The Doll's Documentations

A while back I decided to stop writing and switch to vlogging but my vlogging has turned into a special occasion thing where I make cool videos when I do cool stuff. Now I am re-opening the blog to write about my regular acting/modeling work and whatnot. I’m still using this blog as a place to drop my creative writings as well and I have them sorted out on my website. I feel like I’m finally getting really organized this year. Check out my website! Thatkellydoll.com 

Here’s a recap of what I did modeling/acting wise in 2018 in LA in a very vague fashion since I’m not allowed to talk about stuff in detail until after its released:

Steady Ecom modeling roughly 1-3 times weekly 

A couple commercials 

A couple student films

A gameshow pilot

A gameshow

Signed with a commercial agent

Several outdoor photoshoots

Time Stands Still directed by Joel Zwick 

“Wake Up” premiered in FL.

Some personal events that happened in 2018 include 

breaking up with boyfriend at the time

got a new boyfriend

traveled to the Redwoods

saw snow

went to the Keys 

moved to a big beautiful house in Long Beach 

quit smoking

went back to FL a couple times

rode a motorcycle (just on the back lol)

took yoga, Lindy hop, and pole dancing classes.

This year I’m committed to 

making my own reel that I’m proud of & confident to submit to theatrical agents

signing with a theatrical agent

acting in a pilot & a new streaming series

writing a dark comedy

designing and launching “The Green Room” app

going to Hawaii with my mom 

exploring 5 new places

visiting FL again to see my mom, my brother, and friends

visiting my dad in TN

going on a cruise

vacation to Catalina Island 

paying off all my debt

starting a dinner theatre company

making friends in Long Beach 

make at least $100,000

save/invest at least $50,000

create passive income

travel for work.

So far in the first couple weeks of the year I’ve done some modeling, submitted some auditions, written some scenes/monologues I’d like to record for my reel, gotten organized in the new house and decided that I'm extraordinarily happy with where I am in life. 

[Gets in car.]

Beat.

[Cries.] [Screams.] [Relaxes.]

(Under breath) Okay mom you win. [Awkward laugh.] Hey God. Youuu. Look I know I haven’t talked to you much lately, or ever. And i hate to be THAT person that only calls on you when i need a favor but i really really need a favor & i don’t know what else to do. I just don’t know anymore. We’ve tried everything. My mom used to always say you can’t be mad at God and not believe in Him so I guess I really do believe in you so that counts for something right. I guess i feel a little ridiculous talking to you right now because you already know everythin So you know what’s happening. My sister is dying. My little sister. And you already took my mom so selfishly I think i deserve to keep my sister. Please. My mom died way too young but Leah, She’s barely even lived life yet. I mean she’s still virgin! Sorry I know that’s not what’s really important but still. She’s applying for Harvard. And she knows even if she’s accepted she might not make it. And that’s just not fair. She’s worked too hard. She’s a good girl ya know. She hasn’t been goofing off in high school like i did. She didn’t party or drink or even go to homecoming. Please let her make it to prom at least. I’ll do anything. I’ll pray everyday. I’ll go to church! Whew. I really don’t want to do that but I’ll do it if you keep her alive please. You can take me instead. I know she’s all pure and I’m pretty much a dirt bag but you can have me. I’ve lived plenty already. The doctors say she has about 6 months. 6 measley fucking months. I’m sorry. I know i shouldn’t cuss. Especially to you. Look, I know i don’t have any right to cash in a favor here, but Leah deserves to live out her life. So if you could do that for her, I’d really appreciate okay? That’s all.

Beat.

[clears throat] amen.

(on the phone)

Omg Meghannnn pleaseeee you have no idea what I’ve been through this morning! Tonight is supposed to be THE night with John-he has a whole romantic date planned out and i just know it’s gonna happen. So I’m trying to make sure everything’s perfect and this morning has been like acomplete disaster. I’m talking Justin and Britney matching denim outfits bad. The nail salon didn’t have my appointment somehow and two of my nails are chipped. 2! And now they’re still chipped! I’m asking for a favor from my best friend i don’t know why this has to be so hard. I’m always there you!! Remember When your mom died and you were all sad and grumpy at my birthday slumber party-i didn’t even get mad at you. Because i understand. Life happens. And life is happening to me right now. I didn’t even have time to go find another nail salon this morning because i had to go pick up my dress & guess what?? They weren’t even done with the adjustments yet! & now I’m stuck at fat girl Claires house waiting on you so we can work on this stupid science project.

