You know, near death experiences are so weird in that it colors so many things in a different light.
One major one is that anything I create now had a real chance of never existing? Like before my covid coma I took life for granted. Everyone is born and then just exists for some time and that’s it. But now?? Fuck dude, please understand that we GET TO DO STUFF!! Like it’s wild how much stuff we can do.
A minor one is I was so right to never smoke cuz I can’t imagine going in with bad lungs. It’s one of those cases of probability immortality? Where it’s like I grew up never really caring to smoke but I could never tell you why. I just never got the urge to. But then I survived covid with its lung melting powers and now I’m like… do I only still exist cuz I’m in the universe where I didn’t smoke?
Near death experiences are a hell of a drug