#personal updates.

this is my way of saying that you're probably getting a resource drop as soon as i reach the library today. most are incomplete templates and a texture pack that i made and never finished but all are all free and usable. if you wanna pay for them, i will accept and appreciate that too! but there is never a reason not to give something out for free even if it not my proudest and what i know i could genuinely improve. this is what we have for now and can update later too.

also these are totally accessible to anyone? if i cannot answer a question immediately (i probably won't have time to do it as soon as i want, but will as soon as i have the time) there is almost always someone available who can and knows how to do what you need. feel free to ask anyone you know who has photoshop knowledge to help, including other creators! link them to my posts if you need to provide context/info! if they can and want to, they will do that for you on my behalf. and please be respectful to them anyways, thank them for me since i can't do it myself! pay them if you don't want to pay me and you know they actually need it!

first, this is the rough estimate of my expenses recently. i am pretty good with keeping it to my core essentials and plan ahead anyways because my work is never guaranteed or consistent even with opportunities available. (i have a lot of health reasons that force me to slow down and i always wish i could stick to ONLY rp commissions because that guarantees a creative opportunity that other freelance work doesn't always satisfy. i don't hate doing a business card or something like that, but it's never my first choice even if it could pay better.

but as you can see, i've basically doubled my usual habits and would worry a lot knowing what i have right now!

and here you can see my actual account balance, which is not as much as it could be, but i am actually keeping the chequing to a small amount for only essentials as a way to be smart.

however, here is what i would never have expected BECAUSE it was over $400 less the last i checked?

obviously huge difference and reassuring me. i have purposely decided i need to keep as much of it in here so i can't use it unless it is truly essential. my mom doesn't even want to accept it and insisted i keep it for now until it is an emergency (she still doesn't like asking for help, none of us do, but i know better than to deny myself a chance again). i don't even plan to tell her how much there is right now? she doesn't need a reminder but i can spend it on the essentials when i think it is the best thing.

i don't want to spend it on the internet bill that i could maybe even cover entirely for this month. #spermdonor (derogatory) is still in our home despite me asking him to leave as nicely (not at all but nicer than he would allow me) and i think until he is actually GONE, i won't reward him by doing his job for the household. not just because of that, but it seems unfair to let him have anything that was meant for me and my friends wanted me to protect myself. (i did and i know i made you all proud and wish i had the idea to record it for evidence too if needed, because the way i did it was RIGHT.)

yeah, this isn't necessary at all, but just a really cool thing if anyone ever wonders how it is going. literally just positive stuff and i want to be transparent because it will remind you that if you even gave me a nice reminder that i am allowed to live? yeah that did its job and you contributed to keeping me alive by being normal. it isn't a big deal at all if you think of it like, this is just human decency that we aren't always taught properly or forget how to do. but i will always start by thank YOU.

and also the library because if you ever feel the need to do something on my behalf for free? if there is a library near you, go there and use it. it will probably keep you safe and entertained. people who work there enjoy knowing if you appreciate it. thank them and let them know i said hi.

i always want to be in constant contact with my friends anyway, people already do keep me sane with our regular conversations and can be cathartic to know that. i want to say a lot more, but have a limited amount of time and have to be mindful.

i am fortunate and grateful that there is a safe library i can go to within walking distance and can use that computer whenever i am not able to bring mine along. so i am doing that right now! it keeps me productive and i enjoy the librarians who have been really helpful and kind lately. i have said this so many times to a lot of people already, but we all need to be reminded constantly.

libraries keep people alive! whether or not they are in danger, but especially then. i consider that an essential service and should be thanked any time you can remember. i am being funny when i tell you all to say "thank you for your service" directly to someone who works or contributes to a library. but literally please do in whatever way and remember what we should appreciate.

Back in April when I was looking on Facebook and Craigslist for a dog, I came across an ad for a Husky. The owner was like “oh she’s a complete thoroughbred but seems to have trouble with men, so we’ve lowered the price” but there were still three too many zeros there. I was like “respectfully I’m not paying multiples of my rent for a dog :)” but much nicer.

Anyways guess who hit me back up like “we’ve have multiple failed adoptions. she HATES men with such a visceral rage. we don’t know where it comes from. you, however, seemed like someone who doesn’t like men and you also live alone” (information I gave out when I found out she didn’t take well to men before learning her price) “we are just trying to get her off our hands, so she’s free. She bullies my stepson. She disrespects me. She only listens to women and we want a well trained dog to run sledding.”

hey everyone !! 

the name’s tati and i’m still looking for some amazing writing blogs to follow ( whether it’s writeblr, 1x1, rph blogs, and so forth ) and I was wondering if y’all had any recommendations! i’m still new to this whole thing, but I would love to meet people, interact with people, give advice to people, and make friends! not only will it help me, but i’d love to help others!