Of course not, she’s in the other room. Duh, I’m not rude.

Listen her mom already made me hold her baby sister once and you know how i feel about babies.

That’s right. They’re cute from afar.  See?? You understand..

And you know the only thing that’s gonna partially help fix this morning is a venti triple mocha frappuccino from Starbucks & you’re already there so just fucking loop through the drive trough again. Pleaseee.

Yay! K bye! 

Oh & please hurry because if i have to hold fat baby Ashley one more time my arms are going to fall off.

There are groups of humans that do not get acknowledged for the hurdles they’ve overcame and the accomplishments they’ve truly achieved. Over the years we have seen many groups discredited and simply overlooked. My name is Missy FeMalae and I’m out in the field today bringing light to one of the most powerful groups of humans that our species has been fortunate enough to be blessed with-that is, women. Women have hiked the tallest and widest mountain ranges that society could muster up and we’re in the process of taking over the world. There are so many great triumphs that women have attained-suffrage, the right to drive a vehicle, having short hair without a care, baring our ankles in public, having a career-while still cooking and cleaning and taking care of the kids. We, women, may or may not all be happy with all of our endeavors, but one thing I think we can all agree on and share in a beautiful sense of simpatico sisterhood is hair art. Hair art is the secretive-yet not-so-secretive art that we create, in “our birthday suits,” if you will. In a place of such vulnerability and tranquility, the shower is where this art form launches into its mastery. For those of you who have not been fortunate enough to witness such majestry, we’re here, at the birthplace, to give you an inside look. (Tears open shower curtain, and enters shower) During the hair washing process, typically during the shampooing, however also common during the conditioning, long strands of hair decide to “abandon ship” if you will. Rather than casting aside these traces of superior gender, women, myself included, tap into our inner artistic goddesses and unleash the power of hair art, the shower wall, a suitable, appropriate, and convenient canvas. Some women that possess the precise hair thickness and texture as well as the top-notch skill of hair art, continue their masterpieces for several days, weeks even. Some say these particular women are to have descended from God herself. Regardless, if executed properly, the finished product will look like a giant spider from the corner of your eye.

Oh it sounds like they’re asking me something from the station-one second.

Go ahead, Jim, I’m listening.

He’s asking why this is exclusive to women! And what about women with short hair?

(Chuckle) Well, Jim, and viewers, I think what we have here is a little misunderstanding. It is not an art form that is exclusive to women anymore, however its origins do reside with the superior gender. At which point men that coincidentally possessed shedding hair became privy to, and tried recreating from there. Always paving the path for men, are we not ladies? & Earlier when I said all women, what I was implying was women that have or have had long shedding hair. At some point. In their lives.

A 20-something girl, Katie, laying on the floor, of her bathroom with one hand still gripping the toilet, eyes half-closed. Breathing heavy-has been sobbing/throwing up. A plastic cup and jug of water are nearby. Her phone rings but it’s just out of reach. Eyes open, no effort is made to grab phone. Takes a sip of water, spits it in toilet. Phone rings again.

Katie: (covering ears) make it stop, please. (flops back to floor)

Voicemail dings.

Katie: Leave me alone.

She struggles enough to reach phone & tilt it in her direction. She squints & sees it her best friend Claire that’s been calling. She hits speaker on the voicemail message and listens.

Claire’s message: HI!!!!

Katie: Uhhh!! (lowers volume a little)

Claire: MY BEAUTIFUL KATIE!!! HOW ARE YOU?? OH MY GOD I MISS YOU SO MUCH!! Listen though, I have to talk to you…it’s about Levi.. so call me back. OKAY LOVE YOUUUUU!!!

Katie: Fuck. Bitch. (struggles to hit call back button, leaves phone on speaker, drinks some water)

Claire: Katie!!!!

Katie: Hi Claire!

Claire: You okay? What’s up?

Katie: I’m fine! How are you?

Claire: I’m fantastic. What’s wrong with you though? Are laying down right now?

