a whump sideblog for darker / 18+ content, mainly noncon. mostly reblogs but maybe some discussions and original content too.
quick deets
run by selkie / puffin. 26. any pronouns.
my main whump sideblog is @theguiltywriter
main / follows / interacts from @puffinproof
minors DNI. kink / smut blogs DNI.
this blog is low activity ! I have a dedicated whump sideblog, linked above - this sideblog is meant as a safe space for exploring and discussing darker topics, when it strikes my fancy.
I do not guarantee that all posts will be tagged with trigger warnings ! I do my best, but in general I advise discretion. in following this blog you should expect a certain type of content - mainly noncon - so if that isn't your cup of tea then I do not recommend following this blog.
I do not, personally, write or discuss explicitly NSFW / graphic sexual content. on the off-chance I reblog or engage with content of this nature, I assure it will ALWAYS be tagged.
this is a no shame space ! I am still unlearning shame around enjoying noncon and darker content. content policing, purity culture, censorship, and other discourse have no place here.
art in banner & profile pic by violetwitchhh, edited by me
things you can expect
noncon / sexual assault
dubcon, ft coercion and self-doubt
mention of childhood abuse & sexual assault
whumpees experiencing mind fuckery in which they interpret abuse as love, or convince themselves they deserve or want to be taken advantage of / abused
fawning response to abuse / noncon
unhealthy / toxic dynamics, as well as unhealthy understanding of sex and love
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trying my hand at unwholesome oc week ! hatefucking is such a good prompt for norsei so... ♡ lets go ! trying to get back into writing - its a bit rough but I did my best uwu;
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content warning - noncon
"you know... I never thought I would get you like this." these are the words kaey rouses to, light and wistful, almost playful. his body aches, his mind feels foggy. the assassin couldn't quite recall what had gotten him into this position, what had happened before he had fallen unconscious. even as his body protests, he forces himself up - the efforts sets his head spinning, and blinking away stars he finally sees who is in the room with him.
lavender eyes, golden hair, a devious smirk.
"norsei ?" he asks, confused. but then, he becomes aware of the room he is in, the disarray of the bed, the fact he is no longer clothed in what he remembers wearing before. and that ache, radiating from his pelvis, spreading up his hips into his chest and down his thighs... he curls into himself slightly, protectively, and glares at the other man. "what did you do to me ?"
he knows exactly what he had done, of course. because norsei had never been overly subtle about how he felt about the assassin, about his relationship - if you could call it that - with aurhyd. the fact the lord had complete control over kaey, and thus constant access to him. the difference between norsei and aurhyd, however, was that there currently was no duress, no coercion, forcing his mind into cooperating. the elf had no control over him... and they both know kaey wasn't intent on making whatever his plans were easy for him.
yet, this makes the unconscious assault that much more... violating to kaey. aurhyd had never, no one else had ever; no, they preferred to know the control they wielded over him, his inability to say no.
he feels sick, and not just because his head is pounding.
the elf rises from where he had been lounging and slowly crosses the room. kaey pushes himself to the edge of the bed - he has to leave, he has to get away. but his body refuses to cooperate, and he falters, feet on the floor. norsei takes his time, but arrives to push the assassin back down, one hand on his shoulder, the other slipping down, beneath kaey's shirt.
he looks up, meeting the other mans gaze. hes now so close, leaning in, breath hot the assassin's neck. then, his eyes drift down. kaey shrugs the hand off his shoulder, but the one under his shirt continues to rove upwards.
"I thought you'd be more muscular, you look more muscular." norsei sighs, then clicks his tongue. "maybe its just that aurhyd always dresses you so well."
kaey doesn't want to humor him, doesn't want to talk to him. but he doesn't have the energy to push himself up, to push the other man away. the hand glides up, stopping to assess the curve of his ribs, the odd scar. he realizes norsei isn't searching his skin so much as mapping out his body. his stomach churns.
the elf tilts his head, as if listening to something, then puts a knee up on the bed, leaning in even closer against kaey. he tries to lean away, but he has nowhere to go. "I bet you have... a lot of experience." kaey doesn't see his face but he can hear the smile in his voice. the second hand joins the first, and this time when he tries to lean back norsei takes the opportunity to push forward and straddle him.
