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Perfect Weather

Rainy days and cold dimmed room, the sound of rain is soothing.

Flashes of lightning and the occasional thunder doesn’t scare me anymore.

As I lay in bed protected by your warmth tangled in sheets.

Fingers drift through my hair lulling me to sleep.

Warm lips move across my cheek towards my ear

You whispered sweet nothings and I was filled with love.

Cuddling under the blankets, your scent envolops me.

You smelled so divine.

Hold me tighter as we talk about random things

Laugh at our own silly jokes and let the world fade away.

Eros surely blessed me with you

A being crafted by the gods themselves.

In your arms, my fear disappears,

Before the storm scares me away.

But now I believe that rainy days with lightning and thunder

Is a perfect day if it means I can have you in my arms.

When I started these journal prompts, my ultimate aim was self-discovery. I want to get to know myself - figure out the way I think, the way I feel, my course of actions and pretty much everything that runs in my head and as to how I manage these thoughts.

But when I asked myself what would make me happy right now, I can't seem to find the right answer. New books, new friends, new environment are actually some that came to mind and of course, money. But then I know these are all worldly things and happiness found in these are all temporary.

What would make me happy right now? I don't know, maybe simply some peace of mind. I'm in a state of confusion and sadness as I am writing this prompt. You know some days you feel great and enthusiastic about life no matter how hard it gets, but truth be told, there's also a series of dreadful days when the same energy is just not there for the circumstances have drained the life out of you.

Life doesn't always scatter roses on our feet, does it?

So I guess that's it? What would probably make me happy right now is when I get to have some peace of mind. An assurance that all these problems, negative energy and life uncertainties will all pass by. Like always.

A sense of relief that no matter how cruel life can be, there are still good things out there to look forward in everyday.

And maybe a genuine pat on the shoulder with some encouraging words that it's just a bad day, and not a bad life.

since this ocean's obviously not shallow - and I am drowning.

I know that if I keep calm, I may be able to float around and remember to breathe, again ㅡ

But what's breathing for if I can't have you?

What's resurfacing to life for if I have you not by my side?

It's going to be a long dive and a longer fight,

but I want to be by your side.

And so I sink lower.

I fall deeper.