Katie: No. (struggles to sit up) I’m just waking up though. I probably sound a little groggy. I took a nap.

Claire: Have you gotten out of bed in the last 48 hours?

Katie: Yes Katie! I’m fine! Okay? What’s up with Levi?

Claire: Oh nothing-I just needed something to get you to call me back. I had a feeling you were just staring at the phone not answering.

Katie: You’re psychic. Listen, I love you. But fuck you. I hope you’re doing well. We’ll catch up soon. But I’m getting off the phone now.

Claire: Holy shit you sound like shit.

Katie: BYE CLAIRE

Claire: No, wait!! Please! I know you’re not running off to do anything right now-just lemme vent for a second. I need to vent to someone.

Katie: Fine. (rests head on toilet)

Claire: Thank you… I’m really sad and I feel completely hopeless sometimes Kate.

Katie: What the fuck are you talking about?

Claire: I’m talking about you bitch! Now that you’re on the other side of the country I don’t know what to do when you get like this! Are you on your meds?

Katie: Sure. I’m on meds.

Claire: YOUR MEDS Katie. Please tell me you haven’t been doing meth again.

Katie: Oh my god Claire that was like one time. No meth. No heroine. Promise.

Claire: Can you please make an appointment to get a doctor out there and refill your prescription?

Katie: What is the point Claire? I’m never gonna be anything anyway. I can’t help my mom, no one gives a shit out here anyway. I don’t give a shit. I don’t even know what I’m doing. We’re all doomed to a dreadful human downfall. Who gives a shit?

Claire: You’re not even making sense.

Katie: Goodbye Claire!

Claire: Bitch you better not hang up that phone.

Katie: Oh my God. Seriously Claire, you’re lucky I love you but I really don’t want to talk right now. I don’t feel good.

Claire: Ya ya whatever. You probably only have stomach acid left to throw up anyway.

Katie retches.

Claire: Sorry. Okay look, you gotta get on your meds.

Katie: Why? So that I’m actually clear and present to how shitty and pointless my life is. At least when I’m abusing other drugs I don’t have to witness it.

Claire: You know it’ll make you feel better.

Katie: Okay then what Claire? So then I can continue to be a complete fucking failure, do absolutely nothing with my life, and never meet my family’s expectations? “You can do better, Katie. I’m so disappointed Katie. Why aren’t you doing more Katie?” I’m always gonna be a failure-might as well just-uhh

Claire: Kate? You okay?

Katie: Ya, I’m good.

Claire: Okay good. Now shut the fuck up. Fuck your family. And fuck your self-pitying self. Lots of other people care about you too and want to see you happy.

Katie: Ya I know you care. I get it. Thanks Claire.

Calire: Okay then quit being so selfish and giving up on life.

Katie: Claire, all my friend is 2,000 miles away. I have nobody here. I am nobody. I’m just trying to disappear. Please let me.

Claire: NO. Fuck you. Okay, so you need to make some friends out there. That would help. Start there.

Katie: I have friends.

Claire: I mean real friends, like me, you dick. You just said you have no friends.

Katie: Red is my friend. And so is Tasha.

Claire: Who the fuck is that-your drug dealers?

Katie: Red is my drug dealer. I just made up Tasha.

Claire: Oh my god Katie! You need to join November Project!

Katie: What kinda cult is that?

Claire: Only the best. It’s that workout group I do! When’s the last time you worked out?

Katie: Last time we worked out in high school 7 years ago. Wow. I’m pathetic.

Claire: No. Stop that. You never got THIS depressed when we were rowing. I’m going to look it up for you. Just show up. Get some endorphins going.. meet some people. It’ll be good.

Katie: If I say I’ll go, will you shut the fuck up?

Claire: Nope. You actually have to go. That or you have to three-way a doctors office right now with me on the line. Those are your options.

Katie: I hate you so much.

Claire: I love you too babe. Whatcha picking?

Katie: Workout thing.

Claire: Okay great! I’m still gonna hound you about getting back on your meds, but that’s for a later date. Okay I’m gonna look it up for you. I love you so much! Get some rest! I’ll text you!

Katie: Love you.

Claire: Byeeee! Oh I’m so excited! Yay! Bye!

Call ends.

