i'm in my 3rd year of uni in the uk, studying for a theoretical physics mphys
i'm queer/sapphic, my pronouns are they/she, & i'm autistic
looking for more study blogs to follow! :) (especially physics & maths related)
i am so bad at being active on here but sometimes i return for a while!!!
current goals/tasks: survive the rest of third year without totally losing it.... study for my exams (4/5 done!), read that long review paper for my final year project next year (!!!), start thinking seriously about phd plans?!!
currently reading: fugitive telemetry - martha wells
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STUDY!
i did a summer research project at my uni, in quantum physics. it was so interesting and i absolutely loved it! so i think i want to continue with physics (probably quantum!) research in the future.
my third year project was on neutrino oscillations! it's a very cool area (and i'll probably keep checking up on it forever!!) but i don't think neutrino/particle physics is quite for me.
GOALS!
i want to look and apply for another summer project for 2026. success! i will be having a go at some quantum foundations this summer :D
i'm very sure now that i want to do a phd after my integrated masters. i need to research my options more seriously!
i want to continue working at a first, and score as high as i can in my exams (i should study more consistently.....
INTERESTS!
some favourite bands: mcr, paramore, fall out boy, hayley williams, american football, pierce the veil, the brobecks, pinkshift, black polish
favourite books: the locked tomb series!!!!!! plain bad heroines, project hail mary, other sci fi/horror/fantasy/etc books (please give me recs!!)
other favourites: doctor who, star wars, tma & chnt podcasts, les mis and maths & physics of course :)
i also love travelling (especially on trains!) and getting to know new places, as well as cooking/baking, cafes & coffee, going on walks, and learning lots of different instruments!
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Spent 3h in the library writing the first draft of my essay, taking notes for another essay, and typing out the first draft of a short story that l'd written in my notebook. Somehow managed to get through it all without any caffeine. Feeling incredibly grounded right now; haven't felt this good in weeks. Grateful that writing exists. Yesterday was a horrible day; I ended up dropping my didactics class. CulStud exam is on friday, feeling okay-ish prepared.
Knocked out one lab report and most of the data analysis part of another. Also took a walk at 11pm cause I’d been inside the whole day. I’m now attempting to use bumble bff to make friends and I’m looking up clubs on Facebook. I also have plans to audition for an orchestra.
it's violently raining right now, and i'm sitting wrapped in a blanket studying statistical physics (i have the window open so i can hear the rain noises.... it may be my fault i'm cold, but where did summer go???)
i cannot believe i'm nearly done with 3rd year!!! i'm pretty excited for it to be over, it's been the hardest year of uni by a lot, and i haven't had the best time. but lots of good things have happened too, my exams have been going well despite the lack of time i've had to study, and i'm looking forward to having a break, doing more summer research, and getting to my final year!
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it's violently raining right now, and i'm sitting wrapped in a blanket studying statistical physics (i have the window open so i can hear the rain noises.... it may be my fault i'm cold, but where did summer go???)
i cannot believe i'm nearly done with 3rd year!!! i'm pretty excited for it to be over, it's been the hardest year of uni by a lot, and i haven't had the best time. but lots of good things have happened too, my exams have been going well despite the lack of time i've had to study, and i'm looking forward to having a break, doing more summer research, and getting to my final year!
• I finished one thing on my to do list. Bass practice.
• The Functional Materials lab took ages, as usual, cause my group, for some reason, always makes so many mistakes. We’re comparing protein adsorption on plasma activated polymers vs. the regular stuff using uv vis spectroscopy. Our results looked a bit shitty but. That’s been a constant this semester.
• The cat has sat in my lap twice now. I also discovered I’m very likely allergic </3. I’ll restock my antihistamines tomorrow and hopefully they help.
• I think I dropped off my package wrong with DHL and I’m writing from the future to say I had a sort of nightmare about it and now I’m anxious. Boooooo. I think calling them would fix it but UGHHH.
🌳: 1hr 54mins
🎸: 1hr 10mins. I want to start following a stricter practice schedule but I’m worried that once it becomes too official I’ll start avoiding it T_T.
I feel like I'm in over my head at my internship but I need to remember its actually a summer school (but I'm getting paid) and that its okay not to know things. I'm also like the only physics PhD with 2 applied mathematics PhDs, 1 engineering PhD, and 3 computer science PhDs and my experience with simulation development is so much less than everyone else... and I know I'm there to be a physicist but then I feel incompetent at that 😭 my mentors are actually really nice and I know I'll figure it out but it doesn't make the anxiety go away. it mostly sucks because I get migraines from stress/anxiety and that makes everything harder 🙃 nevertheless we move forward, wishing everyone a good rest of the week!
affirmations: my brain is a quantum dot and allllllll the semiconductor knowledge is falling in and getting confined in there. i am intimately acquainted with the quantum confined stark effect. i am not scared of excitons they're scared of me.
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overpriced energy drink + research on TB antibiotics + 10 page chem paper to write. a long day ahead, but it's a fun way to wrap up my time in undergrad.
are you applying to grad school next year? If so, what theory subfield are you interested in?
yes, pretty much! i'm in the uk, so that will mean applying for phds, which i'll be doing around the end of this year!!!! i can't believe it's so soon and i've nearly done 3 years of uni already? :0
at this point, i've basically decided on doing some kind of quantum theory. i've had a go at some quantum metrology research already (and i'm going to do more for my master's project!!) and really enjoyed that. i'm also getting some quantum foundations research experience this summer! so i haven't really decided on a specific area of quantum theory yet, but i'll have to make up my mind fairly soon!
okay mathematical physics tomorrow i have to do so well for this one. it's my Thing i need to be one with the linear algebra for the rest of my (hopefully quantum filled) career and it allllll starts here. yay matrices!!!!!!!
aaaaaand update! linear algebra is my best friend & i may possibly have got 100% on that section <3 complex analysis on the other hand...... could've been better could've been worse. overall good!
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Academic update: I finally received an interview for a FAANG+ company at a point in my academic career where I feel that I could possibly pass, so it's time to get on with the coding prep again. I'm gonna start from the top of the Neetcode 150 list and document every single problem I do in a spreadsheet
Life update: I went out to dinner with my boyfriend then discovered I was sick when I got home, so I've done nothing but sleep and drink lots of fluids to recover
