vampire enthusiast

there was no helping owen. he never wanted it, he never asked for it. not once did he ever think or speak about a future for for himself beyond burying himself back down into the dirt after causing as much pain as he could.

those few weeks where it was just him and the other three, that feeling of something close to belonging that he had never felt before. it was so novel to him. being apart of something.

it must've been a lovely distraction for owen. a reprieve from the constant rage and grief roaring in his head. when he was with them he cut down wood for castle foundations, he built fountains for ballrooms, he helped pick out clothes for shelby.

when he was with them they kept his shadows away. if he truly wanted that, to be a part of that family. he would have made the decision to keep his shadows away himself, even when he was alone. but he never did. he never wanted to.

when he was alone what did he do? terrorize the town. go off and find legs so he could wax poetic about his suffering and his mission to spread it to anyone he can. every time he ran off on his own he made the decision to run away from their light and straight back into his darkness.

he poked and prodded at the loose threads of his second chance at companionship with his very own claws, because they were glaring faults compared to the perfection he had with his short time with louis, and when the holes inevitably formed. he recoiled.

owen never understood how real relationships worked. how you go through the good and the bad. how sometimes they hurt but there are ways to talk things out and work through them. to owen relationships were either good or bad. people were good or bad.

that's all he knew. and when the others were trying to tell him that wasn't true. he refused to believe them. and when avid was showing him that wasn't true by just being himself. he killed him.

there was nothing anyone could have done or said, because owen a long, long time ago had already made his choice.

owen built the castle, but he didn't make a room.

one thing that guts me especially is that little moment where abolish cast his protection against undead and owen was MYSTIFIED. that utter amusement in his voice at something new, something he didn't know. there are so many things he didn't know. all he knew in his first life was suffering. and in this second all he chose was suffering, and finally, in his last life, he gets all the suffering he deserves.

he'll never know anything else. about how big the world is once you get out of your own way. once you're able to look past all the darkness that keeps you from seeing.

imagine how dangerous owen would be if he had a fraction of scott's ability to use people. in the beginning of episode seven the first thing scott does is "trust" drift with the "mission" of turning pearl. he's indirect about it. he could impose his will on drift and order her to turn pearl. instead he frames it as a show of trust and even allows her the agency of picking who she wants to turn. that way he does not have to do any of the dirty work to get another person on their side we'll also building rapport with drift. its an eventual win-win.

owen could never do that. hes impatient. hes petty. he holds grudges. he wants to be there to make sure the job is done well because he does not trust other people. that's why he always goes off on his own without telling scott anything. the only time owen successfully manipulated someone was when no one was around. when he found avid's gift to shelby and turned it into a threat.

the initial shock that scott felt when pyro admitted to murdering avid was full of so many emotions but the particular one i want to talk about comes after the initial slap of learning that avid is truly dead and will never come back.

the irritation, the fury scott must feel after learning that his first fledgling and owen, who he's put his trust in over and over, have ONCE AGAIN gone rogue went behind his back and decided to do something that jeopardizes his mission. i couldn't imagine it.

learning that avid is truly gone must have been a stab to the heart and the knowledge that it was owen and pyro must've felt like a hand pushing the stake deeper and deeper into his chest. imagine all the things running through his head in that moment.

how many times has pyro taken something from scott? how many times has his overconfidence cost the coven? how many times has scott gone out of his way to try to build rapport with the humans only for owen to run in and terrorize the town immediately after. how many times has scott, or any other vampire of the coven, needed assistance and owen was nowhere to be found? all of that and they still have the gall to go around thinking they can decide who and who isn’t coven?

owen has made some very bad decisions in this episode. i don't say this from a moral perspective, but from a strategic one. in a perfect world where owen had a good head on his shoulders and everything went his way things would have gone very differently. one: he should have killed apo before anyone else. two: should have coaxed pyro to kill avid alone absolving himself of responsibility. three: killed pyro as a punishment for avids murder successfully tying up all the loose ends on that particular thread. but that didn't happen, because owen doesn't have a good head on his shoulders. which brings me to my point.

owen does not know people. he wasn't allowed to know people in his first life and now in his second, he refuses to. and it'll be his undoing

from day one owen has been a very bad manipulator. his fake backstory didn't add up to anyone who had a sliver of common sense. and when the others obviously became suspicious of him. what did he do?he overcorrected way to hard and did his whole spiel at the town meeting. it was a lot. even if it was close to the the truth it was too much. it didn't make anyone pity him or feel particularly bad. it didn't throw the them off his trail. it accomplished nothing he thought it did. he was SURPRISED that he was avids number one suspect. (like bro you are NOT SLICK)

it definitely could have worked if owen had the ability to take a step back and think, if he had a gentler touch, but he doesn't. that's why once the others learn about his motivations they fear him a lot less. he's not as conniving or as silver tounged as scott. his motivations are simple.

owen doesn't think. he feels. deeply. he feels disgust, betrayal, rage, rejection. he doesn't follow any sire, but is ruled by the feelings left in their absence.

he doesn't think about how his actions will affect other people's perception of him (even if it's the smart thing to do(. he cares about how people make him FEEL and follows thoes feelings like his north star even if they lead him off a cliff.

he shouldn't have ran pyro off the morning after he turned. he shouldn't have pushed shelby so hard to kill. he definitely should not have killed avid.