Katie drinks some water. Reaches up to the back of the bathroom door and pulls down a bathrobe. Balls it up and uses it as a pillow. Just as her eyes shut her phone dings with texts. Tilting & squinting eyes to read it, it’s a screenshot of November Project West LA Instagram.

She sees that it says “Wednesdays 630 am” and scoffs. Falls asleep.

Two days later. Katie awkwardly walks up to Drake stadium. Headphones in. Hoodie up. Hat on. Sunglasses on. It’s overcast. Sees everyone gathering at bottom of stairs. Sets her phone, headphones, keys, glasses, hoodie, and water down next to everyone else’s stuff. Tara walks up to her.

Tara: Hi! Welcome to November Project! Is today your first day?

Katie: Ya, my friend from Boston told me about it.

Tara: Oh that’s great! Thanks for coming out! What’s your name?

Katie: Katie! 

Tara: Awesome Katie! I’m Tara! So glad you’re here!

Tara turns around.

Tara: (yelling) Alright everybody gather round! Get in close!!

Katie actually indulges in a small smile for the first time in a long time.

(HYPE UP/GOOD MORNING SEQUENCE)

(STIARS/WORKOUT MONTAGE)

Katie is exhausted. Making her way to the top of the stairs she flops to the ground to do sit ups. Struggling through her 12th when Maggie hobbles her way over on crutches.

Maggie: Hey, what’s your name? First day?

Katie: Ya. Katie.

Maggie: Fuck ya Katie! I’m Maggie! You’re killing it!

Katie: (laughs) thanks

Maggie hobbles over to someone else.

Maggie: You think you can come up a little higher on that next one Alex?

(WORK OUT MONTAGE)

People start flying by Katie as she walks up the stairs. She watches them and laughs. Getting to the top of the stairs she feels that familiar feeling of backward digestion so she slowly makes her way down to do her sit ups. She does about 5 when she lays flat on the concrete. Dizzy. Looking around. Feeling like a failure. She shuts her eyes to avoid crying in public. Maggie hobbles over.

Maggie: Hey

Katie: Hey! (fake smiles)

Maggie: How’s it going?

Katie: Great! Dying a little-but in a good way!

Maggie: (laughs) You can-

Katie: I know-you’re gonna say that I can do more.

Maggie: No- I was gonna say you can do anything. You’re doing great Katie! (Hobbles away, yelling) ALRIGHT AMANDA-LOOK AT HOW STRONG YOU ARE!

(GET KNOCKED DOWN BURPEE MONTAGE-including Maggie participating with her broken foot/boot)

(WRAP UP SEQUENCE ON BLEACHERS)

Walking away back to her car Katie takes out her phone and sends a text to Claire that reads: “Thank you. I love you.” She smiles & her eyes start to water. She puts her sunglasses on. Makes a phone call.

Donny: Aint it purty up here?

Dad: Uh huh

Marie: It would be prettier if we were actually set up. The sun is almost down and we need to set up camp & eat some food- I haven’t eaten all day-have you guys eaten? Because I sure as hell haven’t.

Donny: Okay, damn. Quitcha bitchin.

They take off their packs and Marie walks upstage right starting to unload her pack.

(Back to audience) Marie: Okay, tent here. Fire here. What do you guys think?

Dad and Donny haven’t moved from their positions looking over the mountainside.

Dad now has dip in his mouth. He looks at Marie, looks back at the view, and spits.

Marie: Dad?

Dad: Whatever, Marie.

Marie: Donny?

Donny does not acknowledge her existence. He is sharpening the end of a long stick on a rock.

Marie: Oh so now you’re just ignoring me? Just bring your bad over here. We need to get the tent together. You too, Dad.

Donny: (grumbles) Not gonna wanna hear it anyway.

Marie: (lights cigarette) What?

Donny: (Bringing over his & dad’s bag) I said YOU’RE NOT GONNA WANNA HEAR IT ANYWAY.

Marie: WELL I CAN’T HEAR ITIF YOU’RE MUMBLING. What the hell are you even talking about? Help me. (turns upstage to work on tent)

Donny: (turns upstage) This set up just aint right.

Moment of silence while Marie and Donny look upstage at their possible camp site. Donny takes Marie’s cigarette and hits it.

Donny: (turns back downstage) Here. And here.

