Dumping :
Saw a good friend who still works at the uni department where i did my degree. she said one of the teachers still asks about me 4 years after I graduated which is making emooooo. like i appreciated this specific teachers moral expression, loved her class and she gave me so many opportunities while i studied there, but also when i lft and said i wasn't going to go into research for material reasons, she seemed bummed and asked if i was sure.
And all those memories are just making me think back to that time and how much i loved what i was doing and how i left beacuse it was the only decision i could make to preserve myself at the time). and it makes me wonder what my life would have been then if i hadn't been a neurodivergent young adult with no mental health care who worked part time on the side. i'm sad and angry i never got the support i needed and it shaped my life in ways i still regret to this day.
