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adopted a puppy mill dog, why tf are we on the same antidepressant meds 😭😭

life doesn’t feel worth it anymore. it never did. i convinced myself that there’s more, but i always end up right back in this hole. so what’s the point?

i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate myself i hate myself why can’t i be normal

i hate knowing that no one will ever love me the way i love them.

i know things are REALLY bad because i haven’t been eating, and usually my vice is binge eating. maybe im making myself go hungry because it’s a constant pain and i need that physical pain.

i love my boyfriend, but since we started dating all of those awful bpd symptoms started to crop up. i don’t want to, but i might have to breakup with him to find my way out of this hellish loop.

lately, whenever i wake up i wish i hadn’t.

i want to be in a happy relationship but maybe that’s just not for me.

i want to relapse so bad but there goes 8 months of being clean right down the drain.