Marie: What the fuck is the difference? I just about laid out half the shit there and so now that you wanna come over and help you’re saying we should post up ten feet south? (Dad laughs) Look-I’m hangry. I need to eat something now because it’s gonna take a minute to get the tent set up and I’m starving. Give me something. Please.

Donny walks back over to his stick project.

Marie: (watches him for a minute working on the stick) What the fuck? (crosses back to his pack and starts rummaging through it) Where is the food?

Donny looks back, points at stick, then continues working.

Marie: (crosses over to him, pulls on his arm to make him face her) What are you doing? You won’t help me set up the tent-you won’t give me any food! You said you packed food! Where is it?

Donny: No.

Marie: Fuck you! No?! What does that mean?

Donny: It means don’t fucking touch me and quit being a little crybaby bitch. I said I got the food covered. I never said I packed it. (Holds up stick)

Marie: Oh my god.

Donny: Ya, go ahead and cry about it. I’ll be back in 10 minutes with enough food for everyone on this damn trail! MEANWHILE you’re just standing here cying like a fucking little pussy.

Marie: Giggin? You’re gonna go giggin? We should’ve gone giggin HOURS AGO.

Donny: No one was hungry.

Marie: Now it’s late. I’m STARVING. We have to get the tent set up and a fire going and I’m covered in mosquito bites and clouds are rolling in! Fine. Fuck you. Me and Dad will get the tent up. (storms back to her chosen campsite) Right, Dad?

Dad: Not right now. I’m busy. Resting. (Sits on stump/rock)

Marie: You’re JUST LIKE him.

Dad: Except smarter and better looking. (laughs at himself then spits)

Marie: (almost screaming) I just want to go home! I don’t know why I thought this would be a good idea anyway! Now I have to do everything myself. Per fucking usual. (Starts angrily putting tent together) Thanks Dad! Thanks Donny! I really appreciate all your help! Just stand there and call me names while I do everything.

She looks over. Donny is gone. Dad is falling asleep.

Marie: Ah! This stupid fucking piece of shit is broken anyway. Probably missing pieces. (Slices hand and gasps) Shit!  (Plops down with angry cry)

Dad walks over and grabs 2 things out his bag.

Dad: (mumble) Lemme see.

Marie: What?

Dad: Lemme see it.

Marie holds her hand out. He pours vodka on it. Marie screams.

Marie: Fuck!

Dad: Well you’re a dumbass. Shouldn’t have been trying to do it on your own.

Marie stares as he wraps her hand with a rag.

Dad: Should’ve asked me. I was sitting right there. (laughs)

They put the tent up together. Looks like shit. Donny walks up with fish and frogs in bag. Drops the bag.

Donny: Dinner. (looks at tent) Looks like shit.

Dad goes in tent. Donny starts collecting wood and throwing it in front of tent.

Marie: No! The fire was gonna go-

Donny: Shut the fuck up.

Marie: You’re an asshole. (grabs some wood)

Donny: What are you doing?

Marie: Helping. I’m hungry. We need to eat before it rains.

Donny: Well I don’t need your fucking help.

Marie: FINE. (sits down and lights up a cigarette)

Donny finishes gathering wood and tries to rub two sticks together to get it to light.

Marie: Holy shit. You’re taking forever. DAD! Donny doesn’t even know what he’s doing! You should teach your son how to be a man!

Donny: Fuck off. I’ve almost got it. You’re such a bitch.

Marie: Fuck you asshole.

Dad comes out of tent. Throws lighter fluid and match on pile of wood. Marie laughs and grabs bag of fish.

Donny: Whatever. (Goes in tent)

Marie and Dad cook some fish on sticks.

Marie: Donny!

Donny: I’m busy! Resting!

Marie You need to eat! I’m sorry I screamed at you and called you an asshole. Please eat.

Donny comes out of tent and takes a stick with fish from Marie.

Donny: What happened to your hand anyway?

Marie: I sliced it open trying to put the tent up by myself.

Donny: Well you should’ve asked for help. (chuckles) I’m a pro at putting up tents.

Marie: (laughs) You’re just like Dad.

Donny: Except smarter and better looking.

Marie looks at Dad. He laughs. She laughs.

