crab central

i’m going to be really honest with you guys i think the tendency to read the absolute worst possible intentions into every action you don’t agree with is getting too automatic and it’s eating you from the inside out

after a couple hours chopping dried sea urchins into tiny pieces with a razor blade you start referring to the razor blade as yourself in your thoughts. a little while afterwards you'll inevitably think something along the lines of "i'm getting a bit dull, i'm going to have to throw myself out & get myself a new self" at which point your internal monologue has pretty much returned to baseline

This happens with mobility aids too. I bump into shit with my forearm crutches and say "ow" before I realize those are not, in fact, More Legs. Then when I get up and try to walk without them for a second there's a moment of feeling like a dog walking upright

There is a term for this! Our brains, quite literally, integrate the tools we use into our sense of self and body! It's called Homuncular Flexibility, and there is a truly delightful paper covering it. vhil.stanford.edu/sites/g/files/sbiybj29011/files/media/file/won-etsbs-homuncular-flexibility.pdf

I miss when anime girls were human shaped and sounded like adult women with real skin colors and not pale, puglike creatures