"nothing is hopeless; we must hope for everything"

I remember my parents and their friends and family always taking opportunities to say homophobic stuff, especially when schools teaching about the LGBTQ was brought up. My parents would make me skip school on IDOHOBIT day and if the school was doing an event for pride month.

whatever your life is now, its not actually good. i am not relying on any facts about your life in the slightest to make this conclusion

because of that, you're not actually happy at all -- again, with zero evidence

the only pathway to true happiness is MY religion. your life experiences up to this point are irrelevant.

there is zero likelihood that you left christianity because of trauma

your lifestyle, whatever it is, is fundamentally wrong

your religion or theology, whatever it is, is fundamentally wrong

your belief system, whatever it is, is fundamentally wrong

your culture, cultural ties and expressions, and deeply-held cultural beliefs, are all fundamentally wrong to the point that, if you do not change, you will suffer possibly in this lifetime AND the next and deserve every ounce of pain if you don't change to my religion

again I cannot stress enough that there are two reasons why people suffer: they're either being Prepared for Greatness (that we'll never know about and that, because we'll never know, can get our hopes up but also can't rely on or expect because thats wrong) or You Fully Deserve It, regardless of what the suffering is.

my religion and my god "save" people but also does not even guarantee basic safety to people who need it and you're ludicrous for expecting that

Evangelicalism often promotes the idea that fellow Christians are your brothers and sisters. That if someone states they believe the same things as you, they do. You don't question it, that's the way it is.

There were so many times in my life where this turned out not to be the case. Someone is not automatically safe because they are religious. Media is not automatically good because it is Christian.

You get told over and over again not to question, so it feels wrong just to have thoughts show up in your head that something doesn't feel right. But this is your inner voice fighting back.