Donny: What? (laughs)

Donny reties up Marie’s hand and a bottle of whiskey is passed around.

It starts to rain.

Dad laughs.

Marie: Fuck! What did I say?

Donny: Shut the fuck up!

(Had an audition a while back that was for a somewhat rude British female character. Wrote this monologue for it. Got offered the part-ended up having schedule conflicts though so I didn’t do the project.)

2 Girls in a bedroom

Jackie

(closing door & hollering to other room) We’ll be right out!

Bunnie

(holding bong/grinder/lighter up in the air) HOLY SHIT!!!

Jackie

Shut the fuck up, it’s fine. Do something with that-where’s the visine? (looks for visine)

Bunnie

Did she see anything? How fast were we? I blacked it all out. What’s she doing here? (puts paraphernalia down)

Jackie

Bunnie, she’s your mom-does she need an invite? (puts in eye drops)

Bunnie

No but at least an announcement-a warning! I think she might’ve heard me say “cigarette” through the door before she knocked! (Jackie’s laughing) Can you shut the fuck up?

Jackie

I’m sorry-you’re just- (mocks Bunnie)

Bunnie

I’m glad you can find the humor in this. (Puts in eye drops)

(“Mom” voice from the other room yells “Bunnie!”)

Bunnie

FUCK!- (Jackie laughs) Fuck you. (both girls get serious) Smell?

(Spritz sequence)

Bunnie

How do I-?

Jackie

2 Girls in the bathroom at a bar/club/etc.

Ashley

K, what do you think?

Claire

Oh dreamy, smart, witty, I’ve already taken off my underwear. You?

Ashley

Well…he does think Adrien Brody makes a perfect Luca Changretta!

…Ya, we’re eloping in Vegas later tonight.

Claire

That bad?

Ashley

Ya

Claire

Ya me too

Ashley

What the hell?

Claire

I thought you were having a good time!

(Ashleylaughs, then Ashley& Clairelaugh together)

Claire

Go home, re-binge Stranger Things with a bottle of Jack & a tube of cookie dough?

Ashley

Stogies?

Claire

You’re gross. (2 opens bathroom door, sees boys, closes door) Stogies!

Ashley

So you’re “sick”?

Claire

“OMG, ya, I think I just forgot to eat earlier & now I’m all ahh”

Ashley

Charli, holding cookies, knocks on door.

Marisa answers with attitude.

Marisa: I don’t have any money, I don’t like pyramid schemes, and I don’t want to talk about your friend Jesus. (starts to close door)

Charli: No! Wait! I’m not here for any of that-just here to give you these cookies!

Marisa: I know you. You’re in my gym class. Flat-chested Charli!

Charli: That’s me…hi Marisa.

Marisa: Didn’t know you could talk. What’s wrong with the cookies?

Charli: Nothing-it’s just a sorta pay-it-forward project. Do something nice for someone else-

Marisa laughs

Marisa’s mom (offscreen): (yells) Who is it?

Marisa: (hollers back) No one!

Marisa’s mom (offscreen): Then close the damn door!

Marisa: Get a life (Starts to close the door)

Charli: (quickly) I get it, ya know.

(Marisa opens door back up)

Marisa: What?

Charli: I get it-your mom, whatever BS you’re going through-I get it. Life sucks sometimes and I’m sorry. But that doesn’t mean that everyone you come in contact with is gonna screw you over.

Marisa: (laughs) Shut the hell up and go-

Charli: Just take my cookies please! This whole thing was my little sisters idea and she died last week in a car accident. Just please, take the damn cookies and do something nice for someone else one day, okay?

Marisa doesn’t say anything but takes the cookies and stares

(Alright guys! This is the first little creative post I’m doing-this is a little skit I wrote out for me and my friends to record for our demos! I call it “Shitty Neighborhood” Enjoy!) 

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Sandy-sweet, innocent, used-to-be rich girl whose family recently went bankrupt is walking home in her new neighborhood in a clean white shirt with her designer purse.

Mandy and Mickey are walking nearby with their giant sodas they got from the corner store. They see her, sneak up behind her, and pour their sodas over her head and laugh.

Sandy: (Screams) What the hell?!

Mickey: Nice tits!

(Sandy scoffs and covers her breasts)

Mandy: Prude!

