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āiād compare myself, but that would require me ever being in a committed relationship. or even being the product of one.ā her mind flashed to her mother, safe and having travelled with other merchants in hopes of selling their wares. she was staying in the palace now, something sitara had insisted on even if she wasnāt close with the woman.Ā āhave you ever thought they may just tell you that to inflate that delicate ego of yours?ā her question was punctuated with the a playful smirk, that mischievous glint in her eyes shining brightly. an expression that died when she realized the weight of her words and what they meant to him. sitara took a deep breath, guilt surfacing and threatening to show on her face. but she bit it back, and replied softly instead.Ā āi know.ā they were the only words she could really manage, not knowing whether to comfort him or just press onto another subject. sitara rarely, if ever, regretted her words to people, but she felt bad for pressing into a subject she knew far better than to.Ā ābecause iām good at it, and i canāt die easily.ā she wasnāt sure what it would take, how far her body could heal, but sitara also had no intentions on figuring that out. she pushed a lot of limits, but when it came to battle she was only in the front because she knew she could do it. there wasnāt a chance, she was a deadly weapon honed for precisely that.
ānot cocky? your ego is known well by most, ares. iām just known as a bitch.ā and her tone made it clear that she was perfectly fine with that. in fact, in most cases, she proved it to be true. her eyes meet his when he argues against the weight of her gesture, a swirling emotion sheās not quite sure how to identify thrumming through her chest.Ā āperhaps not, but itās not a hard gesture to make. itās important to me to help ease your worries.ā she said carefully, words meticulously picked because she honestly had no clue how to navigate her own feelings. emotions werenāt her forte, and feeling more than amusement or annoyance around ares had become too common for her to ignore at this point.Ā āgods, being drunk sounds like heaven now.ā sheād not realized how much her body required a break, her mind craving a moment of peace. something wine could offer, that and the company of her only friend. as they walked, sitaraās hand rested on the sword at her hip, her leather uniform lighter than most, and her sword specially crafted for her size. it was an odd habit she had, but sheād never sought fit to break it.Ā ānot getting caught seems more my area of expertise than yours.ā she teased back easily.Ā āi donāt need people gossiping about who warms my bed. youāre just nosy and want to know if you know any of them.āĀ
"donāt worry about it, youāve still got plenty of time for that. iād like to see that actually, you being in love with someone. i just know youāll turn into one of those people that are impressed with flowers.ā he teased, joking entirely. he couldnāt even make funn of her if she was considering if someone brought him flowers, heād turn to a bucket of mush himself. he scoffs then, mouth showing teeth.Ā āthey could, but what would they really gain from it? are you saying i sleep with a bunch of liars?ā the damage is already done, the conversation turning from playful teasing into sombre tones and him with his feeling a little hurt. but he takes a deep breath, reigning himself back in, and reminds himself that in all the ways that they are similar, they still have very different perspectives when it comes to life. so he inhales again and he lets it go, because itās sitara and he canāt stand the thought of fighting with her. not over this, and especially not today.Ā āthank god for that. iām always a little more at ease thinking about you fighting due to that fact.ā and while he doesnāt like anyone he cares about being in battle, he respects her enough not to interfere with what she chooses to do when itās time to draw blades.Ā
āiām but a humble guard. and i like that about you.ā he grins then, not entirely teasing. he liked that she spoke her mind and didnāt feel the need to be liked by everyone. byĀ god, he knew he couldnāt say the same about himself as much as he wishes otherwise. his smile remains soft as he gazes at her fondly. heād always had friends present in his life, close ones at that, but sitara had always felt like a constant. all through the war when theyād flick in and out of each otherās camps, and now with them both working at the castle in close proximity to the king.Ā she was so special, so important in his life, and at this point he doesnāt know what heād do without her.Ā āstill. itās a gesture that means the world to me and will certainly succeed in easing my worries.āĀ he just hopes that it wonāt be met with bad news. he hummed in agreement, head nodding as he quietly praised himself for stashing wine in his room. who knew how long it would be before they would get another break like this. they would be working themselves to the bone to protect the king from then on out, so they might as well truly enjoy their last chance at a break before the trials.Ā āmaybe if you got caught more often then there wouldnāt be so many rumours about you and me.ā he teases, smirking.Ā āperhaps. though if you happen to tell me youāve slept with tharon, i might vomit.āĀ