thinking about all of my romantic experiences with men and absolutely none of them were romantic….. it was all in my head, I created a fantasy every time, i never saw their actions at face value but ascribed more meaning to them, romantic meaning, when in reality every woman I’ve ever been friends with has acted more romantically towards me than a man ever has, like women have planned hang outs and road trips and dinners for me, remember my bday, ask me how big events in my life went. what have men done for me? they’ve never planned shit. It was always a story I wrote in my head, a fantasy I tried to will into being.

noise pollution in spain is out of control i stg. the gunshots id hear every so often in stl has nothing on constant construction noises and loud motorcycles every second of the day

one thing about the whole "you have to travel the world to really open your eyes!!!" narrative is that when you travel the world the majority of the people you encounter in those places cannot afford to travel the world. you're becoming more worldly, cultured and experienced because you're visiting a city filled with servers and street cleaners and teachers and beggars and caretakers and unemployed and street food stalls, who cannot afford to travel the world? and then you come home and scoff at those who haven't traveled in your own neck of the woods? insane. noble savage mythcore.

in the us i never ever bought tater tots but since i discovered them in spain i cant stop eating tater tots. my throat hurts bad today and a warm tot making its way down my throat is so soothing

it my birthday

the 22 yr old gf of my exbf messaged me after he stole my cats from me a few months ago saying she hopes im ok and she feels bad about the cats. i said the age gap is unhealthy. she said shes mature for her age. how do you explode someone with your mind in a very painful way

the average chronic therapy goer is like a fucking puritan ripped straight out of a scarlet letter. so concerned with the performance of mental-wellbeing while being morally bankrupt.