Mandy and Mickey walk away

Cali’s walking on the other side of the street when she sees what happens and crosses to Sandy

Cali: (hollering to Mandy and Mickey) Fuck off assholes! (to Sandy) Here (gives Sandy her jacket and the pair continue walking)

Sandy: Uh-Thank you. Where did you come from?

Cali: The other side of the street-more interesting question: where did you come from?

Sandy: Oh I’m not from around here-

Cali: No shit

Sandy: Ya my dad just went bankrupt and my moms never worked a day in her life so here we are. (stop walking, they’ve reached her building)

Cali: Well, listen, alright..Smoke?

Sandy: Oh-no thank you

Cali: Right. Well, first of all open your eyes once in a while heh? And secondly, don’t go around carrying fancy purses like that in this neighborhood. Those 2 assholes? They’re just the tip of the iceberg. Which brings me to my final lesson which is you can’t let dirtbags like that get away with shittin on you like that or everyone’s gonna join in. Grow some balls alright?

Sandy: Open eyes, ditch the purse, grow some balls. Got it.

(they both laugh)

Cali: Wow, princess said “balls”

Sandy: Shut up! It’s Sandy, not princess.

Cali: Cali. Nice to meet you Princess Sandy.

Sandy: (laughs) why are being so nice to me?

Cali: I don’t know, you’re too pretty for this neighborhood.

Sandy: (blushes) You wanna come in and help me unpack?

Cali: You got some weed?

Sandy: Yep.

MAKING IT HAPPEN

I feel so much more alive when I’m in action! Things have been poppin! & Im committed to getting more consistent with my online social media presence. I’m going to start vlogging this week so most of my updates will be found on there from here on out. I’m going to use this space more for a collection of works-stories, skits, scripts. I’ll start posting those here instead. I’m also going to start using my Instagram twice a week and exploring Snapchat more! In the mean time, here are some updates...

Adulting!

Im currently sitting at a wonderful auto shop called VIP Auto in North Hollywood. They’re changing my oil & putting my front plate on! Monday I went to the DMV and forked over a nice chunk of cash to switch all of my car stuff to Cali. Tips: Study for drivers test (I did, and it helps) & make sure you get your smog test done beforehand. Also! Make an appointment at the DMV-it was the only way I was able to get everything done in one day. My official Cali license will be arriving in the mail in 2 weeks!

Keep the “Art” in “Smart!”

My event for the Sebastian River High School drama troupe happened last week! & it was amazing!!! It was definitely a challenge to throw together but I’m super proud of it. Had a really small crowd but everyone was super supportive & the show itself was bomb! Raised $300 in raffle/silent auction & almost $400 in ticket sales. The online donation collection is at $150ish I think but it’s still open through the end of May! I am so appreciative of everyone that participating in and assisted with my project-thank you, you know who you are. I’m going to work on & send out thank you notes this week!

Acting & Modeling

Back to submitting myself like crazy on Actors Access, LACasting, Backstage & I’ve signed up for UpCast as well! I did fall off the wagon there for a little while, but I’m submitting myself as much as possible again! I think that I might cancel my IMDb pro & UpCast though because those aren’t generating any auditions & its $34 a month between the two. I just self-submitted an audition this morning and I had another photoshoot yesterday. I’ve declared that by the end of May (& the end of my Self-Expression Leadership Program), I’ll be working full-time as an actress and model!

WORK IT GIRL

I’ve been working at that bar in Koreatown on weekends which has been pretty awesome & I’ve still been doing ecom/lookbook shoots during the week here and there but I’ve got to start making a little bit more money somehow because I’m definitely not saving any money. In fact, I’m not even breaking even & my savings are dwindling. I think I’m going to start writing some more and maybe I’ll submit some scripts for contests or something! Gotta get creative! 

