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I'm a bit late with my progress recording. There was trouble with my prescription being lost on Friday 12/2/2016 (which would have marked my third week on Lexapro). That led me to two days in one week of missing out on my medication. I spoke to my doctor, he said it wasn't ideal but it's fine. My mood has been flip-floppy and I'm unsure whether that is due to medication or just me. I've been experiencing extreme hypersomnia. My prescription was permanently placed on 20 mg, once a day. After talking to my doctor about my 12 hour sleeping a day, he recommended I switch taking the medication from morning to nights. This was an easy transition after the pharmacy lost my order and I had to wait a day to take my medication. On 12/3/2016 an event stood in the way of setting my medication to a specific time. Starting on 12/4/2016 to now (12/6/2016), I have set a strict time. Every night at 10:00 p.m. I take my 20 mg pill. My prescription includes two refills, so I believe I will be remaining on this dosage. I don't feel as much of a "heavy" feeling on my chest. I don't have as much negativity running through my mind either. I've been very reminiscent lately, thinking in a mentality I possessed years ago. That's basically it for this week. I will update my 4 weeks on Friday.

Two days ago, Friday 11/25/2016, I completed two weeks on Lexapro. I feel calmer, and those around me have claimed that I appear calmer as well. I haven't had many unpleasant thoughts, but it isn't like that used to happen extremely often either. I haven't been feeling too anxious under different circumstances either. Smoking pot has been pretty good. It always was, though. Last night, I went out and got drunk. I was on my medication (still 20 mg), so that wasn't the smartest thing I have done. I had horrible mood swings, which is unusual for a drunk me. Terrible hangover!! Today, 11/27/2016, I have missed my first day. I feel tired and zoned out. Again, I cannot say this is due to the medication nor if it's just circumstantial to everything around today. I want to maintain taking my medication in the morning so I will stick through today and wait until tomorrow morning to take my next set. I have almost completed my first prescription, so I have to go to my doctor so I can get a refill. I also want to ask him a few more questions. My period for November hasn't arrived and I am afraid that is because of the medication, but unsure. • Should the difference on the medication be drastic? • Are occasional mood swings okay? • Will it affect my period? • Will it be a problem sexually for a while? • If I plan on drinking, should I skip the dosage for the day or simply monitor my alcohol intake?

Today, 11/18/2016, I have completed my first full week of Lexapro. The negative side effects have almost come to a complete stop. Yesterday I had a pretty horrible depressive episode which resulted in restlessness and extremely unpleasant thoughts. It came after a terrible 3 hour migraine. Today, I haven't experienced any negativity. On day 4, I had severe nausea. On day 5, I had body aching. I had been gnashing my teeth throughout days 2-5, but stopped on day 6. I don't feel the constant intense pressure on my chest I was experiencing before the medication anymore. Sexually, Lexapro hasn't been the greatest. Arousal occurs, climax doesn't easily. (Extreme warning if you're just starting the medication!!) Today, I went to visit my doctor. He upped my dosage to the full 20mg, to be taken every morning. The feeling I had last night is a bit alarming, but I'm hoping that within my first month mark, things will start looking up. I've been feeling calmer, more understanding. Arguments with my boyfriend have come to a complete end, so I'm unsure if it's because of proper communication or the medication.

Prescribed Lexapro 10 mg for depression and began taking it on 11/11/16. I've had constant dry mouth, slight headaches, loss of appetite, and nausea. I've been reading that the beginning of taking this antidepressant is unpleasant, but will be going to my doctor on my one week mark 11/18/16 to make sure these starting side effects are normal. I can't wait for things to begin getting better. Getting out of bed is still extremely difficult (I'm aware that I have to get adjusted to the medication and it isn't magic but I am anticipating the time when it isn't so rough). I feel so tired all the time, so drained. Everything is hard to deal with, hard to understand. I can't focus for too long and I can't find interest in anything. I zone out constantly. I feel worthless, I feel like a failure. I feel like I am not good enough. I'm hoping Lexapro is right for me.