BY VANPELTGFX.

contains: a graphic template psd file, made for photoshop but also compatible with photopea. canvas size is 540px [1:1 ratio]. this template includes editable gradient maps, textures, and an optional noise gif overlay. you can play around with this, change the images and the colour of the frame, and personalize to your liking. requires some basic knowledge of layer masks and clipping masks. sample graphic uses the fonts nautica and source code pro.

terms of use: please do not repost/resell/redistribute or claim as your own, use in t.aboo roleplays, or for the purpose of roleplaying real people, including historical figures.

how to access: available for 1.50 CAD. you can find the link to download in the source of this post.

whitney peak in eye for an eye

isa briones in goosebumps

patrick gibson in good girl jane

madeleine madden in picnic at hanging rock

emma mackey in ella mccay

doing my best to work as efficiently as possible, but i will admit that i tend to be slow(er) these days. however, if there's one in particular from this list that anyone is especially interested in, you can let me know and i'll try to prioritize whatever is most in demand.

other than that, suggestions/requests are now closed until further notice. i'd like to complete a few of these before i take on any other projects. thank you!

contains : #76 gifs of AYO EDEBIRI in ella mccay. these gifs were made from scratch by me, along with sharpening and colouring, for the purpose of roleplaying.

content warnings : kissing.

terms of use : please do not repost/resell/redistribute or claim as your own, use in sm*t threads or t*boo roleplays, or for the purpose of roleplaying real people, including historical figures.

how to access : available for 1.50 CAD. you can find the link to download in the source of this post.

archives.design. a collection of graphic design pieces curated from the internet archive—which was going to be another recommendation on this list anyways, but if you're not willing to do a deep dive through that library, archives.design has already picked out some of the gems for you.

fonts in use. a typography collection where you can find the name of fonts seen in advertising, movies, magazines, and more. you can filter by the format, topic, or typeface. a great place to learn how to incorporate a particular font, as well as find pairings that fit with the overall design.

consumer aesthetics research institute. an online index for documenting visual design movements in history (1970s to present day), categorized by their years/decades of relevance. while it's not a comprehensive database, each article contains a variety of visual examples and some descriptions about the context and history of these aesthetics. while you won't find in-depth or detailed articles here, it's helpful for when you're interested in designs from previous decades but don't already know what you're searching for.

design reviewed. a collection dedicated to graphic design history, featuring articles and scans of artwork and ephemera from the 19th century to present day. you can filter by the decades, and most of the scans also list the names of the original artists.

the people's graphic design archive. an archive including designs featured in branding, ad campaigns, book covers, posters, magazines, user-submitted projects, and more. since this archive aims to be inclusive, i've found it to be a good resource for finding art made with focus on queer and bipoc identity, countercultural movements, and humanitarian causes.

canada modern. an archive of works featuring modernist design by canadian designers, highlighting the period from the 1960s to 1980s, including highly celebrated artists, as well as some lesser known works.

letterform archive. a curated collection of design focusing on on typography and lettering, with an extensive list of categories to search from, including but not limited to countries, languages, artists, and agencies/firms. highly recommend taking a look at their collection of punk design from the 1970s.

other suggestions not listed: this may be an obvious suggestion, but i always recommend checking out your local public libraries—many library websites will have free digital archives that could be relevant to you. websites for university libraries and museums will also typically have resources, though some may require paid memberships to access them.