- Hole world stops -

i go from "i didn't deserve the things that happened to me" to "there is no suffering that I do not deserve" in like 3 seconds

I want to cry, but I can't. I physically can't.

Do you ever just miss a bond you had with someone? Like regardless of what happened between you two, you miss the conversations, the laughs you guys had over the stupidest things, or the way that they were there for you when you weren't at the best. The little things matter.

having bpd is actual hell on earth cause no one tries to fucking understand you and they write you off as being difficult and too much and they leave and we’re left with this fucking personality disorder that consumes my entire fucking existence and they act like its THEIR inconvenience that IM ill.

Wanting someone 2 love you like you love them when you have bpd is so shattering

Do you ever feel absent but like from your own life????? Like it feels like every day is here, and you’re fucking missing it.

i dont care (this affected me deeply and made me cry for several hours)

I don’t like being an asshole, but people don’t hear me when I’m nice.

do you ever feel like you were never supposed to be alive and the most humane thing to do is put you down like a bad dog?

do you ever feel like you were never supposed to be alive and the most humane thing to do is put you down like a bad dog?

i will forever be the hurting child, the angry teenager and the lonely adult.