Cold Cherry Blossoms

If you give up now the only person to truly care is you.

I wish I had the drive to try.

Low-key, I don't really have anything to offer my community. I don't have any valuable cooking skills, artists skills, etc.

Envy is one hell of a drug. When I see others online and my real life have qualities or traits that I want or deeply desire, I get envious since they have something I will never have. They have something to be proud about, that's makes them cool and interesting. I understand what it took for them to get where they are at and I know that I can't do it which I hate. Being the lowest version of yourself sucks but is so comfortable. I hate to admit this but it's hard for me to not only imagine but like believe with all my heart that I will and can become a better version of my existing self.

The difficulty of being a foodie through and through but literally going into nappy mode after one plate. Chinese buffet are my biggest lovers and opps because why do they have to prove how little it takes to make me full.

I know that elves have the potential to be interesting but they don't have an appealing features other than their long ears. Same goes for goblins and orcs who have the addition of being green and small(for goblins) and tall, muscular (for orcs). I am not interested in monsters or humanoid monsters that don't have traits that push them to being inhuman.

I would love to do art fight BUT when you have struggled with drawing for years due to deep rooted imposter symdrone and perfectionism, it is something that won't be overriden in a night.

the only reason I haven't cut myself is because I'm scared.

I hate being in my head. There are so many days where I wish I didn't try at all.

I would like to be represented in media but would not like to be the one represented. I always wonder how people have characters that they relate to and feel deeply seen by.