âI want you to do this with me for one month. One month. Write 10 observations a week and by the end of four weeks, you will have an answer. Because when someone writes about the rustic gutter and the water pouring through it onto the muddy grass, the real pours into the room. And itâs thrilling. Weâre all enlivened by it. We donât have to find more than the rustic gutter and the muddy grass and the pouring cold water.â
â Marie Howe, Boston Universityâs 2016 Theopoetics Conference (via mothersofmyheart)
I ask my students every week to write 10 observations of the actual world. Itâs very hard for them.
Ms. Tippett:
Really?
Ms. Howe:
They really find it hard.
Ms. Tippett:
What do you mean? What is the assignment? 10 observations of their actual world?
Ms. Howe:
Just tell me what you saw this morning like in two lines. I saw a water glass on a brown tablecloth, and the light came through it in three places. No metaphor. And to resist metaphor is very difficult because you have to actually endure the thing itself, which hurts us for some reason.
Ms. Tippett:
It does.
Ms. Howe:
It hurts us.
Ms. Tippett:
You naming something.
Ms. Howe:
We want to say, âIt was like this; it was like that.â We want to look away. And to be with a glass of water or to be with anything â and then they say, âWell, thereâs nothing important enough.â And thatâs whole thing. Itâs the point.
Ms. Howe:
Itâs the this, right?
Ms. Howe:
Right, the this, whatever. And then they say, âOh, I saw a lot of people who really wantâ â and, âNo, no, no. No abstractions, no interpretations.â But then this amazing thing happens, Krista. The fourth week or so, they come in and clinkety, clank, clank, clank, onto the table pours all this stuff. And it so thrilling. I mean, it is thrilling. Everybody can feel it. Everyone is just like, âWow.â The slice of apple, and then that gleam of the knife, and the sound of the trashcan closing, and the maple tree outside, and the blue jay. I mean, it almost comes clanking into the room. And itâs just amazing.
Ms. Tippett:
In some basic level, what theyâve done is just engage with their senses.
Ms. Howe:
Yeah, and have been present out of their minds and just noticing whatâs around them, which is â we donât do. And again, not to compare it to anything. Theyâre not allowed. And thatâs very hard for them. And then on the fifth or sixth week, I say, âOK, use metaphors.â And they donât want to. They donât know how. Theyâre like, âWhy would I? Why would I compare that to anything when itâs itself?â Exactly. Good question.
So then you think, why the necessity of a metaphor? Why do you have to use a metaphor now? Not just to do it to avoid it, but to do it to make it more there. And itâs very interesting.
The words and silences we live by. The rituals that sustain us. The poetry of ordinary time.
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Thank you all for all the love for this comic! Itâs kinda crazy to me that a simple project for a class can reach so many people! I grew up watching princess bride, and I hope itâs clear how much I love it. Iâm glad folks have clocked the top surgery scars on Westley - This whole trio gave me major gender envy as a kid lol
disabled people who do not directly "contribute" to society and need large amounts of care and resources to survive deserve not only to survive but to have comfort, stability, and fun within their lives while they do. no compromises.
"this is DEFINITELY written by AI, I can tell because it uses the writing quirks that AI uses (because it was trained on real people who write with those quirks)"
I am big AI naysayer but I think making it into the latest of a series of unprovable accusations that you can use to harass anyone who annoys you slightly for any reason is literally the worst way to push back against its encroachment into our spaces
#the only AI quirk I believe is the use of the em dash (â)#just because itâs a pain to properly type out and real people really donât use it that often
hey so. not meaning to pick on you for this, but:
there are various types of word processors or other text inputs which will automatically convert -- to â, meaning its difficulty in being typed out is irrelevant
there are a lot of people on tumblr, including in the notes of this thread, who have actively said that they use the emdash in their writing
the whole point of LLMs is that they train on real people's writing; they are not just randomly picking characters from the US-ASCII charset to include; AI would not generate text with emdashes if its training base did not also include writings by real people that used them
this is exactly the sort of thing I'm saying is a problem. people saying that they think they can tell that something is an "AI quirk" because "real people" don't use it, because their personal experience does not encompass its usage
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It's about grief. It's about letting go. It's about fighting on. It's about family. It's about the existential horror of mimes.
