secret public diary

trying to explain why i like horror to people who don’t: ok so you know how it’s fun to be deeply disturbed and unsettled

It’s like a roller coaster for my mind.

i honestly don't really understand why "some people prefer watching gameplay online rather than playing games themselves" is treated as such a taboo when being a spectator is considered a pretty mundane way to engage with most sports, game shows, reality tv or even just like. chess.

there is something kind of mystical about project hail mary that i find so moving given how much of it is about humanity and science ... the petrova line as a symbolic red thread of fate, the rainbow (biblically, god's promise) appearing as grace is being forced off of earth, rainbows constantly appearing in general, even the whole "hail mary full of grace" pun or that moment towards the beginning of the film where grace sees himself in the future-- i really love that phm understands that humanity is not humanity without everything we don't know, space as we (historically as a collective) have known it is not space without the cosmos and heavens; project hail mary is so human because of the science and the profoundness of love and everything but also because some of it feels otherworldly and inexplicable and that altogether is the human experience in a nutshell i think

i’ll be real, kitten, daddy needs multiple wealthy and powerful folks to die in a painful, drawn-out, and generationally humiliating manner