good afternoon, i'm back and i just reread what i wrote last night. i used to hate angst so damn bad so idk what happened to me when my meds were dragging me into the abyss but SHEESH that last paragraph was mean to phainon 😭
i think he'd make a fantastic father, and if i kept going with this au, i think there would be a few cycles in which phainon tried to do nothing but start a family and live a peaceful life with the reader and his little girl. but the black tide is inevitable and consumes everything — including you. so no matter how many times he tries to live a "normal" life, he finds himself going back to his real plans.
although.. maybe every 1000 cycles or so, phainon settles down. maybe. but every time, you notice that phainon seems super distant at times. you never give up on him, but he's getting worse at hiding his agony. hell, maybe you even turn on him in the same way anaxa did. both you and anaxa are reluctant to admit that phainon has lost his mind, but both of you are only doing it because you love and support phainon too much to see him become a monster.
