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covering up my sh sc4rs with concealer that doesn't match so i can show my ankles at a job interview. us this relatable?

one day, being radqueer is gonna be the norm, and people are gonna look back and think it's weird that anyone was ever against it

allergy season is objectively the worst time of the year. my whole head is itchy, and everything is terrible. plus its so darn humid all the time

i don't think im transpecies, but sometimes idk. i spend a lot of time with cats, and i relate to some of their mannerisms, specifically sleeping a lot, hiding from people i don't know/like, and ive even started to genuinely instinctively make some cat noises, especially when in startled or feeling affectionate. idk, i feel like being a cat is kinda basic though T-T does anyone have any experience with this? like, how do i know for sure?

the knowledge that i could literally post anything i wanted on here is a lot more stressful than i expected. im going to go drink water

i love going to the park by my house because it's always empty to i can freely regress without having to worry of something looking at/treating me weird

just saw someone on here with my irl brother's name and age, along with a few other details, but i don't actually think it's him. still, that was genuinely terrifying for a second there haha

ughhh i wish being rq was socially acceptable so i could get myself adopted as someone's domesticated pet and that would just be my life. no job applications or family reunions or anything. just being a little creature for someone who takes care of me and maybe sometimes hurts me a lil bit

my eyeballs hurt and i don't really know why. this is all i have for you today ig.sorry about that

the ONE DAY i really needed sleep, i couldn't. great. guess im going to this interview on fumes. how much starkids do to think i have to listen to to get the equivalent of 2-3 monsters?

well its 6 am and everyone is already mad at me. im having a great time. (the last sentence is a lie. im going to cry myself to forever sleep)

i kinda really dont want this job but i hope i get it because i really need to be employed rn. exotic vet bills are pricey

a few years ago i watched some random video essay on a controversial figure who just happened to be disabled, specifically in the same way i am. the person making the video was reacting to clips and saying stuff like "you literally dont even have an arm" like that had anything to do with the persons actions. the essayist kept saying it with this disguisted look on her face too, as if the person she was talking about should be ashamed of how they are. idk, it just made me feel gross. like, what happened to judging people based on their actions and not of things they can't control, like appearance??

accidentally stayed up all night again. i have got to stop doing that.

possibly going to the library. hopefully i can find something good. for some reason, the closest one to me mostly just has nonfiction, but they also have ohshc, so i do have some faith