#witcherkin

I think I just realized my Jaskier may have spent a night with Vesemir and I do not know how to feel about that. It wouldn't have been cheating, he wouldn't have been breaking any set boundaries, but it feels weird. Perhaps because Vesemir told me I shouldn't scare him away. I just assumed it was about Jaskier being the only one willing to paint us Witchers in a positive light and being a positive influence on me, but now I have to wonder if it was that and "your bard is good in bed and you clearly need that". This is honestly a hilarious realization and now part of me hopes they did and he was telling me I needed to relax more.

I'm going to be honest, I hated that we had to leave Faerun. Jaskier looked so happy being able to do magic, I didn't want to force him to leave that behind. And for what? So he could go back to learning Witcher signs (yes he got mutated, but as an adult, it's a Thing and I don't have the energy to explain), which he struggled with as opposed to the natural grasp he had on bardic magic? I couldn't abandon Ciri and Yen, and I know he never would have wanted to, but maybe if they'd come with us... Except Ciri wouldn't have abandoned her kingdom. Fuck all the gods from both worlds for doing that. For giving Jaskier magic well beyond what he ever could've had where we came from then ripping it away. He was happy, learning from Alfira and discovering what he could do. I think Gale realized I wasn't so sure about going back. Jaskier was more open about not being eager to go back, but I didn't say anything. There was nothing for it, it had to be done. But fuck if I don't wish we'd at least stayed for a bit longer. I wish I could've given him that world for a bit longer. I may have been weakened to some extent being there (and by the tadpole but even when that was gone, the way magic worked and the way my signs worked within Faerun was... Weird? I don't really know how to explain it but I did not like how my signs worked in Faerun. Plus I didn't really have access to any of my potions, once I used the ones I had when I first was abducted, which I have always considered part of my overall strength as a Witcher), but it was worth it for my bard.

This blog's resident Geralt back again to say... It's weird. It's really, really weird. I just realized that, in some sense, ceremorphosis could be considered a narrative parallel to Witcher mutation in that one's previous identity is effectively lost. I would have been a very different person if I hadn't become a Witcher (thus the mutation changed who I was and who I would have been), just as I would have become a very different person had we not removed the tadpole from my head. I never really confronted that idea when the whole Absolute issue was ongoing, or after in that life because I didn't really look back a whole lot in that life, but I think Jaskier did. I know he wrote a lot about that kind of thing, I just never paid attention to it. I'm sure Gale was intrigued by it, he also asked a lot of questions about the whole mutation thing. I wish I could've given him better answers, but I didn't really know the theory of it or anything like that. Shame he never got to meet Vesemir. The two of them might have had some interesting conversations. Maybe in this life, the two will get to meet and have all the long discussions on odd occurrences and magic and whatever else.

I appreciate being given the go ahead, I'm a fairly anxious person in this life (which is just peak irony).

I'm not sure if requests are open, if not, feel free to ignore! Do you have any suggestions for maybe a toruviel kin, from the Witcher? I cannot eat alot of wheat, or spicy things in this life. Thank you for your time, as always!