It's about escapism. It's about surviving despite it all. It's about the wonder of the world even in darkness. It's about mimes beating the shit out of you.
It's about love. It's about heartbreak. It's about who the fuck put all those mimes here
Clair Obscur: A Life Extinguished, A Broken Body, and The Realism Trap
MASSIVE SPOILERS FOR CLAIR OBSCUR: EXPEDITION 33 FOLLOW. DONâT READ THIS IF YOU HAVENâT FINISHED THE STORY.
I finished Clair Obscur this weekend, and cried so hard tears ran down my neck. You guys⌠a boogery, blubbery mess. I chose Versoâs ending, which felt strange because he was basically never in my party, and I noted throughout the game how vacant the character had begun to feel, almost intentionally, like he was hollowed out. But I was compelled to make the choice, which felt intuitively correct, and the catharsis of the end had me feeling secure.
Then, always a mistake: I got online. While I found many like me, crying but content whether having chosen Maelle or Verso, I uncovered a festering argument I imagine will only bubble and spread as more people tackle this beautiful game and take to the web to discuss it. The argument: which ending is the âcorrectâ one? Which ending do the devs think is âgoodâ and which ending were you âsupposedâ to pick?
I should have known that the internet, designed to make you feel at all costs like you won (even at a game nobody else was playing) could reduce this masterful elegy to an argument. In the world of âending explainerâ videos and âwhat was the real meaning behind the Symbolâ listicles, this type of debate was, I guess, inevitable. But it sucked to experience at a time when I hoped Iâd find others who wanted to meditate on what theyâd seen and felt.
And then I saw some even weirder shit, where people said the âVersoâ ending was âgenocideâ and only the Maelle ending could be true, and that people who chose Verso were psychopaths. And I realized I too felt strongly about my choice, especially against people with such inflammatory takes. I read further, and further, for a whole day, stewing and burbling, and hereâs what I have to say.
Debating if the creatures and worlds in the canvas are ârealâ or ânot realâ reduces them to a binary state - victims of our reductive thinking. Esquie IS a big, powerful protector who can fly and swim and dive and run; he IS also a stuffed animal once beloved by a small boyâa boy who has died. Neither of those states is more real - or more valuable - than the other. To young Verso, Esquire COULD flash through the skyâyou can almost hear him calling it out, pumping his little legs as he tears ass across the manor grounds, holding the stuffed Esquie above his head.Â
You had those moments too, you remember, young and carefree, really believing in something invented or adopted as your own. Those worlds we experienced as kidsâtrapped between our ears before they might be pinned down on paper or canvas in breathing inkâwere very real. The adrenaline flowed and our hearts throbbed and we shed real tears. Those emotions were as consuming as any we feel now, tethered to reality. So itâs understandable to feel a sense of bereavement when Esquie (and all the others) vanish as the canvas is erased, but I began to feel uncomfortable when I saw fans using words like âmurderâ and âgenocideâ to talk about this moment.
Verso Dessandre died in a fire. Itâs the core loss. The repercussions of that death are world shattering. People arenât alright when a family member dies. They are never the same. We use the phrase âevery life a universeâ to talk about lives lost to real-life war, oppression, and genocide, and this is what we meanâthe hopes, wishes, and futures of a life extinguished in a moment. So I bristle at seeing these words being used for such a symbolic coup de grâce, especially when we have so many real life examples to choose from.Â
When a person dies, many things go with them. Their dreams, their imaginations. The special alchemy of their personal vision, breathing life into their secret worlds. And many deaths ripple out from that first death. The silly voice they use only with one other person. The in-jokes, cute references, and special memories they share with precious few. All their possible futures, never to become. Not only are these all deaths, they are all the same death. Verso didnât just die once. He dies again and again, as these threadsâthese long strands of inkâ begin to fade from existence.