"I've wanted to fuck you ever since I first saw you, now here... we are." his voice has grown low, raspy, and kaey feels something hard against his stomach as he leans in, face by his ear. the hands on his chest are moving more quickly now, more intently. "I didn't want to before, but... I knew you wouldn't cooperate. you have no reason to. still, it would be nice if we could--"
"no." kaey responds harshly, finally finding the energy to try and push the elf back. norsei makes a nose of disdain, then quickly grabs his wrist, wrenching it down. their eyes meet for a moment, and the assassin sees no gentleness in his gaze, despite his romantic tone.
before he can say anything, before he can move again, there is a hand around his throat, and he is pushed back into the bed, norsei on top of him. he struggles, but the grip on his throat tightens until he is too tired to keep fighting. the elf tsks approvingly, stroking his face.
"see ? its not that bad. you know how this goes - you know its easier if you don't fight it. so why are you fighting me ?" kaey scowls at this, but the other man remains expressionless as he looks down at him. "this could be so nice for you, different, and yet you want to make things difficult for us both." the hands returns to his chest, riding up his shirt, then drifting down lower, into his pants. the assassin squirms against the touch, but the elf on top of him just shushes him soothingly.
sliding back in his straddle to give himself better access, he slips one finger, then another inside kaey. all the while staring; the assassin closes his eyes, because he can't stand to meet his gaze any longer. norsei pumps his fingers rhythmically, leaning in closer. "see, doesn't that feel nice ? this doesn't have to be bad for you, kaey. all you have to do is submit to me... and I'll take care of you."
it sickens him, the way he talks as if this was something he should want. had ever wanted. offering it like a reward, like a mercy.
"I will never submit to you." he says, finally opening his eyes. he can't read the expression on norsei's face, but he sees anger alight behind his eyes. "and I don't need you to take care of me."
"fine." norsei says curtly after a long silence, withdrawing his hand. "have it your way." and before kaey can move, there is a hand around his throat again, forcing him down. the elf's hand burns coldly against his skin, sending a shockwave of pins and needles across his skin. the heaviness he had woken with slowly creeps back into his limbs; what he had thought had been drugs turned out to be magic. "I may not have control over you, but I can control you, kaey."
he can't fight the hands on him, can't find the energy to struggle, so he just lays below norsei, eyes closed, as the man pulls down his pants. tries not to think about the way the elf roughly handles his body, forcing his legs apart. he feels pressure, and then penetration, and then norsei's hot breath on his neck, his hand curling into a fist in his hair.
the man's movements become rapid, desperate - he does not take his time, going as quickly and roughly as he can. if norsei had any intent on providing kaey pleasure in this activity before, it was gone now.
eventually he slows, but does not stop, breath still hot on kaey's neck and cheek. "does aurhyd fuck you like this ?" he asks. then, with his next question, the assassin's heart drops into his stomach. "does tiane ?"
tiane. tiane had brought him to see norsei, to get help, and now... now he was here, where was tiane ? had... tiane known ? he shudders beneath norsei, and the elf laughs, picking up his pace and finishing inside. but he doesn't leave, doesn't remove himself, instead moving his hand back down to kaeys groin.
this isn't new - aurhyd was always rather "considerate" when it came to ensuring both he and kaey got pleasure out of their sex. but this somehow felt dirtier, worse. kaey groans against the stimulation, and he feels hot breath on his neck again, just below his ear.
kaey can't help it, his back arches against the ministrations, and he feels the elf smile against him. "there is still so much I want to do to you. maybe you'll be convinced to let me have my way - then I can focus on making this actually pleasurable for us both."
a hand, around his throat again, and the cold fog creeping in. "I love knowing that you hate this." norsei whispers into his ear. it sends a shiver down kaeys spine as he fades from conscious, but hes right - he does hate it.
