Listen To ALL Disabled People

Storm was right in what she said to Rogue about the cure and I will fight people on this.

My name is Raven, he/him, I'm 22, and this is my disability blog. I am a multiple disabled person who has a bad job, has not yet learned how to drive, certainly can't live on my own, and I write and reblog posts. Please do not mock the spelling, language, grammar, punctuation, or whatever else of me or anyone I reblog here. This blog will focus mostly on autism and autistic voices, but I'll post about a whole spectrum. Mainly the ones listed below

And all I'm saying is that this was a legitimate method, because they all tasted like a steel-toed kick in the teeth and I hated them so much I refused to drink anything alcoholic until I was twenty-one. And even then, I still couldn't stand the taste of alcohol so I still refuse to drink because I hate the taste that much. And that's actually beneficial, because I'm on multiple medications I can't drink alcohol with (like, to the point where doing so would put me in the ER,) and because substance use runs back in both sides of my family for generations and I have it as well. So like, their method absolutely worked. They took away the "forbidden fruit" aspect by giving me safe amounts and also by telling me I would never be in trouble for experimenting with alcohol, and also showed me that alcohol was not all it was cracked up to be because the things I tried absolutely sucked.

Those are probably some of my favorite representations of disability in children's media. Ever.

While it's never explicitly stated, it's very clear that the Herdman children have behavioral issues due to poverty, neglect, abandonment, and their community turning on them. They're also very neglected in their education. As a result, they're antisocial, violent, angry, they abuse substances and lash out, very clear examples of conduct disorder. Every book with start with the narrator, a child, going on for several pages about how "terrible" they are, listing things that clearly demonstrate these kids need more help than they're getting. At the beginning of the book, through that girl's eyes, they look like Satan incarnate.

And then you start learning more. Abandoned by their father, their mother never around and actively avoiding actually parenting her children, poverty, living in an abandoned house, dirty and underfed and left with only each other to rely on- absolutely horrendous circumstances for children to live in. Their community has turned against them because of their behavioral issues, which just further isolates them in this terrible environment. They're hostile, yes, because the world is hostile to them. And every book, the narrator grows to understand the Herdmans, in a way. Every book, she learns that they're not as evil as she thought, that they're children like her. She learns to see them as human. And through every book the Herdmans never really change since their circumstances don't change, but the narrator learns to understand them and sees them as a little more human every time. With every book, the reader is taught that despite how they lash out, they're just kids who don't have the help they need. The narrator slowly learns they're just kids, and the reader realizes this, too.

Despite everything, we are taught the Herdmans are sympathetic, that they're just lashing out, that they just need some help. And I think this is a great thing. Yes, the books are simplistic and dated and you don't really understand that complexity of the Herdmans until you're older, but it still does good because it shows kids that the "devil children" they may know are far less evil and more human than they might think. That's a good lesson for kids to learn. And it's good for kids who act like the Herdmans, because they see a sympathetic view, they are seeing characters like them being understood. It meant the world to me when I was little.

So you know how I've mentioned a few times that I've had a headache that's lasted every single second of my life since first grade? Meaning over fifteen years at this point?

Well, I finally have an answer.

It's called New Daily Persistent Headache. It's a primary headache syndrome, it's a relatively new diagnosis and not much is known about it. But it does mean that this headache isn't caused by something more concerning, like a brain tumor or some other dangerous brain thing. It's essentially idiopathic, but to me, that's a good thing because it means that whatever the cause is, it's not something that is dangerous to me because if it was, they would have found that. That's why all of the tests, the studies, the scans, the bloodwork, and everything else all came up clean. Because there was nothing to find. It's not a tumor or a misfire or an imbalance or a deficiency, it's something we don't know the cause of and thus can't test for. That's why it took so long to figure this out.

You don't understand, I'm so happy right now. I'm not imagining it, I'm not making it up, this is an actual thing and now I have words to put to it.

Mercari is a site like eBay, where one buys resold items. The problem on Mercari is that in order for the seller to receive your payment, you as the customer are absolutely required to go through a lengthy process that I rarely have spoons for. Gotta accept the package, rate the seller, select qualities from a list that you like about the seller, and then type out an actual review and post it. Only then will the seller be paid. There's no other way unless you wait three days, in which case the sale defaults, they get the money, and you manage to skip reviewing them. But the sellers don't like that, obviously, because they need to wait three days, not having the item or their money, not knowing if they will get their money, and just wanting the sale completed so this can be done and we both go on our ways. They hate having to wait the three days, but unless the review is written, they have to. But writing reviews is hard for me.

> Use lotion to make skin not dry so itchiness will go away

> Have allergic reaction to lotion with hives and rash

> Legs now itch impossibly worse because I was allergic to the thing I tried to get rid of the itchiness

> I suffer