Super excited about my fundraiser for Sebastian River High School’s drama troupe! That little town, and that little theatre department is where I got to get my feet wet in the world of theatre and acting. <3 I’m so excited to be organizing this event with the community to generate $10,000 for the troupe! When I attended, finances were tough. That troupe survives on a donation basis & they still really haven’t brought in much cash flow. Finally, we’re giving the troupe the kickstart they need to really get the ball rolling! Maybe they could even charge for tickets for their shows after this! These students are at such a weird, wonderful, confusing, vulnerable time in their lives & we can really give them the opportunity to see what’s possible and inspire them through this art form! Maybe some of them will go on to pursue theatre or some variation of entertainment as a career or maybe they’ll only experience the drama troupe for a year or two while they’re in high school- but the impact of the drama troupe experience never goes away & the family bond that is created can never break. At the end of the day they’ll learn that is it okay to stretch yourself out of that comfort zone, that it feels amazing to work on something and actually complete it and that there’s no point in taking yourself so seriously that you can’t have a little fun! Theatre teaches so much about connection, relationships, life, teamwork, dedication, perseverance, and discipline. I’m so excited to be able to say that I helped someone learn how to speak in front of a room full of people, or discover their passion, or make a friend, or understand the impact of art and society or even just have a little bit of good ole fashion clean fun during their high school experience! Okay ramble over-make your donations to www.youcaring.com/KeepTheArtInSmart :) The fundraiser event will be held at the Heritage Center in Vero Beach on April 12th! You can call me at 657-859-1121 for tickets to the event or if you’d like to help out! 

I fell off the face of the earth in Feb! Not really--just escaped to FL for a little while then came back to LA for a little while then went up to Eureka, CA for a little while. Now it’s March & I’m back in LA!

Didn’t really book anything too big in Feb. I did film a gameshow pilot at the beginning of the month which was A LOT of fun! I also did some ecomm photoshoots here and there & started working as a Proactiv lab rat! Looking forward to having a glowing face without having to get pregnant! 

I also worked a weekend at an awesome bar in Koreatown where I think I’ll be working on Fridays and Saturdays here on out. They seem to like me there for some reason, so I’m gonna hang around because I love it there! 

I’ve also been going to my Self Expression Leadership Classes through Landmark and have been (slowly but surely) started working on my project. It’s called: Keep the “Art” in “Smart” and it is a fundraiser for my old high school’s drama troupe! I’m organizing an event in April which means another trip back to FL. Poor me. lol 

As far as March goes, I’m gonna try to bunker down and make some mula. The vacays have killed my bank account. I’m also going to try to coordinate with some of my other lovely acting friends to get some reel clips going! I do have a fashion show booked on the 24th that my dear friend Emily is working on & I’m shooting a short film on the 15th which will also help with my reel situation.

I think I’m also going to spend some time on my Instagram and look into being a brand ambassador. Someone reached out to me on Insta for their brand so I applied but I haven’t heard anything back yet. I do think I’d be interested in something like that though. 

Also-someone hit me up with some St Patty’s plans or something, ya? 

The struggle is real! I’m making money-but not enough! I’m seeing my bank account numbers dwindle & my credit card debt increase! It’s time to go hard on other avenues of income!

I’m modeling a couple times a week & I’m applying for auditions and jumping-n-running any chance I have, but keeping my schedule “open” is no longer reason to waste time & money. They are two of the same regardless.

Oh also-I signed up for Backstage finally the other day. So know I’m submitting myself on LACasting, Actors Access, and Backstage. That was another $100 but it’s for the whole year at least. They were running some special. I guess it’s usually $150 or something like that.

I think I mentioned that I “had an audition in the morning” in my last blog. That actually went really well & I got a callback & that went really well but I haven’t heard anything back.

I also had another really good audition recently-but I haven’t heard anything back. With that in mind, I was stalling to book my flight back to FL-but I did it! Now I’ll just have to work around those dates!

I do have a paid game-show pilot gig for two days out of next week! As well as a photoshoot booked already! So that’s good!

I’m really looking forward to FL trip, but I am also excited to get back and go ham on making some mulla. I applied for some online “social media evaluator” & I have to finish some sort of pretest now. However, I’m going to keep applying at a lot of various flexible, profitable gigs.

I still need to look into Central Casting & I desperately need to get my reel together. I didn’t write a scene and a monologue, but I have multiple scenes. A reel will be beneficial. My friend Hannah has also written a few scenes so we’re going to finalize all of those and film some stuff in Feb!

Overall I feel like I’ve been super duper busy & I’m just not breaking the bank here-but I’m working on that. & Someone very important came to visit me for my birthday this weekend so I’m going to try to keep my mind off work for a few days.