#insecurities

Here’s the list of my mutuals: @ihauntmyhouse @thewordsmith3 @snapcandle @c00c00pig @yourfriendlyneighbourhoodaries @southernfreakinggothic @demigod-jack-hearth @beauty-queen-official @molovesbooks @billybatsonmylove @irish-agender-moss @munchkinmarauder @dougielombax @one-of-batmans-orphans @ace-looking-4-parkingspace @supersonicdp @ltwharfy

@ligaments-08 @spiritbox713 @drksanctuary @berf-a-smurf @bacon-bitch @demigoddumbass @cosmo-autistic-version @a-field-of-dragonflowers @sparkysaurus @that-lego-frog @ashes-of-a-giftedkid-burnout @svnvfhcrmcs @anomymous2

But since I've been insecure about my posts being seen lately, I almost wonder if my methods of tagging people are the problem. It might be that people have blocked me for being annoying. It might be that people are busy, too busy perhaps to notice my tags. But I can't be sure, so I worry it's me. So tell me: if I format my tags like this, do you think more people will see them:

Here’s the list of my mutuals: @ihauntmyhouse @thewordsmith3 @snapcandle @c00c00pig @yourfriendlyneighbourhoodaries @southernfreakinggothic @demigod-jack-hearth @beauty-queen-official

@molovesbooks @billybatsonmylove @irish-agender-moss @munchkinmarauder @dougielombax @one-of-batmans-orphans @ace-looking-4-parkingspace @supersonicdp @ltwharfy

@ligaments-08 @spiritbox713 @drksanctuary @berf-a-smurf @bacon-bitch @demigoddumbass @cosmo-autistic-version @a-field-of-dragonflowers

@sparkysaurus @that-lego-frog @ashes-of-a-giftedkid-burnout @svnvfhcrmcs @anomymous2

I never played the Pokemon anime with my dad today. I imagine I'll play it with him again tomorrow. I made some posts about it a while back, and I don't know if those posts ever got attention. So I think I'm going to boost those now.

I'm still insecure about my posts being seen. I'm still insecure about that! I've made at least 50+ posts in the past week. Have any of them been seen!? Considering I get probably one note an hour (if that) and often mainly for my old posts, I would say no! My vents haven't been seen. And I really shouldn't care, but I can let myself get worked up until I do care. And I just...gods, I'm unhappy.

1. back pain

2. my shirt slowly coming untucked from my pants and bunching up weirdly around my stomach

3. constantly feeling sweaty, overheated, and thirsty, especially when everyone around me is cold

4. having greasy/unwashed hair

5. having bad posture due to insecurity and kind of folding in on myself, which causes:

6. back pain

7. feeling winded after going up stairs or carrying something heavy or awkwardly shaped

8. someone asking if they smell bad because what if secretly they’re doing it because I smell bad and they’re trying to clue me in nicely and just the idea of smelling bad makes me feel fat

9. doing anything remotely active or athletic when literally ANYONE is watching because deep down I worry I’m just going to look stupid and fat and chopped

HOW??! THIS WAS JUST A SILLY LITTLE QUIZ ABOUT BAKING A CAKE? I DIDN'T THINK IT WOULD BE THIS ACCURATE

Oh god

One of the toes on my left foot feels really itchy. I don't know why, but it's really uncomfortable. It's so itchy, it's downright maddening to me. Absolutely maddening.

I feel like 5 of my 10 fingers are sore from being bitten at. One thumb, one middle finger, both index fingers, one ring and one pinky. That's actually six fingers, but yeah. I bite so much that this was a given, sadly. I'll need bandages once I'm out of the tub, that's for sure.