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Bedbug feeding schedule:3

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Uh yeah

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"bedbugs are bad!" "You shouldn't want bedbugs!"

Okay but they're helping me? And they don't don't even do anything other than give you like little welts that itch a little and maaaybe a rash but I haven't had it

Like I used to be scared shitless by most bugs but because of them I've grown VERY comfortable with bugs and even just sit to watch them sometimes

Honestly exposure therapy works amazing (for me) and trying to keep me from getting help for stuff even if that means having bedbugs is WAY worse than being okay with bedbugs. Just because you don't like it, doesn't always mean it shouldn't exist/happen

I forgot that when you have a loft bed and bedbugs that sometime they'll just drop down

And it's super funny because we're both scared shitless

I was doing Kandi this morning and suddenly a bedbug fell onto my desk and it was so confused. I was a little scared because I'm still scared of them for the most part but still

So it's hard to see because it's just a lil baby but I was able to take a picture of a bedbug :33

I can't easily take pictures because they only come out at night and sometimes if they fall down from the bed or something but that's it

Also if anyone thinks I should name the bedbug in the picture let me know

I haven't made a post about bedbugs lately but I thought I'd make a list of things to expect if any other beings decide to have bedbugs

Please note this is mostly from my experience, it could very well be different for each being

I got up and went to the washroom and as I was washing my hands, I saw myself and felt a shit ton of dysphoria for the first time in forever

I just stood there staring and crying before I went back to bed (still crying) and now I'm just making this post.

Some beings yelled threats at me today :<

I was walking home from GSA and I'm not sure what they said exactly (not that I want to) but my paranoia made me think they were following me (they weren't, don't worry)

So this is kinda obvious probably but I'm pretty sure the older a bedbug is the bigger its bite is :3

Like this is just from what I've seen but think younger ones give tiny little bites that are super adorable

It might also be different for genders too but idk

Also again this is just what I've seen so take it with a grain of salt

Here is the bedbug feeding schedule thingy :333

This is just to show when they have fed on me :33

Sunday, may 17th

So I got a bite on my hand and a BUNCH on my arms last night :333 but I couldn't get a picture of the ones on my arm

I also got one far down my back but I didn't feel too comfortable taking a picture of that one

The bedbugs might be feeding tonight :3333

I'll show you all some of the bites tomorrow (unless they're in places I don't feel comfortable showing)

Also I think they've started giving me a rash thing :333 don't remember what it's called but it's not harmful dw and it's small but still

So I'm not entirely sure but I think the next time the bedbugs are going to feed on me is one to three nights

I'm gonna start documenting when they feed :3333

Alright I don't care

I made a poll for this because I was really nervous but nobody saw it

So I realized my bed has bedbugs and recently I realized I love letting them use my body to feed on :333

And they don't cause any illnesses (from what I've read) and don't do anything super bad to you

Uh anyway I know a lot of beings might find this weird but I don't care

Also if you have like parasites you let use you or something else I'd love to know :333 or if you want to let me know what you think of this go ahead (unless it's negative)