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I work in an ER and we see suicides all the time. And we get at least 3 suicidal ideations a night. We all care about you. I promise, we do. A team of complete strangers who have worked 3+ 12 hour shifts this week who are being screamed at all day and night and probably haven’t had lunch and trust me, we still love you and care about you.

We had a 16 year old patient last night who we couldn’t save. We were in that room with this patient for over an hour, we did everything we could. And let me tell you, we all cried. The EMT’s, the nurses, the doctor. We all huddled together in the doctors dictation room and cried.

I went through the rest of my shift with smudged mascara and tracks on my cheeks.

I remember the names of all the patients that have taken their lives on my shifts.

I remember squeezing the hands, smoothing the hair, kissing the foreheads, and wiping away the blood and the vomit of every patient that has left me too soon.

I can still see every face that I have zipped into a body bag.

Trust me, someone cares about you. You have never met them yet. You don’t ever think about them. They are never remembered when you talk about heroes and role models.

There was a nurse though, who came into my room with a soft smile, who held my hand, who took away the bottles when she noticed me watching them for too long. There was a nurse that plugged in my phone to charge in case my family called back, that took away the bloody cloths the paramedics had left me with, that helped me put my hair up when it was sticking to my tear streaked face, because my arms were too sore to do it myself.

There was a nurse that saved my life twice in one night, who made me feel that I was worth being looked after, and her name was Emma and she was the most beautiful person I’ve met.

Months later, I was visiting my mother at the same hospital whilst she was incapacitated with back concerns. Whilst I sat and watched my mum sleeping, a nurse approached to check up on her. She met my gaze and she smiled immediately, face lit with recognition, and she said “oh my gosh, hey! How are you doing?”

People definitely do care about us even if we don’t think they do, and to the original poster?

Your faces are never forgotten either.

it’s like… despite what so many of us are working to subvert (sometimes the same people making assumptions, absurdly enough), you still have this mental image of that as the default state of humanity. and unless we state that we deviate from this false “norm”, it’s assumed that we fall under it.

and it’s making it so that people are forced into oversharing and oversharing becomes normal. you don’t have any right to know these things unless i really, truly am comfortable with/want to share them. not everyone is comfortable with disclosing the private details of their lives, and you seeing that desire for privacy, making assumptions, and attacking them is fucked up.

fair warning: while some of these articles are just silly or weird, i do like to freak myself out, so a fair amount of these are creepy and/or morbid! some of the links involve death and occasionally suicide, so consider this your blanket warning for potentially upsetting/tiggering stuff! also when you’re white-knuckled gripping the bedframe at four am because you’re too freaked out to go get a glass of water and you think there’s an axe-murderer in your closet, don’t go a-blamin’ me. you clicked the link.

list of unusual deaths

post-mortem photography

nocebo

list of people who disappeared mysteriously

vrillon

ancient astronauts

list of nuclear/radiation accidents

lord uxbridge’s leg

suspicious incidents at disney parks

demon core

milgram experiment

list of film accidents

collyer brothers

new chronology & phantom time

cosmic latte

list of sexually active popes

spontaneous human combustion

list of methods of torture

cellar door

voynich manuscript

tarrare

list of inventors killed by their own invention

zone of alienation

randy gardner

list of entertainers who died during a performance

dancing mania

vodka eyeballing

tacoma narrows bridge

troy huturbise

list of alleged extraterrestrial beings

lucid dreaming

son of sam law

mary toft

list of banned video games

elizabeth bathory

marvin heemeyer

list of serial killers

quantum suicide

mcdonald’s urban legends

cockle bread

list of reportedly haunted locations

ball lightning

mellified man

armin meiwes

mobius syndrome

moon landing conspiracy theories

the case of taman shud

the euthanasia coaster

capgras delusion

raining animals

voluntary human extinction movement

trepanning

s. a. andrée’s arctic balloon expedition of 1897

list of reported ufo sightings

astral projection

maximum lifespan

oscar the cat

mill ends park

criticality accident

words that mean opposite things

list of video games notable for negative reception

parapsychology

uncombable hair syndrome

gloria ramirez

that that is is that that is not is not is that it it is

spite house

john titor

list of unsolved murders & deaths

sleep paralysis

list of common misconceptions

ames room

list of impostors

korean air lines flight 007: alternate theories

list of political decoys

psuedoscientific planets

list of conspiracy theories

sawney bean

loudness war

body farm

list of messiah claimants

lazarus syndrome