ive been trying to decenter attractiveness from my life lately. to be able to consider myself as unattractive & just sit with it & be okay.
the concept of beauty is a nuanced subject, i do understand that while eurocentric features & skinnyness are the standard, it isn't the end all be all for what Everyone considers beautiful, i've witnessed that firsthand. you can look like a regular guy and someone out there will find you attractive.
but for me personally, i find myself obsessing over the idea of that Someone. not fully believing it to be true. & it holds me back, from fun makeup or clothes i want to wear or even hobbies, i find myself pausing because oh, "i'm not attractive enough to pull that off."
but like!!! truly honestly who gives a shit. why should that matter. even if i'm "ugly" why should that mean i have to restrict myself from having fun & living my life fully
