ThatBlondie67

I'm trying to understand the cards that I was dealt in my life. I had a pretty shitty childhood for personal reasons including losing my father at the age of 6. In high school, I was so depressed, I didn't know what to do with myself. I wasn't allowed to see someone about it, either. I was overweight (almost obese), and in an abusive relationship. I would shut myself out of stuff because of a fear that if I cared about anyone, they'd say I was obsessed with them. I started University last fall, almost 1,000 miles from where I'm from. Since then, I've lost over 30 pounds. I got out of my last relationship. I stopped shutting myself out. And I started a relationship with the sweetest guy in the world. He's a feminist and was scared the other day that he was accidentally giving off the impression that he wanted me to lose weight. When I mentioned that I'm still going to lose weight, he was happy that it was going to be for me, not for him. I'm still self-conscious about my weight, so I get nervous that if I even lean on him wrong, he'll break. He loves memes and the other day, he picked me up in a bridal carry above his chest and mustered his best Bane impression to say "Ah... Yes... I was wondering what would fall first, your spirit or your body." He didn't drop me onto the bed when he finished his line, he managed to lightly throw me. It was the most amazing confidence boost I could've imagined. If you start him talking about Pushing Daisies, he'll talk about how cute it is until you stop him. He'll happily admit that '13 Going On 30' is a sweet, romantic movie. 3 in the morning, we were having a normal conversation that somehow became a Taylor Swift, 'You Belong With Me' sing-along. He's all of those things, but he's a hardcore AC⚡️DC, and Rolling Stones fan. He loves Supernatural and Lost. He fills me with so much confidence by not really doing anything big, just reassuring me and telling me that he loves me. It took him 10 days to say 'I love you' for the first time. Over 6 months have passed and there's no doubt in my mind that 'You Belong With Me.' Not that he'll ever see this.