May 27
I either got obsessed with this game on my own or through ex bsf #2 I honestly don’t remember and I have two distinctly different memories on what happened
If I got into it by myself I was so so AGGGHHHH bc I wanted to tell anyone about it but I couldn’t bc I was so far in the closet that I was pretending ANYTHING lgbtq was. nonexistent or something idek
If I got into it bc of ex bsf #2 I was aggghhhhhgg bc I wanted to get ex bsf #1 into it but I couldn’t tell her about it bc she’s homophobic
#i was really actually good at acting#i was so good at pretending to be straight EVERYONE was shocked when i came out#like. I’m not even kidding a grand total of two people have ever clocked me as a lesbian#fun fact me coming out probably through a BUNCH of mental gymnastics is the reason I lost all my best friends#i distanced myself from ex bsf 1 bc she was getting a stick up ger ass abt early college but also i developed a MASSIVE crush on a girl and#couldnt tell her so we sort of didn’t talk and she started actively avoiding me for some reason#that sucked#and then ex bsf 2 and 3 was a MASSIVE shitshow that basically hit the boiling point when i dated my ex and broke up with them#i don’t feel like talking about it AGAIN but i did a lot of wrong thing#but they also did a lot of wrong things acting like because they were being kind and understanding i owed them complete repentance for my#wrongdoings#it was a trio friendship that became toxic (me towards them and them towards me)
