hi im keith

the thing about het romances is most of them are sexist so even tho i’m meant to root for them ill spend half of it thinking he shouldn’t talk to her like that

the heavy lifting the angelus vs. angel name change does to absolve him of his actions meanwhile spike is always just spike and his ledger is dripping with blood even as he is not allowed the luxury of being perceived as a being with free will….. reinforced by anya vs. anyanka like HELLO don’t piss me OFF….. this is also why the soul irritates me because he gets it most truly as a way to allow the narrative to neatly categorize the growth that was already there is Provable and reinforcing the false dichotomy of good ensouled / bad soulless that the show had otherwise already grown past

the tragedy of buffy to me in early seasons is that she’s convinced she’s not a normal girl dealing with normal girl things even though everything that happens to her is an extremely cogent metaphor for normal girl things, such as when you’re filled with thoughts of violence, or when your boyfriend starts acting like a different person after you have sex with him, or your mom grounds you for being irresponsible even though you ARE responsible it’s just that nobody understands what you’re going through, or when the entire world conspires to convince you that your sexual desires are inherently evil and you will be punished for having them. many of these things are normal girl experiences under the patriarchy but buffy doesn’t know that bc she’s in the literalization torture labyrinth

crazy that in the books lestat and louis are slave owners and armand is a former child slave who seduces them both and ruins their lives. and they just never talk about this

you break up with me to go hang out with MY dad/husband who abandoned me and i thought was dead for hundreds of years, refuse to let me come with you bc i’m crazy, make me babysit your ex boyfriend who YOU made crazy, then you run off to america and fall in love with a slave owner and live on his plantation and kill the slaves and drink their blood. and you make him a tormented daughter child vampire despite that being the ONE THING everyone told you not to do, and also a twisted reflection of me because i’m technically also a child vampire. like. i would have done way worse than kill your daughter steal your husband and throw you off a building.