Deriva de mi corazón

“One of you stands, walks to the door, but doesn’t turn back, even if their heart aches for just one more look, one more moment. But you’ll know that the not looking just means I’ll never forget you.”

maggie’s favorite ships

it’s annoying to me as a Fanfic Elder that y’all don’t understand how consent works in regards to reading fanfic

last night I saw a fic that had EIGHT of my favorite tags included and a great summary BUT it also contained a tag for a topic that bothers me. I weighed the pros/cons and decided NOT to read the fic because the ONE tag I disliked was something that could trigger a panic attack if the scene went into any sort of detail - it wasn’t worth risking the eight good tags.

from the first moment I noticed the fic to the moment I decided not to read it, the entire experience was MY RESPONSIBILITY. the author tagged the fic correctly, I knew what my limits were, and I respected them.

if you find a fic with tags you don’t like, JUST DON’T READ IT 

don’t harass the author, don’t post a big whiny rant about it on Tumblr, just keep scrolling

haha yeah socializing only started getting difficult after cohveed hit yeah i wasn’t always like this /s

but, just as angry chihuaha steve, reckless idiot steve is also upsetting because it takes the most sincere, earnest, good things steve has done in the mcu and twists them to be not the actions of a noble hero, but the stupidity of a manchild who challenges everything and everyone for no reason. it bastardizes the very core of steve’s character, and, above all, equates making steve more cynic/less idealistic with making steve better and cooler.

and that sucks because, no, he’s not a boyscout, but, guys, the very core of steve’s character is cheesy. steve as a character represents an ideal, and he does so in the most sincere, earnest way possible. steve’s superpower is his heart and his bravery. he’s a hero because he’s a good person, not because he’s snarky, because he’s a genius, because he’s super powerful or because he was chosen by fate or a prophecy. he’s just… the ultimate Good Guy. it doesn’t get much cheesier than that, unless your name is Clark Kent. 

and if that isn’t interesting to you, it’s cool. anti-heroes are the norm in the mcu and in most superhero movies for a reason: they’re fun to watch and very relatable. but, i’m sorry, steve is just not one of them. steve is that guy who walks old ladies to cross the street, not the guy who cracks a bunch of jokes while kicking a villain’s ass. and you’re free to find this boring and lame as much as you want to, but that’s IT. that’s the character. and i feel like a lot of people are not comfortable just letting steve be that way - they need to twist his actions to make him seem much more of a rebel badass than he actually is, and since i’m so attached to this stupidly sincere portrayal of sheer goodness and bravery, it becomes upsetting.

like… streve crashed the Valkyrie into the water not because he’s an Extra™, Dramatic Bitch or whatever, but because it was the only chance to land the plane without killing tons of innocent people. TFA is the ONLY origin movie in the mcu that doesn’t end with a triumph, but with a tragedy, and fandom somehow thinks it’s fun to turn steve’s sacrifice into a laughing stock, to act like he did so because he’s stupid or missed bucky’s dick too much or anything of the sort, instead of seeing the fact that steve did what he did because he valued other people’s lives above his own, because he valued doing the right thing over getting what he, personally, wanted.

and i guess to me it’s upsetting because this is something that resonates so deeply with my values and the person i want to be, and so to see fandom turning it into something small and petty just hurts, even if it’s just a joking shitpost. because when you act like steve is just some insolent dude who challenges everything and everyone just because he can, you end up turning his character from a hero to an idiot with poor impulse control. when you make headcanons of his friends being annoyed and bored by his constant idealism and desire to do the right thing, you turn him into a burden to sam or bucky or natasha or whoever, ignoring how he’s actually a leader and an inspiration to the people around him - you ignore how he broke through bucky’s brainwashing through sheer loyalty, how he made sam want to suit up for the first time in years, how he gave natasha trust when no one else would have. 

And again with Wanda in Civil War.

He also empathized with Zemo, a man who’d almost gotten Steve’s best friend killed and torn apart a new family he’d painstakingly built for himself in the new century.

Ok, so, since you decided to add these tags to my post, I guess I’m allowed to reply it.

First of all, we have absolutely not “been over this”, lol, because it’s not an actual argument.

Steve NEVER made a “choice” to not be found. That doesn’t even make sense per your own tags, because if he didn’t want to live anymore, then the thought of being found wouldn’t even cross his mind. 

Steve doesn’t give his coordinates to Peggy - his canon love interest, the person he wanted to come back to after the war was over - because Peggy wants the coordinates so he can find a safe landing spot, but Peggy is not there, Steve is, and he can see where the plane is headed and where it is at the moment, so he knows forcing it to crash there is the only option, as crashing anywhere else would probably cause a disaster. He very clearly tells her that he can “force it down” - a “soft landing” is not an option.

He doesn’t think he will survive the crash. Which is a totally reasonable thing to expect, as he CAN’T control the plane - because we SEE him trying to do so with the controls - and he has no idea how resistant his body can be after the serum, so even if he assumes he COULD survive the crash, there’s no reason for him to assume he can survive BEING FROZEN.