*Hyperventilates in a Bag*

It’s been Christmas Day for at least a week now, how could it only be 2'o'clock

None Pizza with Left Beef is 10 years old today.

apparently I’m sharing my living space with….a sun.

okay then.

my name’s promise. i’m an 18 year old enby and i have nerve damage because i took abilify at age 13 and it screwed me over. it has only gotten worse since i’ve gotten older, to the point i can’t work normal jobs.

i looked into freelance work but for various reasons i’ve been unable to actually get any reasonable jobs (someone wanted me to ghostwrite a 25,000 word book for 200 dollars with a time limit of 2 weeks for example) so that’s a no go. i live in college dorms and i don’t have a car so i need money for transportation to and from doctor’s appointments.

i do have my parents’ insurance but that obviously doesn’t cover everything and there’s no telling when they’ll decide to cut me off. my parents are the definition for medical neglect and even if they weren’t they’re psychologically and emotionally abusive. this is copy pasted from my explanation page on my blog:

“ My mother told me that a case of bronchitis was allergies. I’ve literally been BEATEN for wanting to go to the emergency room because of how bad I physically felt, and apparently every single time I feel sick it’s an “excuse.” I’ve had a skin condition for years and seen a dermatologist ONCE in my life. Despite my chronic pain, I’ve never seen any kind of specialist. When I was younger, my siblings and I went five years without dental care. I could go on and on and on, but there’s no point to that. “

the reason i’m making a new post is i have a friend who’s an EMT and had an internship at a neurologist’s office last year. i talked to him yesterday and he thinks if i see a specialist i might be able to find a way to manage the chronic pain enough to work again. he also said if i keep letting it progress i could lose the ability to control my muscles by the time i’m twenty five. he thinks it’s some form of dysautonomia as well as spinal nerve damage but he obviously can’t do much besides advise me to seek out a specialist.

i’m not asking you for much. please, even spare change would help me. if everyone who follows me gave me fifty cents i would have enough to make my first appointment. if you can’t donate please reblog this. 

as a measure of good faith i’ll show any documents i get from doctor’s offices if i manage to get enough money to see them. in the past i’ve gotten close to enough money to see doctors but always fallen short due to textbooks or other costs of living, so if you can donate any money at all please do. 

paypal

i have been curating this compilation since 2014. with vine closing down, i thought i should finally share it

nah i get it.

I still have the schnuggle’s bookshelf tag and schnuggle’s fic recs tag if you wanna browse through those! they’re not that recent though.

i also highly reccommend @therealshnuffeluv‘s series Gibb’s Family! It’s super well written and got the same feel as Hamiltots, what with consent and cuddles and respective boundaries and angst. It has fifty parts and counting too, so there’s a lot to read! Go show her some love!

my name’s promise. i’m an 18 year old enby and i have nerve damage because i took abilify at age 13 and it screwed me over. it has only gotten worse since i’ve gotten older, to the point i can’t work normal jobs.

i looked into freelance work but for various reasons i’ve been unable to actually get any reasonable jobs (someone wanted me to ghostwrite a 25,000 word book for 200 dollars with a time limit of 2 weeks for example) so that’s a no go. i live in college dorms and i don’t have a car so i need money for transportation to and from doctor’s appointments.

i do have my parents’ insurance but that obviously doesn’t cover everything and there’s no telling when they’ll decide to cut me off. my parents are the definition for medical neglect and even if they weren’t they’re psychologically and emotionally abusive. this is copy pasted from my explanation page on my blog:

“ My mother told me that a case of bronchitis was allergies. I’ve literally been BEATEN for wanting to go to the emergency room because of how bad I physically felt, and apparently every single time I feel sick it’s an “excuse.” I’ve had a skin condition for years and seen a dermatologist ONCE in my life. Despite my chronic pain, I’ve never seen any kind of specialist. When I was younger, my siblings and I went five years without dental care. I could go on and on and on, but there’s no point to that. “

the reason i’m making a new post is i have a friend who’s an EMT and had an internship at a neurologist’s office last year. i talked to him yesterday and he thinks if i see a specialist i might be able to find a way to manage the chronic pain enough to work again. he also said if i keep letting it progress i could lose the ability to control my muscles by the time i’m twenty five. he thinks it’s some form of dysautonomia as well as spinal nerve damage but he obviously can’t do much besides advise me to seek out a specialist.

i’m not asking you for much. please, even spare change would help me. if everyone who follows me gave me fifty cents i would have enough to make my first appointment. if you can’t donate please reblog this. 

as a measure of good faith i’ll show any documents i get from doctor’s offices if i manage to get enough money to see them. in the past i’ve gotten close to enough money to see doctors but always fallen short due to textbooks or other costs of living, so if you can donate any money at all please do. 

paypal

B. Any of your stories inspired by personal experience?

Burr grieving and all the panic attack scenes lol

F. Care to share a favorite hurt/comfort fic?

from me? uhhh Alex Proofing, i guess