Burnt out flames should never reignite

“And after everything I am still trying and I am trying and this is trying after trying. Healing is not beautiful and life is not always perfect and I know this and you know this so why do we try and make it so. Can I try for contentment instead?”

““Are you in love with the him or are you in love with the thought of being with him and of finally being loved by someone?” she asked. I thought about it and said, “At first I was in love with the thought of him but now my thoughts are coming true, so I’m slowly falling for him. Harder than I thought possible.””

“And you tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more. Tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake… You can’t make homes out of human beings. Someone should have already told you that. And if he wants to leave, then let him leave. You are terrifying, and strange, and beautiful. Something not everyone knows how to love.”

“I really want to believe that one day I’ll meet someone and have no doubts that I’m supposed to be with him for the rest of my life and that he’d never hurt me and that I can completely be myself around him. But until then I’ll keep texting boys I’m already over and getting drunk with boys I’m not sure about and learning lessons that I really need to learn.”

“I’m never going to get over it but I can get past it. I think that’s where I am right now. I won’t forget about it but I’ll gradually think about it less and less until it’s just something that happened and not something that’s currently destroying me. One day it won’t hurt me anymore and it’ll just be something that at one point did. So I’ll pretend it doesn’t matter until it actually doesn’t.”

“Not all toxic people are cruel and uncaring. Some of them love us dearly. Many of them have good intentions. Most are simply toxic to our being simply because their needs and way of existing force us to compromise ourselves and our happiness. They aren’t inherently bad people, but they aren’t the right people for us”