fuck it, I've liked thinking about kaey being drunk / exhausted / drugged and struggling. I don't need an excuse to put him in a scenario in which he is in a bad state and is hallucinating shit, and aurhyd or norsei taking advantage of that. because who doesn't love it when whumpee hallucinates their loved one ? especially when they're being assaulted or tortured ! ♡
after aurhyd, or even norsei, finds out about kaeys relationship with tiane. assaulting him and telling him he just needs to think about tiane, asking if he wishes it was tiane instead, etc knowing kaey would hate it. aaaaa
in general love a whumper who taunts whumpee with their relationship and makes them associate their torture / assault with their relationship ♡
tiane comforting him later and all he can think about is aurhyds hands on him
“Those moves." Caretaker said, wiping sweat from their forehead, "They’re not ones that you learn how to fight traditionally. They’re ones you learn fighting to survive.”
Whumpee blinked.
“So who taught you how to fight?”
Hah. Whumpee let out a faint snort, then huffed and stood up, taking their weapon.
"You don't want to know." Whumpee felt Caretaker's gaze follow them as they walked out, an image of Whumper plastered in their mind.
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"When I'm finished..." Whumper breathlessly murmured in a coy tone against Whumpee's trembling lips, "You'll barely be able to stand me not being inside you."
"It's crazy how when you have a moment of downtime where you're not focused on anything but your body, something always aches. Like, isn't that weird?"
"Whumpee... I don't think that's the normal experience."
i hear your “whumper convinces whumpee that they need to have sex to heal from sexual abuse” and i raise you “whumper convinces whumpee that any sexual feelings they have are the result of their trauma and should be repressed” and sprinkle in a dash of “whumper argues that whumpee needs to be extremely vigilant of their thoughts and actions since being sexually abused means they are statistically more likely to abuse others, and whumpee becomes paranoid that even normal expressions of their sexuality (like flirting or masturbating) are harmful and abusive”
i will call your raise, because i like them both equally, and i'm very proud of this post, but god this is good. and the following scenario played out in my minds eye:
whumpee and a friend have been having sex. whumpee was raped - maybe a long time ago, maybe repeatedly, maybe recently. now, with this trauma, with this pain, this sexual relationship with their friend has become really important to them. and it's not been perfect, but their friend knows what happened to them. they work through issues together. when things go wrong, they handle it. it's good. it's safe.
one day, whumpee is talking to whumper - another person they're close to - and the subject of this sexual aspect of that friendship comes up. whumpee is smiling softly, a little embarrassed and anxious but happy and wanting to share about something good in their life since they were raped.
whumper is... quiet. whumpee looks over and the look on whumper's face strikes shame into their gut so deep they feel like they've been shot. they've said something wrong, they know it. they've- they've done something wrong.
"oh... is, uh. is that really a good idea?" whumper's voice is ginger and awkward. they're wincing.
and whumper just won't let it go. they bring it up over and over again, asking questions, interrogating whumpee about their sex life. are they having sex with anyone else? how did this start with friend? who started it? why is whumpee having sex? do they really think this is a good idea? does friend even... really want to be having sex with them? it's just- whumpee with your... trauma, are you sure you can even really tell whether friend wants this or not, or if this is hurting them? are you sure? but are you sure? whumper is only concerned. they just need whumpee to be aware this isn't normal. this is fucked up. this is dangerous. (every time they say the word sex there's some kind of horrible undertone to it. like it's a curse word. like it's dirty. like whumpee is dirty.)
friend has no idea what's wrong. all they know is that whumpee's started getting distant, pulling away, avoiding them. they're worried - and a little hurt. if whumpee didn't want to have sex anymore that's fine, but a little communication would be nice, and it's not just the sex. it's everything. whumpee isn't answering their texts, isn't meeting their eyes. something's wrong, and friend has no idea what's happened.
i have been quite fond lately of the classic mental image of Caretaker finding Whumpee, emaciated and beaten, huddled behind a dumpster or in some nook or cranny, just desperately trying to hide from the elements and from anyone who might find them. anyway,
whump scenario: a sexual assault taking place in the backseat of a car - while someone else is driving. they’re trapped back there with someone who’s getting more and more handsy by the moment until they’re actively being groped, grabbed and touched, escalating slowly at first and then so much faster. there are hands pushing under their clothes, a mouth on their neck, and the whole time the person in the driver’s seat just keeps driving. maybe that person is an employee, maybe a lackey, maybe a friend or accomplice. but the whole time, it’s like this horrific violation just feet away from them isn’t happening at all. even when the begging starts - please, please stop, please don’t do that, please don’t touch me, stop touching me, please stop, please help me, they’re hurting me, please help - there’s no reaction. the driver’s eyes stay on the road.
