It's Ironic Really...

I’ve been depressed beyond recognition this last year or so. I’ve bounced on and off hormones and am dealing with the aftermath due to lack of funds to pay for doctor visits Ive quit my job and am focusing on my art, mental health, and im working as a Lyft driver for extra income where necessary...

I’ve nearly lost all muse for Roleplaying.. but I cannot bare the thought of deleting my blogs.. at least not main ones like Volkner. I might come back someday, but until further notice he’s on a semi-permanent hiatus. meaning i might pop in now and again but i will not indulge in group RPs or with long threads.

Volkner and his character mean too much to me to just.. quit. I might remake the blog and archive this one if I plan to come back for an extended stay. Right now I might focus on making a Katsuki Bakugou blog [My Hero Academia]

Focusing on Kacchan.. and his struggles.. I see myself in him.. a lot. I just don’t have his explosive outward anger.. I bottle everything up.. I have no outlet save for RP and Cosplay.

My discord is open to request. As is my Telegram. Search for VenuShade and you’ll find me if I have an account somewhere.

   I am in no way going to tolerate hate and intolerance in any form. You all know mun =/= muse and sometimes muses are horrible people and do horrible things.

   With all this nazi and confederate shit running around and also issues with the lovely Democratic Peoples Republic of Korea [aka North Korea] I want to say a few things involving my personal iteration of Volkner and my other RP blogs.

   NO. I do NOT support any of these neo nazi, white nationalist idiots. I do not condone their behavior. I think they should all be Doxxed and punched in the face at least once.

   Yes there are references to Nazi Germany and North Korea in my fake region Ucroa and it’s characters. but this is because I was trying to make it a region full of ‘evil’ and I’m fascinated by the past and what is around me.

   Yes, 90% of my RP’d characters are Blond hair and Blue eyes, the “aryan race”. [Volkner, Naruto, Yuri Plisetsky, Michaela Hyakuya to name a few]. This is a mix of coincidence and personal preference as I find these things attractive visually. 

   Walking up to his brother he gently cupped his cheeks in both of his calloused hands, stroking gentle lines just under Minato’s eyes as if to wipe away imaginary tears. He’d wiped away real ones plenty of times.

   “ What about it don’t you like, Nii-chan... Is it love? Hate? What feeling are you getting... are you finally picking up on everything I’ve been bottling up for Years since you started dating Kushina..? ” he hissed, voice quiet. He leaned in then, a sadistic smirk on his face.   “ Are you finally feeling some of my pain otouto? Or are you trying to make me as distant as possible... render me just your shadow.. a convenient Shadow Clone that doesn’t vanish when you get tired... ” that’s when the grin faded, turning into a scowl, his hands sliding down to his brother’s neck.