The Neverland System

having scars on your body you can’t remember how you got them

gaping holes in memory

feeling distortion in your limbs, your body doesn’t feel yours

always feeling terrified of being called out for a mistake

worrying that you are A BOTHER to everyone at all times

guilt for wanting attention

depriving yourself of attention to cope with guilt and thinking it will “toughen you up”

guilt for receiving attention

feeling uncomfortable whenever things are about you

always feeling seconds from being targeted for someone’s anger

being overly accommodating and still feeling it’s not enough and you will PAY FOR NOT DOING MORE

feeling you’re going insane

trying to blame your own symptoms on yourself

trying to shame yourself just like everyone else has shamed you

feeling life would be better if only you weren’t the way you are

craving for something horribble to happen to you just so you could stop anticipating it

fantasies of abuse + obligatory guilt for having fantasies of abuse

self doubt over weather you actually deserved or wanted to be abused

trying to prove to yourself that you didn’t

not knowing how to prove that to anyone else

trying to soothe yourself by explaining your symptoms away and telling yourself your fears are not real

What DID is actually like:

Talk to trees or animals/Connect with nature and/or animals as if they were your friends🌿🐾

Use leaves to make "potions" and magical concoctions🍵

Make wishes with candles and/or above mentioned potions🕯

Pretend that your food or drink was a magic potion of power or whatever you had wished for, lol 🥘🧃

Pretend to be a witch, goddess, powerful being, forest/water nymph, mermaid, or some celestial/"mythical" being🧚‍♀️🧜🏻‍♀️🧞‍♂️🧝🏽‍♂️

Try to see if you could control the weather with your emotions ⛈

Try to move things with your mind or read other peoples 🧠

Talk to the sun, moons, stars, etc. ⭐🌙☀️

Write spells, chants, or incantations in your notebook or on paper (or napkins, lol) 📜

Notice things you have spent time thinking about seem to happen the way you thought it would or wished it would (maybe sometimes how you wished it wouldnt have turn out *unconsciously manifesting the negative*) 💭

Experience dream deja vu and/or dream messages 🛌

Believed in ghosts and spirits or had some sort of supernatural experience(s) 👻

Collected Rocks, seashells, twigs, etc🐚

Looked for or was more frequently drawn to supernatural/mystical/mythical based books 🔮

Had memories that you couldnt explain or were too young to have and/or had *visions that were true or came true 👁

There are plenty more examples, these are just a few that I could think of on the spot 🤓, please reblog or comment with your own 😬🦋🧿🔮🌙🍃