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whumper who forces whumpee to thank them every time they're sexually assaulted. who clicks their tongue and says no, no, i didn't believe you. try harder. i need to hear your gratitude. again.
Whumper and Whumpee who are on the same team. Whumper will provoke whumpee until they snap and then go cry to the rest of the team so that Whumpee develops a reputation for having a temper and being emotionally volatile. Now everytime they express something they’re dismissed.
So when Whumper starts causing real damage; starts crossing lines and escalating past verbal altercations, starts showing up at Whumpees house after fights so they can ‘finish things properly’. Until they start threatening Whumpees position on the team, saying that if they tell anyone about the little predicament Whumpee is in, they’ll tell everyone that Whumpee is the one threatening Whumper.
What’s worse? They recorded a video of Whumpee snapping after a particularly bad fight, snowing Whumpee cursing, threatening, and snapping at Whumper. Of course, the earlier footage, of Whumper beating the daylights out of Whumpee is all conveniently edited out.
"Abuse is when a man seeks to break someone for his own pleasure," Whumper said. "Correction is when a man seeks to build someone up by teaching them where they stand. You're lashing out because you're being held to a standard, and you're too soft to meet it."
His hand on the nape of Whumpee's neck tightened not enough to hurt, but enough to command absolute attention. He leaned down, his face inches from Whumpee's, his eyes boring into theirs with a terrifying intensity.
"Don't you ever use that word again to cover up your own lack of discipline. It's an insult to people who have actually suffered."
Press that "oxygen" mask onto their face. Watch them struggle to get it off, claw at your arms as you press it further onto their face, their desperation mounting until it slowly starts to peeter out and they fall limp in your arms.
Tie their arms behind their back, watch them whip their head around trying to dislodge it, their shouts of anger slowly turning into cries of desperation as the mask holds firm on their face. Watch as they try to hold their breath, a losing battle you know youve won as soon as you see the condensation of their breath against the clear plastic, the heaving breath ineard that marks your victory. If you watch closely, you can see the exact moment the sparks of angry desperation in their eyes turn into flames of hopelessness.
Strap them down to the operating table. Their eyes follow you suspiciously as you walk into the room with a suspicious tank of something with that damn oxygen mask attached. Do they even struggle as you line up the mask on their face? Or can you already hear the hissing of the gas leaving the tank as they squeeze their wet eyes shut, barely holding back a small crying squeak that you're sure you can hear as you watch that their body go limp and that single tear fall into their hair.
Whumper telling whumpee to choose a number: not elaborating what it's for. Does it mean nothing? Or is it how many lashes they will get, how many hours without food, how many bones whumper will break? Could it be minutes of rest, number of meals for the week, hours whumpee will be locked in sensory deprivation? Who knows! Certificate not our panicking whumpee
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a whumpee that's still shaking off some stubborn conditioning hearing a trigger sound- maybe a name whumper used to call them, maybe something as innocuous as heavy footsteps or papers flying off a desk- and immediately mindlessly offering themself to caretaker. the horror as caretaker realizes that the torture whumpee endured was sexual. the pain of seeing their friend so out of it, dissociated, mute, opening their mouth and spreading their legs, waiting to be abused. caretaker knowing that whumpee didn't want them to know that part.
but whumpee is shaking. terrified. sex is something to dread, to whumpee. sex is something they need to dissociate during if whumpee has to get through it. and that just... breaks caretaker's heart. so what if caretaker helps whumpee associate sex with someone better? kinder? caretaker could make it pleasurable for whumpee. caretaker could make sure whumpee forgets the pain of whumper.
so caretaker grounds whumpee in the present by taking up the offer. and whumpee snaps out of flashbacks to realize that their friend, their caretaker- whumper 2- is suddenly inside of them.