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Donuts and more donuts with @fattybeardo

I know being fat may be glamorous but behind the curtain of lard there’s the reality of actually being fat. I often get asked, what does it feel like to be fat? The honest answer is, there is no honest answer. I think it differs vastly from person to person. Some people can gain to 600lbs and have no ailments or problems where as some people gain 20lbs and have to give it up. Every ones body is different so I will try to give you the best possible answer from my perspective although I feel like I’m not really that fat yet.

The easy answer for me is it feels great. When I look down I see a body of which I am proud to have sculpted to how I see fit. Sure, I’ve still got a long way to go before I get the look I’m going for but I’ve made some decent progress so far on my journey. I’m going to try to focus this article on the actual physical feeling of being fat but as you can tell from my previous articles, I tend to meander so bare with me if I do.

The first thing I wanted to talk about it the physical presence of being fat. It’s quite obvious that I now take up a lot more space than the old me used to. I notice this especially when I’m around other smaller people. It becomes very apparent that the world isn’t designed with larger people in mind. Public seating, clothing stores and leisure activities are just a few situations where being fat has a big impact. An example of this is that I live in a rented apartment; I cannot squeeze into the bathtub anymore. I’m barely submerged if I can finally get into an uncomfortable position to sit down. You learn to adjust to taking up more space and eventually it becomes second nature.

Double bill this time, I recorded this from 2 different angles, wasn't sure which I thought was better overall, so I'm going to post both.

People asked how easy is it for me to move around, so I showed you how I tend to get on and off of my bed! That bed is a standard double bed for the record.

A reflection on body architecture, ethics, and cultural norms

When people hear “body modification,” they tend to picture tattoos, piercings, implants, stretched lobes, or surgical enhancements. These are visible, often celebrated ways to reshape the body. They're viewed—depending on the cultural lens—as art, rebellion, identity, transformation.

But there's another kind of body modification that is rarely acknowledged: Intentional, sustained, and celebrated weight gain. A transformation not sculpted with needles or knives, but with calories, time, and will.

🧱 The Architecture of Growth

In an architectural sense, gaining is construction. Just as a builder adds volume to a structure, the gainer adds mass to their form. Just as cathedrals are raised layer by layer, a body grows in soft, rounded stages—first subtle, then significant, then monumental.

There is planning:

How much should I eat?

What will expand first—belly, thighs, chest?

How will my center of gravity shift?

What rituals will mark each stage of my build?

Gaining is not passive. It is design. The body becomes a living structure—elastic, warm, and evolving—responding to internal and external forces like pleasure, gravity, resistance, and desire.

🧬 Body Ethics: Consent, Control & Self-Ownership

Ethically, we often accept body modifications that are medicalized or commercialized: Botox, cosmetic surgery, orthodontics. Even extreme plastic surgeries find tolerance, if they promise "betterment" or conform to beauty standards.

But gaining? It disturbs people.

Not because it harms others—but because it violates deeply internalized rules about control, health, and conformity.

Yet from an ethical standpoint, intentional weight gain is:

Consensual

Self-directed

Bodily autonomous

And for many, deeply fulfilling—psychologically, emotionally, erotically

In the ethics of body sovereignty, pleasure is as valid a motivator as pain or trauma. If someone can cut into their skin to feel whole, someone else can fill their belly to overflowing to achieve the same result.

🧠 Cultural Perception: Subversion Through Flesh

Culturally, fatness is stigmatized. It's associated with lack of control, weakness, or medical failure. Yet, gaining flips this script:

It’s not accidental, it’s deliberate.

It’s not shameful, it’s celebrated.

It’s not a side effect, it’s the goal.

In doing so, intentional gaining becomes a radical act of resistance. It resists diet culture. It resists the demand for minimization. It resists a capitalist logic of “efficiency” and “fitness.”

Instead, it embraces:

Abundance

Visible pleasure

Softness as strength

Mass as meaning

The growing body becomes both a canvas and a mirror—showing the world not just what is taboo, but what is possible.

🔍 Closing Thought: A Modification Made of Flesh

What makes gaining unique among body modifications is its medium: Flesh, not ink. Volume, not incision.

It is alive, and responsive. It jiggles, stretches, folds, and settles. It’s unpredictable—yet cultivated. It’s taboo—yet intimate.

It is, at its core, the slowest, heaviest, most embodied art form there is. And for those who choose it—whether for fetish, identity, defiance or joy—it is just as real, intentional, and worthy as any scar, tattoo, implant or piercing.