Things I cannot say

I had a really bad nightmare last night and I am so exhausted, but now that it’s almost time for bed I’m getting really anxious... 

Chinese delivery guy said he liked how I'm always ready at the door, not wasting time when he gets here. You can thank my crippling anxiety for that buddy

People keep trying to get my attention when I’m wearing my good headphones, with noise. They either knock on the open door or they yell over and over until I happen to see them move out of the corner of my eye. Come on, really?

My family just started another fucking group text that I am unable to remove myself from and it’s 8:30am on a Sunday and they have already started up on it, oh my god

People get so butthurt when you are better than them in TF2, it’s crazy

I feel like the luckiest unlucky person 

I wish I had someone to distract me from my emptyness

Accidentally locked myself out of my main apartment building and an angel in a white dress opened the door for me

I can’t stop crying...

Someone should come smoke with me. I’m tired of sitting alone on this balcony every day. 

So my roommate, who I had lived with happily for 4 years, first was very happy at my getting a dog idea and even helped me look around. Then when I was finally approved for a pup and was planning my trip out to him, my roommate threw this huge fit out of nowhere crying how I was getting a dog just to upset her. She had never said anything about not wanting a dog though? And she wouldn’t be taking care of it at all, it was mine?? So like... what???? But it was too late anyways and I get the dog and everything seems perfectly fine and then suddenly the roommate is buying a house but doesn’t tell me and I find out by accidentally overhearing a phone call, and now I have very little time to find somewhere new to live before our current lease, which I had thought we were renewing, is up. Wow, thanks for the heads up or whatever. K so then roommate moves into her house early (yay!) with her boyfriend and his giant malamute dog. Roommate complains every time I see her about how overwhelmingly stressed she is and how she doesn’t think she can hold up anymore and how she has no time for anything and she is going to explode. Then, even though nobody will be home to train it, roommate buys a puppy. 

When  you already regret how late you are staying up, but you still don’t go to bed. 

When you can’t bitch about your thoughtless roommate because they are on all your social media.