I feel such boundless compassion for people who grasp their controllers and cry âmurderâ when some of us choose to erase the canvas. âEsquie and Monoco and all the people of Lumiereâtheyâre real!â Yes⌠they were. To someone who has died. Whatâs left of themâwhat you experienced for 30 or more hours while parrying your way through the continentâ was a distorted reflection, a memory, the hitch in breath between the sobs. Your window into the crushing spectre of a familyâs loss was barely even a fragment of itâand yet it was an ocean of possibility, the depth of everything that could be housed in one soul. All this time, the characters you loved were just facets, possible futures and hopes, of someone who wasnât allowed to finish growing up. Your grief, your outrage, and your sense of injustice as you watch the canvas fade is the same as Alineâs, Aliciaâs, Cleaâs, and even Renoirâs.Â
The endings of Clair Obscur seem opposing, but theyâre the same tragedy, you see. Versoâs beautiful spirit has long since left both his family and, mostly, the canvas too, leaving only one final strange fragment behind to animate the increasingly frayed projection of his possible self. Itâs a dream - not a man - and it suffers while the real final fragment bends over a charmed canvas, trapped in decaying reverie. All the private times with Clea and Aline inside the canvas begin to wither and contort as the memories grow dimmer and the ink stutters and skips from the brush to the page. The gestrals are reduced to dipping their heads in the sacred river, no animating spirit left to bring them back. The people of Lumiere decayâitâs impossible to free them from their countdown even when the numbers are stripped from the monolith. Is that life? Is that living? Is that real?Â
âItâs better than living in a broken body!â you howl.Â
Ah, now we come to it. You think a disabled body canât house real lifeâso much so that you prefer childrenâs stories where death is impossible to reality, where disease, disfigurement, and death are as real as breathing. You think to be disabled is to be damned. You think the odds are against us, and you wonder, not so secretly, if itâs even worth it.Â
Respectfully: fuck you. Alicia may want at times to drown in the ink of the canvas. What disabled or chronically ill person has not set aside our pain, fear, brain fog, insurance worries, bad test results, or grief to enjoy an imaginary world? Weâre known for it. We deserve the respite, and many of us need it to survive. But while those beautiful illusions soothe us, reality breaks in. It must. Thereâs a body to care for, a mind to nurture, and the daily activities of living that need doing. Thereâs pain, thereâs fear, thereâs hardship.Â
But there is also beauty. Victories over our suffering. Successful treatment or improvements in our condition. And we are worth more than these milestones of progress. We feel the warmth of the sun, smell a fall breeze. We abide, in our state, pain and all. We must grieve. We must existâand no matter how broken my body is, itâs mine. I deserve all its beauty, all it has to offer me. And it deserves meâall of me, when I can spare it, removed from my attempts to escape it. Thank you, broken body, for sustaining. I am sorry about what has happened to you.Â
Nothing stops the Dessendres, marred by injury and age and trauma, standing graveside crushing flower petals or holding a masked toy, from remembering those warm afternoons with Verso conjuring endless monsters and singing. They remember the child he was, the man he became, and mourn the life taken from him. The canvas isnât necessary to keep Esquie, Monaco, and the people of Lumiere alive. The only purpose it serves is to distract a family from the harsh reality they must face to survive. That tomorrow comes, and with it death. That we continue, even when we hurt so badly that oblivion seems preferable.Â
The trick of it all is that none of it means a damn thing. Thatâs what chafes. Until we know what exactly the Writers named in the script were trying to do by setting the fire, thereâs no meaning to Versoâs death, just like thereâs no meaning to my illness, which will be lifelong. It was a tragedyâand it always will be, whether my eyes are open to the light of the sun or sealed shut with ink. But I live with things as they are, for myself, no matter what comes after.Â
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The more you google bee reproductive biology the more absurd it is that weâre applying the words male and female to them. Their actual genders are worker, drone and queen. The queen is capable of both asexual and sexual reproduction. Bees born of unfertilized eggs become drones that are capable of fertilizing eggs. Bees born of fertilized eggs become workers, but can also potentially become a queen depending on how they are fed during the larval stage.
Use whatever the fuck pronouns you want to describe bees because theyâre all equally incorrect projections of human worldview onto an insect species. Bees donât experience mammalian sexual dimorphism in a biological sense nor do they experience human gender dimorphism in a sociopolitical sense.
diversity win, the freak sneaking into your garden and rubbing themselves all over your flowers does not fit into a human biological or sociopolitical framework of sex and gender!