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stop posting thinspo while using the edrecovery tag. it’s shouldn’t be in the ed recovery tag if u are not ready to recover yet. there’s no point in triggering people who are actually actively trying to recover

it’s just so fun not being able to have sex because you have been raped more than you have had consensual sex so u just dissociate and it’s painful and horrible :)))))

does anyone else feel like their eating disorder somewhat stemmed from experiencing sexual assault? like to try and get rid of your figure/curves or any part of yourself that’s over sexualized? i’m in recovery and have gained weight and it’s conflicting because i am no longer abusing my body but it feels like my body isn’t safe to be in.

do i wanna k!ll myself or am i just about to get my period or did i accidentally eat gluten?

i want to see how sick and fragile and miserable i can get. i have a sick desire for misery. it’s sick how in this lifetime you can only rely on yourself. maybe i’ve just been through too much. maybe im not strong enough for this. you just have to keep telling yourself you are even though there is no justice for your suffering. no support you just gotta act like everything is okay when you have nothing to keep you going

i feel so vulnerable on the internet. in person i never make eye contact or would dare to initiate a conversation yet on the internet i have no problem spilling my guts. i feel this is the only place i can. where nobody knows who i am. we have the ability to connect to others in a way our ancestors could only imagine in our dreams yet we all wear masks and hide our identities and feelings. i hate feeling so alone

i spend my time alone in my room isolated. i’m surrounded by people who’s paths are paved with marble and gold while i’m still trying to shovel a pathetic trail. i’m dragging broken trust and promises and pieces of my soul that have been shattered but i’m okay i’m more than okay i’m great. that’s what i keep telling myself and others but how long into hope and faith does it become a delusion?

it feels like every step forward i take, i take 2 steps back. it’s never enough. i’m trying. i just need something to keep me going to keep me motivated. i feel like i’m only happy when i’m delusional.

ever since i started eating food my family keeps making comments about my weight god no wonder i starved myself💀

why is it that no matter how hard i try it feels like it’s never enough, is this gonna be my life forever?

is my life lowkey a wreck? yes but at least the oatmeal i made today was perfect

my “friend” out of the blue told me that he “no longer wants to be friends with me because i am holding him back” and i feel kinda in shock. i cared about him a lot and put a lot of effort and support into him and it’s just disappointing. he made it seem like i’m a problem and honestly it really sucks and is making me question my self worth. and he didn’t even have the decency to call me he sent that over text. i’ve just been feeling a lot of overwhelming emotions and it’s definitely triggered a lot of wounds so any one who wants to talk would be really good support for me rn <3

i’ve noticed i like people more when they’re not around? i feel like i tend to favor them more when im not physically with them rather than when i am. is this normal/relatable?

oh my god i’m freaking out rn pls help i can’t do this

someone be my friend i’m so lonely lmao

i’m eating so much i need someone to help me stop 😩