Side Blog of Everything Wrong With Me

sorry for showing symptoms of the disorder i told you multiple times I have. Do you want me to kill myself?

when you think about it it's just kind of crazy how you can be neglected and abused your whole childhood instead of experiencing a brief moment of being taken care of while learning how to be a person, and then once you're an adult it's like ok now i'm still essentially raising myself in a shitty situation but this time my adult peers are like mad at me because i'm not as emotionally healthy as them, and on top of that i still have to save my own life

and it's not that i expect to be rescued it's that i'm tired of having to save myself

also sick of being condescendingly told "nobody's coming to save you, you have to save yourself" as if i'm not painfully aware of that as i have been doing this shit my whole life but i just want somewhere safe to rest momentarily without my life falling apart

Have I made an appearance in your dreams?

You ever be like "It is what it is " but deep inside your heart wishes this would be different

some people will come into your life at the right time and leave at the wrong one. that’s just how it goes. it’s okay if it takes time for you to get through it. it’s also okay if you never really feel through it.

hopefully i'll get to do something other than endure soon. that would be really nice

i’m not the kind of person that people miss